I know I was brought up to be obedient and attentive to Please and to Serve and provide, physical, Intellectual and Imaginative pleasures in both mind and body for other's use. To show them what I know and always be opened minded to never Judge anyone by their Looks, Size, Insecurity, or lack of knowledge and experience. But to learn from their experiences and observations and knowledge, so I can make them feel very special and give them the most greatest sexual Enjoyment and satisfaction and intense feelings of using me for their intimate and emotional pleasures and sexual arousal. The greatest emotional and physical feelings I have, is knowing my body provides the needs and desires and pleasures and sexual arousal for other's enjoyment. How could this be so pleasurable unless I actually experienced an emotional connection and heightened arousal in my efforts to please. I feel an obligation to help fully and mutually in providing my body for the pleasures of other's it's in my nature to do so.

It's hard to say, because I've unknowingly experience a lot or a little and wake up with no memory of it. Unless I feel myself or see myself in the mirror or hear from my neighbor's that I've done something sexual. Or going some where and someone approaches me and for know other reasons because they think because I am open online about what happens to me, because I've been disgraced and lost a lot of my dignity and felt ***ness and have to trust and being dependent on other's for information or making sure I find my way back home after sexual sleeping walks and finding out almost all the time you did do it. Then he or she thinks they can degrade me and control me and *** me to do things and use my body for their sexual activity or arousal and dominance then tell me it's mutual pleasures and there are few choices for me, because of my *** situations. It becomes increasingly difficult to try stop it, because sometimes it's merely my own exposures and vulnerability and ***ness that controls and dominance me. So limits with me can unexpectedly provide absolute thrills and rewards to the core...