I'm in search of a person I've been looking for , for a very long time.

Desires and Fantasies
I am a submissive male.

I love sadistic females, who like taking control absolute control, I like edgeplay, the sense of losing power and feeling in danger, and hopeless, abused, hit, choked, humiliated in front of friends, I like to call my femdom mommy.

I don't like being pegged. I don't like leather. I don't care much for toys or dungeons, perhaps a gun or knife for gun and knife play, and maybe cut me up a bit, and hit me.

basically I need to be some girls bitch. and I'm down to satisfy her darkest domination desires. I'm not into findom though.

I love eating pussy btw,
I like the idea of undressing for my femdom and her friends and them passing me around like an object and giving them all head.
I like being used like a sex toy sexually.

so I guess thats what I like.

but this matters not because I'm in a relationship and I'm taken.

I think I am like this because in every other aspect of my life I'm pretty much I guess you could say a "bad boy" or "alpha male" or something, and I was raised without a father, and I was neglected by my mother so I have issues with her. I am a hardcore masochist, but I could never be a sadist.