I never…

[Se****]

It started with a castle, a conversation, a chat,

it quickly progressed to more (for me),

but it started with that night.

You became my first thought in the morning,

my last thought before I slept,

I feel into needy, will I live to regret?

You led me into safety,

You encouraged me to trust,

Definitely no lies and you wouldn’t turn to dust.

The test came far too quickly,

A silence left for days,

I’m proud that I trusted, I’m impressed that you stayed.

But once again the silence looms it echoes all around,

The silence is your solace,

But it deafens me with sound.

I respond to energy,

I give what I get in return

So please don’t ever believe my silence is unearned.

But, my silence doesn’t mean I never needed you,

Please don’t even think I ever didn’t care,

And please do not surmise my words to be untrue.

I meant everything I said, I believe that you did too,

I know life feels too heavy right now,

I know that’s hard on you.

I miss our morning messages,

I keep my knees together,

I miss your care and chatter,

I miss knowing that you’re there.

One day soon I hope, the world will change for you,

You’ll be happy and light and free again,

And your words will become true.

Please, I just hope you always know

I never didn’t care, and you were never a fool.

I always cared and needed you, the truth is,

I still do.

Love,

X

 

 

[Ta****]

Your words speak so much depth, im around if you want to talk, sending warm hugs 🫂🫂

[Se****]

1 hour ago, Tasty_Confession11 said:

Your words speak so much depth, im around if you want to talk, sending warm hugs 🫂🫂

As always, thank you. I’m trying not to dump on others (so instead I’m just dumping in general 😂). It shouldn’t hurt after happening so many times, but it does EVERY time. And every single person who claims to be different turns out not to be which in turn skews my view of the next person who claims to be different - vicious circle, or maybe self fulfilling prophecy who knows x

[wb****]

38 minutes ago, SerendipitousKeeper said:

As always, thank you. I’m trying not to dump on others (so instead I’m just dumping in general 😂). It shouldn’t hurt after happening so many times, but it does EVERY time. And every single person who claims to be different turns out not to be which in turn skews my view of the next person who claims to be different - vicious circle, or maybe self fulfilling prophecy who knows x

It’s the same for me. I almost always end up feeling used, or lied to. Maybe it is me, my need to feel wanted. Or maybe I just have crappy radar. Either way it sucks, I completely understand how you feel. If you want to talk…

[VILKDUJA]

I feel your words & I feel your anguish. I can relate & I empathize. Sending you caring encouraging hugs along with warmest wishes; know that you are being thought of 🫂