finally plucked up the courage to explore a side of me that I've hid, discarded, tried to forget (but it never goes) and questioned who and what it makes me.
I realise now that I will never truly be happy inside if I don't explore these thoughts and fantasies and I really don't want to get too old and regret never experiencing a side of me that frankly blows my mind with excitement.
like an adrenaline junkie to a skydive, my fantasies give me a rush that can only be felt and not explained.
I'm 30, like to..no wait...love to dress up and feel feminine and sexy even if I don't pass as a woman. i fantasise about pleasing a guy and getting a sense of satisfaction in satisfying.
I'd really like to meet someone who can understand mind play if that's a thing.. I get a massive buzz from the mental side of kinks. the feeling of playing but with someone messing with my mind whilst being in a vulnerable, exciting and nervous experience..
tell me I'm wierd, perverted etc then next minute tell.me im a good girl.
anyway ..all in all, very open minded, very eager to explore and help others fulfil fantasies. let's not waste our lives wishing we had when we can x x
people hide behind the screen and use that safety and privacy to have no disregard for people's feelings.
psychologically I find it very interesting.. not amusing nor do I think it's acceptable but it intrigues me what triggers something in their head that makes them act this way.
what are they Read more… missing in their lives or what unrecognised issues do they have that drives them to treat people unfairly. it could be a jealous envious individual who's trapped in their lifestyle who uses negative comments to try and make people as miserable as they are.
sorry bit of a rant lol massive shame that people can't just go aboit their lives without ruining, interfering or respecting people's interests.