The hats a person wears

[Da****]

I think one of the most beautiful things in life is self discovery. How that looks is entirely dependent on the individual, and the unique circumstances that helped make them who they are today. There are currently over 8 billion people living on Earth today. Each and every one of them has their own story. Have you ever looked at a person, read their energy, felt their presence, and wondered what lies beneath their skin?

Some people don’t care to know. They see someones outer shell, and want to enjoy it. They aren’t concerned about the deeper layers, because they have no intention, or interest, in diving that far. For these people, superficial, casual, meaningless exchanges, offer them the release they need without exposing true vulnerability. I’m not saying you can’t be ***. I’m saying when you don’t really know someone, and that trust hasn’t been established. I don’t think anyone can hand over the part of themselves that can be easily destroyed.

Other people don’t even think about becoming friends with someone, let alone physically engaging with them, until they have thoroughly, and completely, explored that person’s mind. They want to learn the things of that persons past. The good, bad, and ugly. See how all those things contribute towards their overall make up. Those details are important, and often explain things you would otherwise be left in the dark about.

Through my time of getting to know myself, and really analyzing the things I do, think, say and believe… I’ve had to really take a deep dive into my own past to understand, and uncover things that until I did, make no sense to me, let alone another person. Sometimes doing that is really difficult. It’s uncomfortable, and full of hard truths. I can tell you from personal experience though, that it’s worth it.

I’ve uncovered what I like to refer to as my hats. These are the core personalities that live within a person and make up who they are given the circumstances. For example I have 5 different hats. They are:

Alpha female/Dominant: This is the hat that I wear when I need to lead. When I’m at work or in a high stress or important position.
Alpha submissive/little girl: This is the hat that I wear very seldomly because not just anyone can have access to this part of me. It’s the purest and most *** part of who I am and I guard it fiercely.
Brat: This is a hat that I wear when I’m feeling playful, it’s one I only put on in very particular occasions. I know when it’s appropriate, when it’s not and when to stop.
Slave/whore/pet: This is the hat that I would only wear for a deep connection. It’s easily ***d and highly sought after. This hat requires trust, respect and a very particular partner.
Dark feminine/siren/beast: This is my darkness. The part of me that was created through ***, trauma, and ***. It’s what keeps my submissive side safe. Exactly why I am someone who needs to know someone very well before I let them in my life. This side of me is alluring, dangerous, *** thirsty and a little psychotic. For me I would require someone who has an inner darkness and embraces it, because only they would understand what I truly need.
I think everyone has different hats, some may say they only have one and occupy that space 24/7. I think if you really sat with yourself, dug deep, and put thought into it… you’d be surprised with what you uncover. Knowing who you are is the first step to loving yourself. You have to know, understand, and be at peace with yourself before you can truly love who you are. When you do, opportunities naturally come into your life. You stop chasing things that are temporary, and unfulfilling. You start being intentional in the things you do, the people you engage with, and how you live your life.

Knowledge is power after all, and knowing who you are… well, that is truly beautiful.

What hats do you wear?

[As****]

That’s very true. I’m very different around different people and environments. You’ve given me some food for thought as I am in transitional phase in my life. And one I never thought I’d be in. So, thank you for this post. 🖤

[vr****]

The hat that I wore was being a good man for many years, trying to start a family..as it was my dream and being a good dad. And then it was all ripped from me. I don't even know if I can have kids and that's always been a dream of mine, to have a family. Now I just live alone, 40 minutes from anything and I get enjoyment from going to work. Which I do love my job btw. But my job is the only thing that keeps me kind of sane. My family is kind of bat shit crazy so all I have is me and I'm not too far from them.

[Lu****]

I wear the healer for work, Mom for my daughter , I'm fine for the world, friend, co workers. I broke my back fought back through a lonely marrige. Now I'm trying to find the space to be the kinky submissions me. With deep connection and intent. I have no desire for meaningless quick fixes.

[Do****]

Well said

[hu****]

Well said I agree, and learning more each day

[Sa****]

Personally don't care for hats,so I can't really speak on the topic

[GruntBeard420]

Yup. This is why i (almost) never go out without my waethered leather fedora.

[hu****]

Lol

[GruntBeard420]

It being the indiana jones hat shape. Not the neckbeard mini rimmed stetson jazzhat

[Am****]

Very good post, and very truthful too. But I believe the post will be read and silently acknowledged with a like, yet few will respond because it requires delving deeper into one's own psyche. Personally, I need to fully understand every aspect of someone before allowing them in. More often than not, most people aren't interested in taking the time to get to know me. People are rarely interested in what makes us who we are. They tend to stay surface-deep and won't bother to go further. There are times when I wish I could live like that too — be happy with only knowing someone on the surface. I think it takes a lot of courage to show every side of yourself, to be open and ***. It's easy to know people superficially, and vice versa. But how can you truly say you know someone, let alone love them, if you don't really understand who they are?

[hu****]

1 minute ago, AmyM333 said:

Very good post, and very truthful too. But I believe the post will be read and silently acknowledged with a like, yet few will respond because it requires delving deeper into one's own psyche. Personally, I need to fully understand every aspect of someone before allowing them in. More often than not, most people aren't interested in taking the time to get to know me. People are rarely interested in what makes us who we are. They tend to stay surface-deep and won't bother to go further. There are times when I wish I could live like that too — be happy with only knowing someone on the surface. I think it takes a lot of courage to show every side of yourself, to be open and ***. It's easy to know people superficially, and vice versa. But how can you truly say you know someone, let alone love them, if you don't really understand who they are?

Very deep and I get that 💯

[Am****]

1 minute ago, AmyM333 said:

Very good post, and very truthful too. But I believe the post will be read and silently acknowledged with a like, yet few will respond because it requires delving deeper into one's own psyche. Personally, I need to fully understand every aspect of someone before allowing them in. More often than not, most people aren't interested in taking the time to get to know me. People are rarely interested in what makes us who we are. They tend to stay surface-deep and won't bother to go further. There are times when I wish I could live like that too — be happy with only knowing someone on the surface. I think it takes a lot of courage to show every side of yourself, to be open and ***. It's easy to know people superficially, and vice versa. But how can you truly say you know someone, let alone love them, if you don't really understand who they are?

I don't understand why this site doesn't allow the word v u l na rable? *** instead?

[Sh****]

Well said and agree.

I know myself, depending upon situation, have several hats. As you mention, work, casual friendship, deep friendship, relationship, social events, family (and associated traumas) all form and require different hats.

I need that deep dive in a relationship if it is to work and last. I know I have family related trust issues. I know I have control issues…Hello, Dom, but for a relationship to work, those need appeased and resolved. I need to get to know the wiring and what all the buttons do in my partner, so we can enhance to positive ones, and do what we can to disconnect or at least mitigate the negative ones, and them the same with me.

Add to that every new relationship can uncover new and as yet undiscovered hats, makes the whole thing a constant work in progress. I don’t think we’re ever truly done working on ourselves, just as we should never stop learning.

[Fr****]

There is such a stronger connection. And the passion is so much more intense. Yes I understand the different hats. Bedroom me is different from work me. Being a dom. I want my partner to feel safe with me. And willing to get themselves to me. It's so much fun and passionate that way.

[si****]

@DarkIntellectual et al. Thanks for the self exploration. A quick thought about myself; I could have sooo many hats from experiences. You made me think. Two things that popped to mind; my approach when meeting people is my social side - I am focused on what people are trying to tell me or others. I have a reasonable variety of social knowledge having interactions with many groups of people. I am interested in people and some hardships people have encountered. That's one reason I volunteered SIX years with a CRISIS LINE. *( it makes me realize there are lots more types/groups of people and their experiences I have NOT encountered)*

I am on the listening end. Whilst others have revealed their deepest thoughts to me, I do not open up easily to others. I have to have a lot of confidence in their interest in me. ( makes me think I should open up more casually).

The other side of my thinking at the forefront is my wide knowledge of medicine. I don't put it to the forefront but someone always tends to have a concern. I avoid

As relates to FET I enjoy another person if there is some connection before engaging in a proposed activity. I do reveal my interests