Little’s Middle’s Big’s

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Admitting that I want to be Toys R Us Kid forever is easy enough… told my ex that from day one… admitting to being a little of any sort is very very hard… after buying the Unicorn hat with the squeezy dragon flaps… says it is 100% time to give in.. ***ager is where I put myself…

Do you find it easy or hard and why?

I find it hard because I was always the parent growing up and when I act like a *** or buy something child-like i get looked at as if when are you going to grow up??? and My immediate thought is: I was… we are now aging backwards. I hate being the parental figure sooo badly. Wild Auntie spotted at local Caffeine Dealer.. on the way to the Zoo and or Rave… hell yeah.

So what makes it easier for you to enter those spaces???

Sometimes i feel like I am always there.. I especially feel that way when I go to a convention.. once everything is in the room I am done adulting.

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I'm still sorting and figuring out for Myself where I even land in all of *this.*
Some days I think it's neurological meltdown, some, it seems like just typical adulthood stressors. And THEN I am really ME trying to Self-Soothe ME. For a very long time I thought I was just a failure at being an adult. I also thought I just refused to grow up and was immature (despite being the most mature entity in my family or amongst my ***rs...)

When I am in costume or character and at a convention, I feel very much like myself and comfortable whereas it's completely the opposite in day to day life or in my family or even by the bulk of societal standards.

I've yet to make a declaration whether I'm the middle or a big or something else or none of those and I definitely have not declared any of that to another Being....

*yet*