Okay this is difficult. I have always been fascinated by whole BD S M scene and everything that goes with it but my professional life, family and kids have stopped this. I am very sexually active but my life has been frustrated by vanilla.
My two main experiences, but there have been others, are firstly with one of my ex wife’s who was very sub and I loved it. She wanted more and more pain and the excitement was beyond imagination. It turned me on so much when she wanted used and used more, arse thrashed till it bled, insertions, rough play and markings al over hidden parts igyher body. Orgasms for both of us immense. It stopped with kids appearing. My other experience was with a male dom. I am primary hero but do get fucked by males occasionally either one to one or small groups. Once I was used so hard, stretched and owned, thrashed to the point I almost blacked out and it was just the most amazing secret
Other than that my fetishes are kept hidden. Inam into nipples and stretching to extremes and dildo and stretch my hole constantly loving the pain and intense feelings

I want more and more and someone or some people to help me explore

Outwardly a very straight acting professional