How I got into BDSM

January 4, 2023

This isn't really weird but I think it's a fun story.

I was always kinky. I liked spanking, pulling hair, biting, anal, but didn't know what BDSM was. In my early 20's I had a FwB with an older girl (in her late 20's). We met, hit it off, she told me she didn't want a relationship and I was fine with that. One day about 5 or so months later she came over and before we did anything she said, "don't freak out" and thought were going on in my head "What the fuck does that mean." Well, I said "Ok, I won't" and she took off her pants and she had bruising all up and down her legs and ass. I didn't freak out, but I didn't understand. I asked, "were you in an accident?" At that point she told me she was into BDSM, and I had questions. We sat for a long while, me asking, her answering and she could tell I was more interested than scared. I asked if I could see her and her Dom together, I want to see what BDSM is. She asked him and he agreed and their next meeting I went with her and met her Dom who was very nice and friendly. I was quiet while they did their scene, it was like a movie, and it was fascinating, erotic and beautiful in a brutal way and I was hooked. When they were done, I asked him questions and he was nice enough to answer. I asked him about when he hit her and how did he know how hard to? And how to *** her without hurting her and he answered. He showed me where and how to *** her to lessen the chance of *** and what to look and listen for so as not to do damage but just bring pleasure. I was still apprehensive after him showing me, but in time I got to feel more confident. She was never my sub, we just played.

Not long after she asked if I wanted to bring another woman in and I said yes. She and I found someone we were both interested in, and she asked if I wanted to "interview her", see if she's someone I'd like to have fun with. I met her and she was attractive, nice and innocent looking. We talked a bit and then kissed and groped, performed oral on each other, it was really nice. The next thing she asked kind of shocked me. She asked if I would fist her. I had never fisted a woman, never saw a fisting video, I just heard people joking about it. Well, I said OK, I'll try it and started with two fingers, then three, she told me how to place my fingers so as not to hurt her which I did, and I got four and then all five. Next thing I knew I was wrist deep in this girl's pussy and I was enjoying it, it was a sensation I had never felt. It's one thing feeling a woman's wetness on your fingers but all over your fist and arm, that's really different. The next thing that went through my mind was "When I fuck her what will it feel iike?" Well after fisting her and giving her a few orgasms and feeing her pussy clench on my arm I found out and she was still tight as hell. I even said, "You're still tight" and she said "Try and pull out. I did and couldn't because she clamped on so tightly. I was excited, surprised, shocked, it was so much fun, and I couldn't wait to tell my play partner. We had played a few hours and had a great time, I told her we'll keep in touch.

Not long after that encounter my play partner and I broke up. We had just had sex and actually I was still inside of her, and she said, "I love you" and her face turned white, and she said she had to go to the bathroom. After coming out said "disregard what I said, I don't want a relationship" and I said "Ok, all is forgotten." Well, a few days later I talked to her about doing something for the weekend and she broke it off with me. She said she has feelings she doesn't want; she doesn't want a relationship and if we keep going on it'll confuse her more and she really didn't want that. I asked if she wanted to talk about it and she said "no, I think we should just have a clean break and not talk to each other again." I was sad, we had been together for going on a year. I had wondered if in time I could fall for her and thought probably, she was fun, smart, kind, attractive and kinky. Well, I talked to the girl we were going to bring in as a third and told her what happened and she said, "that sucks." I told her even though her and I weren't a couple we were really close, and I needed a little time to think, and she said "Ok, I was fun, and she'd like to play more." I never called her back because I met my next plaything and they "Yes they" didn't want another woman. Her boyfriend just liked to watch me fuck his girlfriend. That's another story though, but a fun one.

Since then, I've been with subs, and little, and I've had a lot of fun and learned a lot. I'm always wanting to learn more and try new things me and my partner(s) are interested in.

Edited January 4, 2023 by Rattlehead