Charred……

[PixieDust]

Time to break

Tears escape

P.ain clawing

No ignoring

Veins spasming

Teeth chattering

Sleep evades

Reality fades

Time splinters

Bitter winters

Bones ache

Fuck’s sake

Barely move

Not smooth

Chills hit

Lips bit

Body shaking

Nerves aching

Hold breath

Near death

Air expelled

This is hell

Repeat, repeat

Exhausted, beat

Vacant stare

Inflammations glare

Fingers twisting

Sweat glistening

Muscles pulsating

Shivers tailgating

Knees buckling

Bare knuckling

Charred remains

Nothing tames

Emotions torn

Ethos worn  

My name  

Chronic P.ain……

 

Side Note: I was in two minds whether to post this poem or not however the more I thought about it, the more I thought it might be relatable to others who experience the world of chronic p.ain.  A p.ain that is very different to joys of playing in the kink world and sometimes I find it hard to reconcile the two, on one hand you enjoy and crave the world of p.ain through play but then on the flipside you despise the p.ain that is constant and unavoidable through chronic illness.  I live in both worlds; It’s one mind fuck of a dance.

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Thank you for sharing. I also live with chronic ***, and although I've adapted to using it to make me stronger, your poem for me, describes those fleeting moments that I get, of giving in to the *** without a say, or a choice, or pleasures of any kind. Just raw, internal, unfiltered ***. Again, thank you for this powerful piece.

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Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. I pray you come up in a means to be rid of the unwanted or a chance method of converting it to bareable or desired.

[PixieDust]

13 hours ago, anonymr617 said:

Thank you for sharing. I also live with chronic ***, and although I've adapted to using it to make me stronger, your poem for me, describes those fleeting moments that I get, of giving in to the *** without a say, or a choice, or pleasures of any kind. Just raw, internal, unfiltered ***. Again, thank you for this powerful piece.

Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re also living with chronic ***. I love how you spoke about adapting and making you stronger,  I try to do the same.  I also try to write and or listen to music as a way of refocusing and I find that really does help at times.  

[PixieDust]

6 hours ago, DannyGalaxies said:

Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. I pray you come up in a means to be rid of the unwanted or a chance method of converting it to bareable or desired.

Thank you I appreciate your kind words. 

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1 hour ago, PixieDust said:

Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re also living with chronic ***. I love how you spoke about adapting and making you stronger,  I try to do the same.  I also try to write and or listen to music as a way of refocusing and I find that really does help at times.  

I agree, music helps me also. I like the writing idea, I think I'll give it a try.