The awakening, Part 1

[Deleted Member]

The Beginning.

 

             "The Dominant"

 

47 years old, lived all these years knowing it's a lie.  Isolation and ***, the odd one out, never really fitting and never really sure why..  It takes time, too much time but eventually he seeks the truth of what he is, what makes him different.A chance encounter leads him where he should be looking and he suddenly and shockingly understands how naive he is, how blinkered his life has been, he has found the answers.  A new life begins and he steps in nervous and fully aware of his limitations, learning, talking, soaking up the information and advice. He puts himself out there, the odd misstep but always learning. He makes some connections with the occasional meet here and there but nothing that grips his soul,  nothing meaningful. He knows what he wants so hes patient, takes his time,, watching and waiting, always learning. Time goes by and his education continues, the messages go out and some replies come back in but not what he seeks.

 

  Another day, he's up early so the routine  begins, coffee laptop, porn and masturbation. It settles him when he has no play partner, his relief an important way to start his day. Then a quick look at his favourite site, where he has learned and made friends, where he seeks what he needs casually scrolling just as any other day but unaware that today is the day. The profile it's there,  the bio he reads and empathy flows out of him as he feels her *** and isolation, he sees himself 30 years past, how lost she is so he messages, not realising what she is, who she is, blind for now. He just wants her to wake to something nice, for her to know there is another who values her for much more than what's between her legs, he wants her to know she is far from alone and she can chat anytime she wishes about whatever takes her fancy. He needs her to understand there are real players and not to lose hope.  He doesn't realise who she is and the part she's going to play, how she's going to change his life, at last although he doesn't realise it, at last he has found the "one".

 

                

                  "The Submissive"

 

20, pretty, curvy in all the right places, something that causes her anxiety, no idea how sexy,how hot she really is.  Sexual since a young age, submissive but very naive and as such an easy mark. She thinks she knows what D/s is, she thinks she understands bdsm but she knows very little. She knows what boys trying to be men have told her just so they could take what they want but she knows there is more, she knows they lie and more importantly she knows herself and the cravings are becoming stronger., uncontrollable, thet demand attention  She begins to look, hesitantly at first extremely unsure of herself, her self doubt, anxiety and body issues causing her to pause occasionly but she's a moth drawn to a flame. She is patient not quite sure of what she seeks but knowing out there somewhere her answers await

 

Another day as any other begins, she wakes as normal and starts her routine, the grind of life little knowing that today is the day,  today is the day her world is about to change, today she is going to find at last that which will make her whole.   Coffee and toast, a busy day ahead so she casually boots her laptop as she waits for the kettle, goes straight to the site,  the one She stumbled upon as if by accident when infact fate showed her the way, she already knows the importance but is unsure why, instinct to search drives her on.   As usual messages first and as usual there are many but little does she know amongst them there is one, one that will completely change her life in all ways. She grows tired of the same generic crap she usually reads but little does she know today is different,  amongst the dross awaits a Prince and he is seeking her, has spent a lifetime waiting for her and has just revealed himself. Today is the day she finds at last her guide, her protector, her white knight, her mentor, her friend, her "Sir".

 

                      The meet.

 

A year or so the game was played,  backwards and forwards mainly online and phone calls. Nothing rushed him aware of her age and uncertainty, taking time to be sure this is what she really wanted, he must be sure before he begins.  Questioning her over many months sometimes subtle, sometimes not but always seeking confirmation that she does indeed know herself and the path she wished to take. They talk , learn and agree to meet. A cafe for a coffee. with one  clear rule that he sets and it's unbreakable, her age forbids play of any kind till there is no doubt in his mind about her needs. She's young, maybe too young, it worries him slightly but he knows what he wants and so far she has ticked off all the boxes so they meet. They meet and within minutes the both know, their search is at an end, that which they both seek is now laid out before them, a golden path with a clear course and negotiations begin. They talk and learn, agree a starting point, he knows what she needs and what he can give. She knows what is required and agrees to certain conditions, small ones of no real significance, testers if you like, a way to dip the toes in a new world, a darker world but a world she craves more than air itself, a world where she knows she belongs,  something she has sought since puberty. She didn't know what is was but she does now.

 

They could talk all day, it flows so easily, there are no nerves, no awkward silences but sadly as all days do this one is coming to a close so they must part. Agreements are made and the following day the Training will begin, she's nervous and excited, scared and so wanting, she can feel what she truly is awakening, that part of her that has been hidden for so long surfacing  and they both know as they hug and say goodbye that forever their lives are to change, a new doorway is to be opened and both are ready, the darkness awaits and they will step in gladly side by side ready for all it offers..

 

[Deleted Member]

The Training"

                      

Day 1.

 

Before we continue following the story of out two characters a little background.

 

Our "Knight" fully understands the enormity of the responsibility he has taken on, he is far from a fool and is going to prepare his young Submissive fully to the best of his ability. He's going to teach her first how to spot predators and red flags. She is so naive and trusting and with the age Gap is fully aware there will be a time limit on his influence over this young mind and is not going to waste it. When she moves on he needs to feel comfortable that she is able to protect herself fully, emotionally, spiritually and physically. Yes he wants the perfect submissive and he's going to shape her to please all his needs but within a foundation of affection and care with her future always in the back of his mind.

 

The following is a selected transcript of Day 1 messaging on whatsapp between our "knight" and his "Princess."

 

"Good morning Kitten, I hope you slept well and feel comfortable with what we discussed yesterday?"

 

            "Morning Sir, I slept so well excited but a little anxious, I have no doubts, I'm ready to begin but please be patient, I know I'm going to make mistakes and don't want you to be angry with me"

 

"Anger is an emotion that has no place between us Kitten, of course I will be patient and remember don't be afraid to ask anything you wish, even if we have already discussed it.  Anything you're not sure about ask away"

 

            " ❤❤Thank you Sir, I feel so lucky to have met you and can't wait to actually begin"

 

" We began a year ago Princess, you just didn't know it.  However after yesterday and those wonderful few hours we spent together it's time to move on a little so you really understand things clearly"

 

Our "Knight"then sends some literature that perfectly explains  the responsibilities a Dom carries and the expectations he would have for his partner. Some key protocols and a few examples of differing dynamics and how they work.

 

"I have just sent you some documents that you are to study today Kitten, this is your first real task. You are to read, think then read again. Forget everything you think you know, empty your naughty little mind and absorb what I send.  Later this evening I will be asking you questions to make sure you have been studying correctly"

 

       "Thank you sir, I will. What if I get things wrong?"

 

"Then we will talk Kitten, we must make sure you fully understand a few key points"

 

The day passes and night draws in.

 

"HI Kitten, how's your day been?"

 

          "Hello Sir, I'm so happy, I've had a great day and I think have learned quite a lot"

 

"Let's find out shall we, a key question  sexy little girl. In a D/S relationship who has ultimate control, who truly dictates the pace and Intensity?" 

 

         "Ha ha Sir, I know you would ask me that. The Submissive ultimately controls everything"

 

"Why Kitten, your thought process please"

 

       "My limits sir, the consent I give, I choose what we are to do and not to do, not you so that means really I'm in control"

 

My  heart swells with pride and relief that she already understands this key point. Already she learns how to protect what she is and guard against those amongst us whos intentions are purely selfish.

 

"You are such a good girl Kitten and you make me so so happy, already you learn and what you say is completely right.  I only act on pre discussed limits and never ever let anyone tell you different. If they do you walk away, do you understand?"

 

"Yes Sir"

 

"Then I shall leave you for the evening to think through what we have learned today. You may message anytime if you have any questions or arw unsure in any way. Night Princess xxx"

 

"Night sir, I can't wait to see you again"

 

"As arranged Friday I will pick you up and you can stay at mine overnight Kitten, if you're a really good girl I may allow you some fun but you have to be good and you MUST study. What happens the next few weeks will have  a profound affect on your journey so it's vital you learn absorb what I share"

  

 

Our two characters then say their good nights. Our knight feels satisfied that this sweet, *** girl is already on her way to becoming a stronger, wiser submissive. Day 1 for him was a success

[Robertodomi]

Very comprehensive- reminds me of when i got my first sub and trained her - look forward to the rest of this

[Catalyst87]

Squeek it's so precious and right. 

I'm invested in them already. 

[Deleted Member]

                     "The training"

 

Day 2.

 

To understand the reality of this friendship/dynamic first we must understand our "knight" a little more.

What I show you are selected snippets that are relevant to this story but not all the story.  Our "knight" understands and embraces the importance of his vanilla nature, how can he be the "Dom" this submissive needs unless he can first move within the vanilla world at peace with himself and those around him?  This he knows he must impress upon his new "charge" she needs to understand the value of a healthy vanilla life aswell as kink so the conversation also includes day to day chit chat, work, home life etc. Our "knight" has seen many enter this world and become slightly overwhelmed by it all, as if the vanilla world dissapears and all that exists is BDSM/KINK. Some lose the ability to then lead a healthy, stable life on both sides of the fence and he understands perfectly that this is as much a part of her development and training as anything kink related, balance is key.

 

The following is a selected transcript of Day 2 messaging on whatsapp between our "knight" and his "Princess"

 

"Morning Kitten, I hope you are well and behaving?"

 

"Morning Sir, I'm always well since meeting you and I always behave ha ha"

 

"😂😂of course you do Kitten, we shall see about that.  Today I have another important task for you to complete. I understand you're at work this morning so it's to be completed in its entirety for 9pm and not a minute later"

 

"I'm excited Sir, I so want to do well"

 

"Remember Kitten, it's ok to get things wrong, don't put too much pressure on yourself"

 

"I won't, I just want to learn as much as I can as quickly as I can, then I know I'm making you happy"

 

"You have made me nothing but happy since our first message Sweetie"

 

Our "knight" fully understands that praise and a gentle guiding hand are key at this point. Our "princess" lacks personal confidence badly, is always unsure of herself and a key part of her training is to build her up, improve her confidence, make her much more than she is now and not just submissively.  With confidence and belief in herself again she will be better prepared for the years ahead. He sees his role firstly as a protector and he's going to build armour through knowledge and confidence around his young Submissive. So many weak "Doms" crush belief and confidence as it's easier to then control, convince their partners they are "shit". They try to create a "doormat" submissive but for our "knight that's not submission but brainwashing. True submission should be offered freely and with a clear head, is it submission any other way? Our "knight" does not think so and is fully prepared to confront any he meets on his travels who think otherwise.

 

"I'm so happy to hear that Sir, I want to be everything you need, the best I can always be"

 

"And in time I'm sure you will be Kitten but again it's ok to stumble, get things wrong especially at the beginning. You are doing so well so I think a little patience is important right now"

 

"Understood sir"

 

"Good, so today little girl You are to give me 3 examples of what the perfect "Dom" would be please. Think carefully before you answer Kitten and I want you to use completely your own personal opinion. Please don't answer on anything you may have heard or what others want. This is about you and your opinion. Do you understand?"

 

"I do sir"

 

"Good girl, I have to go now Kitten, a busy day ahead. I shall leave that with you and look forward to what you perceive those 3 things would be.Have a good day"

 

So for those who may lack experience let's pause for a moment and ask ourselves why our "knight" sets tasks, wishes to know what she thinks. He's a "Dom" surely all that matters is what he wants and his opinion??    

 

Sadly this is so so wrong and something many just don't understand. A "submissive" is not a doormat and again any Dom who seeks a doormat for me are not Dom at all but just bullies, cruel and spiteful. Our "knight" encourages free thinking to a certain extent especially at the beginning of something new, how she answers gives him understanding of her inner self, what she is and then he can adapt her Training and how he interacts with her to again try and build some confidence and independence. He wants to produce the perfect submissive to satisfy all his needs but a submissive who can think and most importantly say no. A sbmissive with knowledge and inner strength, with that another piece of armour will be in place.

 

The day passes as all days do, both our Heroes going about their lives but there is a difference within her. She can't quite put her finger on exactly what it is but there is something. A new feeling within, something she has never felt before, something warm and welcome but again not something she fully grasps, yet.

 

"HI sir I hope your day was good. I'm really well thank you. So I have thought very carefully and these are the 3 things I would choose

 

1.Honesty, I would always want my "sir" to tell me the truth, how can I become more and what my "sir" requires without his honest guidance. I so need to be what you need and only the truth will lead me there.

 

2.Patience. So far sir you have shown me nothing but, how can I learn unless in a calm environment where I know it's ok to stumble, it's ok to get things wrong without *** of punishment. I still struggle to understand why I feel the things I do and I'm hoping with your patience over time my cravings will become clearer.

 

3.Affection. The very first message you sent me was full of affection and care. It confused me slightly as all the others I spoke to were so aggressive and rude, I thought all doms were the same and that aggression was how all acted. You showed me straight away how wrong I was and you affection is so so important, to know deep inside you have my best interests at heart, you "care" and i know you care about me as a person not just something sexual.

 

I hope you are happy with these Sir?"

 

See how yet again she seeks praise and validation??

 

This must be given, she must know when she is getting things right, remember for our knight building her up first is the key. The answers she gave for him Are a perfect response as shefocused more on basic human decency rather than kink/sexual related answers. She didn't answer as an example "i want to be the best slut I can be" all this comes much later on, there is plenty of time and make no mistake the training will lead that way but only once he's totally sure she really understand what is important first.

 

"HI Kitten, my day was great thanks. What wonderful answers you gave and I can see straight away thought went into them. Let's discuss them and see if we can work out there true importance"

 

1.Honesty.

 

The key to many things, how can we understand each other properly without this? How can I be the dom you need without it? The simple answer is I can't. Please kitten never for her this world both ways and as I will be honest with you then you must be honest with me. I'm a human like every one else and far from perfect, I get things wrong, I make mistakes so you sexy girl must always be honest with me.

 

2.Patience.

 

A new world awaits Kitten, something you know very little about but you are learning and learning quickly. However you will get things wrong as I will, it takes time to learn and understand each other's needs and cravings properly, for that to work then yes patience is key and you see how again it works both ways, what you need from me I also need from you.

 

3. Affection.

 

This is the safety net, affectionate feelings for another ensure care and a strict adherence to the base protocols we learned yesterday. One whom does not care about his partner especially in this world should not really be playing. It's easy especially when your "Primal" as you know I am to get carried away, caught up in the scene and maybe go a little too hard a little to quick, with a foundation of affection  this is much less likely to happen"

 

You see what our "knight"is doing here? Hes trying to achieve his first real goal with his young Submissive. TRUST. He's taking his time, he's being Honest, patient and within a framework of affection,strangely enough the 3 things our submissive highlighted. He is building trust.

 

"😁❤Thank you sir, so I did ok yes?"

 

"Kitten, you answered perfectly, there are not always right or wrong answers in situations such as this but your 3 choices were wise ones and thought out. You are thinking sweetie, not just being led by the hand. You are taking responsibility for your own thoughts and in turn your life and direction. Yes kitten wonderful answers indeed 😊"

 

"❤❤💋💋 I feel so happy Sir, I can't quite explain how I feel but I feel different"

 

"Happiness Is something it seems we both carry at the moment Kitten. It's getting late and I know you have a long day at work tomorrow so you are to go to bed now, you are to touch yourself and you are to come,  i want you to think of your darkest desires, things that maybe even shock you as we are going to start discussing these things soon, it's time for me to see more of the deviance you carry.

Go to bed and we will chat tomorrow after work about that dark imagination you have, the one that brought us together in the first place. Night kitten, sleep well.

 

"Night Sir, I'm thinking of you and I have  a feeling these thoughts are going to play a part in my report tomorrow"

 

"As answers go I just can't find fault in that one Kitten, night."

 

And so another day draws to a close our "Knight" again is satisfied and he can see a change happening, strength building, confidence growing. Yes his little girl is starting to come out of her shell a little, she is starting to believe a little in herself but more importantly she is starting to trust.

 

[ju****]

When and if the "one" finds me or i him, i can only hope the beginning will go something like this. Im sure im not the only one that feels this way and that can relate to the need and want this sub and dom feel.  

The writing is so relatable and gorgeous thank you for sharing your work. Much appreciated. On to the next part...😊

Edited May 17, 2020 by justcurvysub