My Liberation through penance

[scoobydooo]

Have you ever had a need, not a want? As if you have been submerged under water that when you resurface your only desire is to breathe. To be fully absorbed in every breath that you take and truly appreciate that you are you. That you are alive and you feel every cell in your being being drawn and pleasured by the necessity. Necessity is deeper than desire. It’s more profound than an urge. It’s you being you. And out of that gratitude you need to show the world that you can breathe to your hearts content. Mesmerise as a show to others that you are free.

180 days of no masturbation will dive you deep into your bottomless ocean of sexuality with no influence but your own. To see a beauty that was clouded by illusion. To see your own sexual nature as nothing but magnificent and that your sexuality is of necessary service. Your necessity is not just yours alone. Just like how air is a necessity for all, so is your sexuality being found, nurtured, exposed and drawn into one another. To be fully *** by everything yet sober and expressive in every breath, in every thought, in every pump your heart travelling through your veins is the life *** of creation. That we are all gods and goddesses liberating one another in spectacles like a brand new universe being created from destruction.

Being as beautifully creative and destructive authentically and as expressive as true consciousness intended. To be in sync with another in every breath, in every touch, in every moment within the moment and the moments that separate the moment. True liberation and exploration into every conscious action and no action. The need not the want being encouraged. The need being denied only to need it more. The pleasure of needing it more than just needing it from before. The pleasure of the need being learned and explored. The moment where that ocean is leading to another ocean. To feel every sensation denied for too long being denied yet in a nurturing way. There is no ego just pleasure. My first tantric experience. Heat like the core of the earth orbiting inside of me. *** pumping like the oceans being funnelled into rivers. Heart rate as ecstatic and turbulent like an earthquake shaking the ground of continents that separate me from me. Or crash into one another to finally meet the true expression of me. Veins as thick as 1000 year old tree trunks rooting from my crown to my toes. The universe is auspicious and has blessed me for being me. And with that I liberated not just me but her too. We are free and content. The true creation lies between gods and goddess. I wish for us all to know that we are just that. Yet humbly I was her student and I forever want to be taught. The need not the want of exploration and learning. True vulnerability is safety. It’s loving and kind.