You have to find that one person that makes you just absolutely want to give your entire persona over to. To share every thought, dream, desire, past, present and future with. The good, the bad, the ugly. You crave to stay with that person, not because of what they can give you monetarily, but for the feelings they give you.

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The first thing i need to emphasize is that yes, it is my decision to give up all control. i make that decision every time i follow a rule, guideline, perform a task, or ask Him to make a decision about something that may concern me. But, for me, the more rules i have, the more restrictive He can be and the more decisions He makes for me, gives me a feeling of freedom, safety, protection, absolute trust and unconditional love. i know that He would never put a rule in place to aggravate or harm me, or because He had a fit of jealousy. The rules are put in place because of many factors, the way i tend to run myself into the ground, is a fine example, and the affects it has on my life.

I am 5ft 7in, 250. Red hair, green eyes.
I am a bit of a hybrid, the deeper the control, the deeper my submission

Into: Abduction Play (receiving), Aftercare (everything to do with it), Aftercare Cuddles (everything to do with it), Ball Gags (receiving), BDSM (everything to do with it), Biting (everything to do with it), Blindfolds (everything to do with it), Bondage (everything to do with it), Bondage Equipment (receiving), Breast/Nipple Play (receiving), Butt Plugs (receiving), Chains (wearing), Clamps and Clips (receiving), Clothespins (receiving), Collar and Lead/Leash (everything to do with it), Collars (wearing), Control (everything to do with it), Crops (receiving), Cuddles (everything to do with it), Cuddling (everything to do with it), Cuddling Naked (everything to do with it), Dildos (everything to do with it), Domination (receiving), Duct Tape (wearing), Eating Pussy (receiving), Edge Play (receiving), Electrical Play (everything to do with it), Flogging (receiving), Gags (wearing), Hair Pulling (receiving), Handcuffs (everything to do with it), Kissing (receiving), Massages (everything to do with it), Master/Slave (everything to do with it), Mental Bondage (receiving), Obedience Training (receiving), Orgasm Control (receiving), Orgasm Denial (receiving), Outdoor Bondage (everything to do with it), *** (receiving), Pet Play (receiving), Power Exchange (everything to do with it), Remote-Control Devices (everything to do with it), Restraints (receiving), Rope (receiving), Rough Sex (receiving), Sensation Play (everything to do with it), Sensory Deprivation (receiving), Shackles (receiving), Showering Together (everything to do with it), Snuggling (everything to do with it), Spreader Bars (everything to do with it), submission (everything to do with it), Tearing off Clothing (receiving), Teasing (receiving), Tens Unit (receiving), Toys (everything to do with it), Vibrators (everything to do with it), Violet Wand (receiving), Waking up to oral sex (receiving), Flogging (receiving)

Curious About: Ben Wa Balls (receiving), Caging/Confinement (everything to do with it), Chastity Devices (everything to do with it), Cling Film (receiving), Corsets (receiving), Fucking Machines (receiving), Hoods (receiving), Leather (everything to do with it), Masks (everything to do with it), Petplay (receiving), Predicament Bondage (everything to do with it), Role Play (everything to do with it), Rope Bondage (receiving), Rope Bondage/Suspension (receiving), Scent (everything to do with it), Shibari (everything to do with it), subspace (receiving), Suspension (everything to do with it), Suspension Bondage (receiving) collar and cuffs, (receiving), leash, (everything to do with it)

(Hard limits.) sharing, nothing extreme , watersports, ***, ***s, enemas, medical play, body scarring along those lines, other things can be discussed