Popular Post Deleted Member Posted October 31 Popular Post Some days I forget enough of the absolute shitshow that was “us”, to miss my old life. I long for the manufactured bond and closeness I mistook for something real. I forget how lonely and alone I was while I was still in it. Other days, I pray the universe gives you back every single ounce of *** you handed me. Neatly wrapped in a lesson you can’t escape. Some days I grieve the man I loved. More often, I grieve the woman I was before I met you. She loved herself. She was so sure of who she was and what she stood for. Your insidious ways should have never stood a chance. She must have been caught in a moment of weaknesses. And by the time you realize it, you’re already trapped. Some days I hope you spend the rest of your life haunted by the ghost of everything. That it follows you through every fleeting moment of happiness just to remind you of the fraud you are. To remind you, that you were the destroyer of futures, of families, of light and peace itself. That your hands inflicted *** on those you claimed to love. Some where beneath all the justifications you tell yourself, you know what you have done. And you know what it cost. Still I make room for all of it. The longing. The grieving. The pure unfiltered anger. The days I wish I could relive, and mostly the days I wish I’d never known your name. Some days it’s true, I miss it. Some days it’s equally as true that I hope life teaches you the kind of lesson that leaves a wound that eventually becomes a scar on your soul. The kind that will inevitably heal, but you’ll never forget how it got there. And some days I feel nothing at all. Not forgiveness. Not forgetting. Just the slow, quiet miracle finally being free. Your suffering could never undo the suffering I have already endured. Healing is recognizing that. Healing is not needing to understand the “why’s” and finding peace (and maybe even excitement) in what happens next. I walked away. I broke the cycle. (But you’ll probably take credit for that as well.)
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 Incredibly powerful words. I doubt you’ll have any trouble finding another dynamic if/when you choose to do so. This time however you’ll be hardened by your past experience and have a keener eye when it comes to choosing your future partner. :)
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 34 minutes ago, Daddy4You01 said: Incredibly powerful words. I doubt you’ll have any trouble finding another dynamic if/when you choose to do so. This time however you’ll be hardened by your past experience and have a keener eye when it comes to choosing your future partner. :) I will grow wiser without growing cold. More discerning without becoming distrustful. I refuse to let the things that have hurt me dictate the person I become. They will not have that power over me or my life. I will protect my peace fiercely without closing off my heart. I will continue to show up with the same softness and love that I always have. That is who I am at my core. Loving the wrong people has taken enough from me over the years, I refuse to let it take that as well.
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 41 minutes ago, Goletaknkman said: Resonated like a thousand echos in a hollow room I hope you are regaining your power 🖤🖤
Md**** Posted October 31 Happens to men also. You perfectly described my feelings about my ex. Thank you !
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 10 minutes ago, PrettyVice said: I will grow wiser without growing cold. More discerning without becoming distrustful. I refuse to let the things that have hurt me dictate the person I become. They will not have that power over me or my life. I will protect my peace fiercely without closing off my heart. I will continue to show up with the same softness and love that I always have. That is who I am at my core. Loving the wrong people has taken enough from me over the years, I refuse to let it take that as well. Awwww, I would love a chance to get to know you…
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 5 minutes ago, MdNghtRdr7304 said: Happens to men also. You perfectly described my feelings about my ex. Thank you ! Of course it does! Unfortunately, people who cause this kind of harm don’t fit neatly into one gender or any other category. Though I wish they did sometimes. It would make them so much easier to recognize before we engaged with them any further! I hope you are well into your healing era 🖤
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 14 minutes ago, Daddy4You01 said: Awwww, I would love a chance to get to know you… I appreciate the sentiment! However, after reading your profile, I don’t think we would make a good match. I am one that is “too tied down with some boring, vanilla life; work, school, etc”.
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 1 minute ago, PrettyVice said: I appreciate the sentiment! However, after reading your profile, I don’t think we would make a good match. I am one that is “too tied down with some boring, vanilla life; work, school, etc”. Nice!
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author Just now, Daddy4You01 said: Nice! I hope you find exactly who you are searching for :)
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 Just now, PrettyVice said: I hope you find exactly who you are searching for :) That truly feels less than genuine. But same to you.
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 26 minutes ago, Daddy4You01 said: That truly feels less than genuine. But same to you. I’m sorry if I gave you that impression. I have no ill will toward you at all! I do hope you find what you are searching for. It is very hard to tell the tone or intention behind words that are written, so I do understand how it could seem like that. I was hoping the smiley would make it better, but I can also see how it could make it feel snide. Not my intentions at all!
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 13 minutes ago, PrettyVice said: I’m sorry if I gave you that impression. I have no ill will toward you at all! I do hope you find what you are searching for. It is very hard to tell the tone or intention behind words that are written, so I do understand how it could seem like that. I was hoping the smiley would make it better, but I can also see how it could make it feel snide. Not my intentions at all! I truly appreciate you saying that. And I hope you took no offense to my bio. I am open to all different types of dynamics. I just need someone that’s very fluid. And willing to experience the best of life. I can’t say my life is always exciting. But it often is. And having someone in it with a more open schedule. Just seems to gel more with me. Again thank you for clarifying. As I was a bit hurt by your previous comments. But I’m probably just too sensitive at times and read too much into things.
Ta**** Posted October 31 This hit home harder than I expected, but it did take me back to my healing & all I can say is that you can & will move forward, learning so much more about yourself in ways you wont realise until it hits. Yes there will be heavier days than some just never stop putting one emotional foot forward at a time because you are worth it & so much more.
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 26 minutes ago, Daddy4You01 said: I truly appreciate you saying that. And I hope you took no offense to my bio. I am open to all different types of dynamics. I just need someone that’s very fluid. And willing to experience the best of life. I can’t say my life is always exciting. But it often is. And having someone in it with a more open schedule. Just seems to gel more with me. Again thank you for clarifying. As I was a bit hurt by your previous comments. But I’m probably just too sensitive at times and read too much into things. No offense taken at all! I can definitely see how you would want some who could be available whenever especially if your life has the opportunity to be spontaneous. Hopefully one day I get to that point. It’s just not the season of life I am currently in. I’m very sorry you were hurt!
Daddy4You01 Posted October 31 4 minutes ago, PrettyVice said: No offense taken at all! I can definitely see how you would want some who could be available whenever especially if your life has the opportunity to be spontaneous. Hopefully one day I get to that point. It’s just not the season of life I am currently in. I’m very sorry you were hurt! It’s okay. I’m probably just too sensitive. I’m learning to love myself more and give myself more grace. And leave room for my own healing. And again, it’s very difficult to find intelligent and emotionally available people in this life. So yeah. But either way, I do appreciate your apology!
Deleted Member Posted October 31 Author 1 hour ago, Tasty_Confession11 said: This hit home harder than I expected, but it did take me back to my healing & all I can say is that you can & will move forward, learning so much more about yourself in ways you wont realise until it hits. Yes there will be heavier days than some just never stop putting one emotional foot forward at a time because you are worth it & so much more. Thank you for saying that. It’s been a rough road, with far too many detours back into places I should have never returned to. Every additional lie set me back eons, undoing pieces of healing I fought so hard for. You can love someone with everything in you, and they’ll still fumble what they were never prepared to hold. Every time. But I have no doubt this feeling will pass too. Where there was hurt and anger, there will be nothing at all. Just a indifference where a thousand feelings once lived.
wo**** Posted October 31 Sometimes the deepest wounds become the places where light finds its way back in. You’ve endured the darkness, but it doesn’t have to define the chapters still waiting to be written. You deserve a love that feels like peace, a connection that doesn’t leave you questioning your worth, and moments that remind you how beautiful life can still be. And perhaps, when you’re ready, someone will come along not to fix what was broken, but to appreciate everything you’ve become. Someone who doesn’t *** your scars, but sees the strength and beauty behind them. You don’t have to walk toward the light alone. Sometimes someone simply wants to walk beside you, bringing a little warmth until you remember how brightly you shine on your own. Perhaps they will like to be a little of that light. ✨
Ta**** Posted October 31 32 minutes ago, PrettyVice said: Thank you for saying that. It’s been a rough road, with far too many detours back into places I should have never returned to. Every additional lie set me back eons, undoing pieces of healing I fought so hard for. You can love someone with everything in you, and they’ll still fumble what they were never prepared to hold. Every time. But I have no doubt this feeling will pass too. Where there was hurt and anger, there will be nothing at all. Just a indifference where a thousand feelings once lived. It will I promise & there will always be feelings for my ex but I will never not listen to my gut instincts again but Im now able to look back without the *** so I take that as a win
Deleted Member Posted November 1 Author 3 hours ago, woonsocket11207 said: Sometimes the deepest wounds become the places where light finds its way back in. You’ve endured the darkness, but it doesn’t have to define the chapters still waiting to be written. You deserve a love that feels like peace, a connection that doesn’t leave you questioning your worth, and moments that remind you how beautiful life can still be. And perhaps, when you’re ready, someone will come along not to fix what was broken, but to appreciate everything you’ve become. Someone who doesn’t *** your scars, but sees the strength and beauty behind them. You don’t have to walk toward the light alone. Sometimes someone simply wants to walk beside you, bringing a little warmth until you remember how brightly you shine on your own. Perhaps they will like to be a little of that light. ✨ This is such a beautiful sentiment. ❤️ I think there’s something incredibly special about the people who meet us after the storm has passed. Not because we need saving, but because they see the parts of us that survived it and love them just as much. Maybe even more. I will never lose the softness in me. I refuse to let this or anything fundamentally change my character or the way I show up for people. Maybe it’s all about finding someone who reminds you that your softness was never a weakness meant to be exploited. And maybe, even after it all, some people are still worthy of the love you have to give.
Deleted Member Posted November 1 Author 6 hours ago, Tasty_Confession11 said: It will I promise & there will always be feelings for my ex but I will never not listen to my gut instincts again but Im now able to look back without the *** so I take that as a win Yes! My intuition has never steered me wrong. Now if I could only just listen to it the first time… 😅😬 unfortunately, I am the type to always see the good in people. To see the broken little one underneath all the facade of greatness. But some people really can’t or won’t take a good hard look at themselves and heal those parts. I will no longer allow myself to be a rehab for broken and lost souls cosplaying as “men”.
ni**** Posted November 1 2 hours ago, PrettyVice said: Yes! My intuition has never steered me wrong. Now if I could only just listen to it the first time… 😅😬 unfortunately, I am the type to always see the good in people. To see the broken little one underneath all the facade of greatness. But some people really can’t or won’t take a good hard look at themselves and heal those parts. I will no longer allow myself to be a rehab for broken and lost souls cosplaying as “men”. Im the same. My gut screams but my heart wants to see the good in ppl im in constant conflict. Ive been so hurt by not listening to my instincts x
John54 Posted November 2 Very moving. I wonder if Galen Fous' 'Decoding your kink' might strengthen and reassure you.
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