I need to feel attractive

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I need to feel pretty. I need to feel handsome. I need to feel sexy. I need to feel like the only one. I need to feel inescapable. I need to give the lucky taker of my pleasure the glorious gift of looking up at me from her knees. I need to bless her with my taste and tell her through gruff panting how she's making me feel, like a god, like the universe, and the rewards she's earning so dutifully and religiously from me. And I need to slam her on the bed and look over her like a living jail cell that just locked her in, and feel her hands grip her prison as I descend on her and give her everything I can, reduced to an *** and transcended too, a god-beast of the forest that exists to teach the pixies how to fuck, and in my worship erupt, and fill my disciple with the joy she made for me, pumping again and again until she's taken it all. And laying in the leaves, holding her close, wiping the wet hairs stuck to her face, back to pretending to be human again.