Have been in a vanilla FLR for thirty years but unfortunately my service and devotion have become the everyday, an annoyance only kept on for the resources I bring, rather than the worship I have given freely. So I look out from the deck of this ship hoping desperately to see land.
I don't know to be perfectly honest. Try me.
Shows there is a world of difference between someone who says they are a Dom and a real Dom, sometimes an ass hole is just an ass hole and you should listen when they show you what they are.
I'm an engineer so my mind tends to compartmentalise things anyway, so at work, in meetings out and about, I'm me the engineer, father, provider, protector, but behind closed doors, in a scene, I'm a subby p@in slut, until the moment I'm not again. Sorry if that doesn't help, I have know people Read more… that use tokens such as cuffs or collars or even just certain clothes that signify the change find what works for you and you will find the strength that allows you to submit makes your RL dominant side stronger more confidant.
Sounds like he had an image of you as an "equal" when he thought of you as a Dom but but as soon told him your truth he swung to far the other way and rewrote your history as meaning you must already be his, as someone who works and in vanilla public life projects a Dom exterior I've had the same Read more… issues when people find my kink nature is submissive.