What am I?

[Deleted Member]

I’m not attracted to men in any way. But when I’m all dressed up and feeling horny I can’t stop thinking about penises! I imagine myself restrained by a Domme and made to give a blow job, it turns me on immensely. I don’t think about this at any other time and I don’t want a penis put anywhere else. Like I said I’m not attracted to men but I am to cocks when in my femme persona. What does this make me? I’m confused.

[ey****]

just really a crossdresser

some people get turned on by certain fantasies, even ones they wouldn't want to do.  and that's ok, there's a lot of people get off on the fantasy in their head without any need/desire to carry it through

[TattooedLady]

Maybe it’s the way power manifests itself to you. Also you don’t have to be attracted to men to be inquisitive. I don’t think you should be confused but embrace it as a potential Dom/sub situation. I know a lot of guys who are very straight but have a blow job fantasy.

[Ju****]

Sounds like youre just really into the typical female mindset so to speak. Dressed, looking, acting and behaving the part.
Bit to focus on though... youre not blowing tge guy to please him... youre doing it to please a domme.. for her satisfaction.
***d bi kink is a thing
Sometimes its as simple as that 😚

[Frizz]

Yes aunty I agree I too have this fantasy

[ge****]

1 hour ago, Auntymx said:

Maybe it’s the way power manifests itself to you. Also you don’t have to be attracted to men to be inquisitive. I don’t think you should be confused but embrace it as a potential Dom/sub situation. I know a lot of guys who are very straight but have a blow job fantasy.

Perfectly put - and I think a lot of guys use that power of domination to free them of the mental anguish of taking steps they may not take alone as it gives them "permission" to live out a fantasy without having to take personal responsibility for doing so - ***d bi and ***d fem are two very good examples where this can be the case.
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Absolutely nothing wrong with doing so either - it just helps step over what can be a very big mental hurdle for some.

[DeviantInside]

What does it make you? It makes you you.

You don't find men attractive but you find the scenario arousing. Similarly I am not attracted to men but I have enjoyed feminising and sissifying men. I don't worry about what that makes me and neither should you. One of the best part of the kink world is the freedom to explore and be yourself openly.

[Deleted Member]

5 hours ago, Finally_Jen said:

Sounds like youre just really into the typical female mindset so to speak. Dressed, looking, acting and behaving the part.
Bit to focus on though... youre not blowing tge guy to please him... youre doing it to please a domme.. for her satisfaction.
***d bi kink is a thing
Sometimes its as simple as that 😚

Yes, I love getting into the female mindset, well I try anyway. Which is why I would love to find someone to help me explore this further. And ***d bi is something I would love to explore as well. I joined this site thinking I knew what I wanted, turns out I didn’t. 😊

[BigPolly]

Wonderful & unique ‘You’ that’s who you are. No labels, no closed doors, just the ability to be open & enjoy yourself.
What we like when we’re turned on or during play is a world away from what we like in real life but that’s what makes us all wonderfully kinky.
Dont get hung up on what you like or when you like it, just enjoy yourself safely because one day you’ll look back on it & wish you had! 😊

[Deleted Member]

7 hours ago, eyemblacksheep said:

just really a crossdresser

some people get turned on by certain fantasies, even ones they wouldn't want to do.  and that's ok, there's a lot of people get off on the fantasy in their head without any need/desire to carry it through

It’s more than just crossdressing for me but I find it hard to explain. And although it’s just a fantasy at the moment, it’s a fantasy I want to turn into reality.

[Deleted Member]

1 hour ago, BigPolly said:

Wonderful & unique ‘You’ that’s who you are. No labels, no closed doors, just the ability to be open & enjoy yourself.
What we like when we’re turned on or during play is a world away from what we like in real life but that’s what makes us all wonderfully kinky.
Dont get hung up on what you like or when you like it, just enjoy yourself safely because one day you’ll look back on it & wish you had! 😊

Yeah, I am what I am, as the saying goes. And you’re right, I’m already looking back on my life and wishing i had done the things I wanted to do instead of hiding it all away like a dirty little secret.

[0sometimessarah0]

I know exactly how you feel hon. I'm definitely attracted to women and not men. But, when I've become Sarah,  I can totally imagine it. Especially if a Mistress was commanding me to do it. Even when I watch porn, nothing gets me hotter than a gurl giving a blow job or getting spit roasted. Maybe I'm

bi-curious, who knows, human sexuality is stupid and weird and we're all just stumbling through.

[Deleted Member]

Thank you all for taking the time to reply. You all make great points. It’s made me realise that I do need to embrace who I am and what I want. And it’s a great feeling. You are all wonderful people🥰

[lesdevon]

I have  a similar  feeling   not  attracted   to men   but   would  happily  play  or suck  a peus     for a lady  if  she  asked  or was into   that   i do think  of  penis at  times    ps  ive   wanked   one  for  30 seconds in a  game of dare    but     i think most men  think of penis   at times