Yes to sensuality, cosmic connection, being playful and luxuriating in erotic desires.
Getting ghosted on here is pretty normal for guys so don’t take it personally, having been where you are - I found that going to some mildly kinky events really helped, people just want to chat and flirt and get to know one another, you feel a lot better in yourself coming away from these sorta Read more… places - if you were in the UK I would have recommended *** Garden, check it out - it’s always fun, another thing I’ve done more for my self but it’s helped my self esteem is work on my body in the gym, it’s amazing how much more confident you feel approaching woman when you feel great about yourself (perhaps you do already) I don’t know - but this is just me talking from my own experiences.