I want to relate to others through my character (fictional), however I am also willing to talk directly, from first person experience. I am not sure where I am with accepting long-term relationships, I want engagement and to realise for myself what I am seeking.

My character, Harvey James is fictional but significant to me. I don't just ask whether justice is possible for him, but what it would actually mean. I try to self-reflect and be grounded, but I have an overactive imagination. At this stage in my life, I accept the sparks of momentum I can find to lift my spirit and aim to at least show up for myself when I can't do so for others.

I have heard a lot of discussion about "nice people", as though authenticity could not be a prerequisite to benevolence, or something of substance couldn't be beneath the surface. I find it worrying the cynicism behind the stereotype that is proposed, it affects the people that want to offer something real in the here and now, even if they have made mistakes in their life.

A social buzz for me means coffee-driven mornings and environments that aren't too overwhelming, but I dislike only ever being caffeinated alone, so it's true that I occasionally spend a little too much on my favourite drink of the day. People sometimes mistake discipline for rigidity but I see it as a way of creating space for intention, empathy and creative freedom without only ever living on the spikes of emotion.

What I'm looking for
As an ideal, rather than a checklist:

I want to find a holistic partner. She will firstly have a strong sense of narrative: a good writer, somebody who practices discipline as containment, with a shadow self that neither denies, nor overindulges in the power of volition. Somebody who practices logic and empiricism without sacrificing empathy and imagination. I wish for momentum with a shared sense of direction.