Personal details

Gender Woman
Age 31
Status Single
Height 51cm
Weight 19kg
Body shape Plus-size
Hair length Long
Orientation Straight
Ethnicity Caucasian white
Zodiac signs Libra
Glasses
Smoker
Tattoos
Piercings

About me

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Description

I'm not perfect, I have a lot of issues and I just want to be happy, loved unconditionally, respected, to make like minded friends, possibly find a boyfriend due to potential relationships not working out. I previously left here because someone I met that is a satanist, cursed me with black magick so need help to get rid of it, if there are any people here involved in the occult please let me know thanks.

Fantasies

I don't like if a man is a daddy dom and very controlling, obsessive and they won't accept that I won't do exactly everything they expect me to do. I am a sub and a masochist so that doesn't mean I am a slave, it's a completely different role. Not interested in being a 24/7 slave to a master owner. Interested in making genuine friends that I can trust. I am interested in being friends or dating someone that is a daddy dom, modern day vampire, goth/metalhead, witch as long as they don't use their beliefs/witchcraft against me.

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Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 19.03.2019 9:26:03
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Is a attraction to sadists normal for a woman?

Okay well I am into vampirism (so I like knifeplay, bloodplay, being and pain in general) I don't like that just to be self destructive though, I understand that self harm is considered that.
Had my heart broken a lot recently so I feel like being emotionally restrained, to keep people at a Read more… distance until they trust me and vice versa like men do, they keep their options open till something better comes along.

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 created a topic in BDSM Forum
Is a attraction to sadists normal for a woman?
Hi, just wondering if maybe I am attracted to men that are dominant and a daddy dom, master and also a sadist because I am submissive and a masochist (I can be self destructive)
Is this normal? How do you know if you are attracted to sadists if your a woman? All the guys I have had a long distance Read more…online relationships with were ddlg relationships and they wanted to have a ddlg relationship. They were caring, loving, sweet and kind sometimes but a sadist so sadistic/cruel sometimes as well. I did like it when the person I was talking to was saying about rough/violent sex and they like the fact that I like pain and self harm. I feel like I can actually be myself with a sadist if that makes sense. Do other women have the same attraction to sadists?
Momsashtray
Momsashtray I also are attracted to sadistic women who will hurt you for their pleasure but they are hard to find it's probably easier with men it's more in our nature to be violent than a woman i may be wrong i often am LoL hope you find what you are looking for I also are attracted to sadistic women who will hurt you for their pleasure but they are hard to find it's probably easier with men it's more in our nature to be violent than a woman i may be wrong i often am LoL hope you find what you are looking for
Like · 20.03.2019 18:51:35
Masochist_Chick666
Masochist_Chick666 Okay well I am into vampirism (so I like knifeplay, bloodplay, being and pain in general) I don't like that just to be self destructive though, I understand that self harm is considered that.
Had my heart broken a lot recently so I feel like being emotionally restrained, to keep people at a distance until they trust me and vice versa like men do, they keep their options open till something better comes along. Okay well I am into vampirism (so I like knifeplay, bloodplay, being and pain in general) I don't like that just to be self destructive though, I understand that self harm is considered that.
Had my heart broken a lot recently so I feel like being emotionally restrained, to keep people at a distance until they trust me and vice versa like men do, they keep their options open till something better comes along.
Like · 19.03.2019 9:26:03
eyemblacksheep
eyemblacksheep it's not uncommon for women to be attracted to sadists - it all depends on individuals, preferences and the type of play enjoyed - and whether that's physical, emotional, playful, whatever.
I do, however, have concerns if you're talking to guys who LIKE that you self-harm. Whilst this is again a complex and emotive issue - I can't see this as being anything that is helpful to your wellbeing it's not uncommon for women to be attracted to sadists - it all depends on individuals, preferences and the type of play enjoyed - and whether that's physical, emotional, playful, whatever.
I do, however, have concerns if you're talking to guys who LIKE that you self-harm. Whilst this is again a complex and emotive issue - I can't see this as being anything that is helpful to your wellbeing
LikeBigPolly, Littlefellow · 18.03.2019 23:17:50
Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 18.03.2019 21:06:24
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)

Am I ever do is worry about the present, the future outcome of any potential relationship, if they actually love me, care or want a relationship like they said they did. If they truly cared they wouldn't abandon me at random without explanation. Sometimes I feel like men don't respect me or respect Read more… what I want. Sorry for being rude to anyone but since I am struggling to get the help I need in other aspects of my life, I am focusing on this, maybe a little too much but because I know what I want and my own happiness and love are important to me.
I have limited experience with sex, kink, not much experience with dating in general due to be sexually repressed for a long time and no man being interested in me.

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 17.03.2019 10:48:28
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)

Your comment was rude in the first place and offended me!

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 17.03.2019 8:43:35
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)

Wtf? How am I desperate? I know what I want and desrve, I love myself, respect myself, know my self worth. I know what I want and I am determined to get what I want/deserve. No one that has abusive background is not going to have issues and no one is perfect without any flaws or doesn't have issues Read more… related to baggage.
It seems like men sometimes want to rush things, or not long after knowing me, they tell me they love me, this can be a red flag that represents a controlling person. Sometimes it seems like a guy would only want to have a relationship with me to boost their own ego, sexual gratification, just so they can say that they were with me because they are a narcissistic, passive aggressive, controlling, manipulative, Marseille that charmed with their supposed feelings, care, love, whatever. Love can be a way of conditioning a person to a t a certain way just to please someone, to bend to their will but only on their terms of course there is no compromise or mutual respect and understanding for whatever reason.
I have never felt loved in my life, have been hurt a lot in various ways, so love in a relationship, being loved means a lot to me and I take it seriously. So if you guys have helpful advise before judging me then maybe it would be appreciated more, you don't know me or what I have been through to get to the point where I finally know I love myself and what I deserve or what I want. I have been through a lot of s hit in my life, so for people here to judge me it is hurtful.

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 16.03.2019 15:09:56
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Plus sized and into kink okay?

Being plus sized or whatever you call it is not acceptable in many industries especially fashion. one of reasons that I want that to change since I have a bigger figure and big feet so it's awkward to find anything to fit me. There is a woman that makes up to size 42 clothing but it is very, very Read more… expensive unfortunately :/
There is tattoo and piercing prejudice (I have been bullied my whole life, so I have low self esteem, issues with the way I feel about myself, or the way other people treat me) People have been or are prejudice just because I exist in the first place, because I am a goth/masthead on a budget and I am proud to be different/into kink I don't do things just because everyone else is doing it.

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 16.03.2019 9:37:21
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)

How am I complaining? Men say that they love mr, care about me, want a relationship, they talk to me one day then ignore me the next.
It's narcissistic, passive aggressive bullying all the time, a total mindfuck because they give me mixed messages, so sometimes it seems like they care sometimes it Read more… doesn't.
Apparently men only act like this because I am anxious when they don't talk to me, because I have issues with trust, rejection/abandonment. So what gives a guy the right to use the issues I have to use as a excuse o push me away/reject me when they are not perfect and have issues/baggage anyway? Wtf?

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 15.03.2019 23:59:21
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)

That makes sense, but counselling hasn't helped me so don't see the point of it. I'm just fed with with being hopeful about something such as a relationship, and it doesn't go the way I thought it would. I am not good at reading signals about the way a person feels about me as a person, friend or Read more… potential girlfriend, men give me mixed signals, act hot, cold, emotionally distant and indiffeent, but then caring and supportive the next day, so it confuses me.
I am and always will be direct and brutally honest about what I want even if it is painful, so maybe I am/can be intimidating I guess :/

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 created a topic in BDSM Forum
Kink relationship (but depression/anxiety interferes)
Hi all, just wanted some advice about having a kink related relationship when you are depressed, anxious and have other issues such as: trust issues, believing that I am lovable, that people really do care/love me, low self esteem.
I have had a lot of long distance, online relationships that have Read more…failed, due to men using issues I have against me, or apparently I am a nuisance, or burden due to feeling anxious and insecure (due to men saying 5hey want me and sometimes it seems like they want me sometimes it doesn't.
What is the best way for me to show someone I want to pursue a relationship that I am loyal, trustworthy, that I do care/love them! (a relationship is about compromise, give and take, equal amounts of respect, time given to the other person.)
LikeFaithful33 · 13 Replies
eyemblacksheep
eyemblacksheep I don't have a quick answer for you.
But, before you get a man to love you, for you - first off - you need you to love you for being you.
You are attractive, but I can see you're obviously struggling. A lot of the problems will keep happening until you can work on the above. I know this, Read more… because I've been in similar positions myself.
Obviously we do have the issue that a lot with Mental Health can be a fucking mine field - trying different things, whether that's treatments, programmes, medication - and it's a very much trial and error basis.
Things that have been working for me, might not for you - otherwise I'd just tell you what I did and boom - sorted.
Something I learned. When you rely on someone else for happiness it drains them - and a lot of people then start overthinking or treading on eggshells wanting to make you happy and when it doesn't work out it's just a mess. They feel stressed and drained and you feel frustrated, disappointed and abandoned. You've got to look within yourself of what makes YOU happy - that isn't from other people. What can you do that can influence this?
Like · 18.03.2019 22:28:14
Masochist_Chick666
Masochist_Chick666 Am I ever do is worry about the present, the future outcome of any potential relationship, if they actually love me, care or want a relationship like they said they did. If they truly cared they wouldn't abandon me at random without explanation. Sometimes I feel like men don't respect me or respect Read more… what I want. Sorry for being rude to anyone but since I am struggling to get the help I need in other aspects of my life, I am focusing on this, maybe a little too much but because I know what I want and my own happiness and love are important to me.
I have limited experience with sex, kink, not much experience with dating in general due to be sexually repressed for a long time and no man being interested in me.
Like · 18.03.2019 21:06:24
KCurious
KCurious Ah Hey Masochist _ Chick666, I’m sure people here are just trying to help out and didn’t meant that.
We have some in common I must say.
Its only a suggestion , but it is not my place to say this is the right thing for you, but it was for me.
There were so much things going on that I ended up Read more… losing faith and trust with the people whom I cared and loved so dearly that had let to consequences ; where I ended up pushing them away or giving them the cold me - one that thinks it’s the answer , I still do at times feel that is the answer. Though deep down I know it’s wrong way to deal with those “trusting issues”.
At the end of the day I mustered up courage and tried building up trust with others even they once hurt me, it doesn’t mean I cant give 2nd chances right ? Well with me there always is chances.
Another is I took a break away from here this whole lifestyle became a toxic environment too me and I tried finding other distractions and interests and invested my time on that instead.
However I am back , still gaps in between but I am filling them up as my journey comes to live again.
You could always start looking for friends first than jumping into a relationship. Sometime a friend can be a shoulder to lean on and more easier to open up and communicate along with that trust than it is when your in a relationship.You also learn more about yourself and others as well this lifestyle. How it changes you in a good way.
Another is if you like writing or even make a blog that shows your whole life purpose and the downs you have and the ups you have. The. Try think how should I deal with these complications , how do I trust them ? Is there a resolution ?
Being in any relationship is hard and without trust and confidence is hell harder but never give up it is possible just timing and yourself trying to move forward , letting that someone special in.
Anyways you can feel free to PM if you would like to have a reader. 😊
Have fun ! ☘️
LikeSid636 · 18.03.2019 6:39:30
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Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 created a status update
  • 15.03.2019 13:00:06
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Fed up with men that are narcissitic, passive aggressive, abusive dickheads.
What have I ever done to deserve being treated like a worthless, useless person?
Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 created a status update
  • 15.03.2019 12:20:13
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Not sure if something I posted in the forum was actually submitted. Needed advice about wanting to have a ddlg type of relationship when I have issues with men/"daddy issues"
I feel like men use the issues I have to manipulate, use/abuse me or they use it as an excuse to not have a relationship Read more… with me, when they have their own baggage/issues and defkect/project the issues they have onto me, they blame me if I remind them of someone that abused them or if i say/do something that triggers bad memories or issues and vice versa. I'm not your mana, or your ex, ir anyone that abused you, it has nothing to do with me, so don't see how it is my fault. Been rejected a lot, feel like giving up completely on making friends or a potential relationship if people only ever pretend to care or only care when it suits them. I have no hope fir anything changing for the better in my life right now, despite trying to change it, trying to be happy I give up and wish I was dead.
Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 08.03.2019 20:10:44
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Plus sized and into kink okay?

Never been aesthetically pleasing or considered sexually attractive enough so never been considered good enough to be anyone's friend/girlfriend. People have treated me like being fat is my whole identity, it's a part of me but there is more to me than just the way I look. Never understood why Read more… people need to be friends with only attractive people or dating only people that fits their beauty standard.
Just fed up with being fat shamed, kink shamed or slut shamed due to online roleplay, due to being sex repressed.

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 08.03.2019 16:14:32
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Plus sized and into kink okay?

That's cool, good for you. I have always felt like I have never been aesthetically pleasing to anyone no matter what I do, my interests, the way I look/dress will never be aesthetically pleasing to anyone but I dress in goth/metalhead style and have piercings because I like it. I don't care if Read more… people don't like it, I don't dress the way I do, have any interest in kink just to please anyone, I do it because it is part of who I am, it makes me happy, I feel confident when I feel l can be myself. What is a basque?

Masochist_Chick666
icon-wio Masochist_Chick666 wrote something in the forum
  • 08.03.2019 12:48:50
  • Female (31)
  • Bedford
  • Single
Plus sized and into kink okay?

I understand, I just feel like there isn't anyone that represents a plus sized person and acceptance of that in a online or real life kink community. Some of fetishes/kink that I like are very niche and require another person to be experienced and know how to do it safely.