Poem for My Future Lover

[In****]

Exhale
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I don't want to get my feet dirty.
I want to get my mouth dirty;
I want to coat my throat
In thickness so viscous
That I feel no need to speak.
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It's a d r u g and a bandage
And warmth and pleasure and comfort
And something so close to love
That it makes me weep.
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I want to bathe in you.
I’ve never felt more alive
Than when I ***
On the liquid parts of you.
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Blind me enough to visualize.
I promise to close my eyes
And see your sun rise,
Just as you taught me to.
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When you leave,
I lock myself in the closet
And rock
And die a little,
But what is death?
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Yes, I’m drawn to you,
Yet you stay
Just so far away.
I hyperventilate
And hold my breath.
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Inhale:
I am the body.
Exhale:
I’ve lost my mind.
Inhale:
I have a problem.
Exhale:
You are my kind.
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Now what do I do:
Wait for you,
Find someone new?
If we’re all one,
Why do I feel like two?
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My disassociation is old.
I think your light is cracking through.
I don’t know what a fixed me feels like.
Please say you do…
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Or at least show me.
I’m ready for you to know me,
Grow me,
Play with me,
Pray with me,
Enter into this next phase with me.
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Hold my hand.
When my body shakes, you make
Sure to explain
You’re just the teacher; I am the brain.
You remain unchanged and free.
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Am I still dirty, or am I clean?

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[In****]

The missing word is “c h o k e.”

[Deleted Member]

That’s beautiful ❤️

[de****]

Nice poem