Going beyond your boundaries isn’t submission, it’s *** and I think you should go out and have some good conversations with other female subs to get some support and your mojo back. This lack of control is part of a cycle which keeps spitting you out where your at. I’d take the above advice about Read more… your limits, time out to sort what you want, etc.
For now and the future your dom needs to be in balance with you and understand the difference between you doing anything to please them and what you are happy to do to please them. You shouldn’t put pressure on yourself to do something to please someone, a form of relationship FOMO. Stick with your limits and if the dom isn’t happy they can go find someone with limits more suited to theirs and visa versa. That doesn’t make you a failure, just incompatible with that particular dom. there’s loads more out there and one of us will suit you and allow you to be you plus happy and content. Good luck.

I get what your saying. Let alone what your question is, just getting a reply from a message is hard enough. I can see the forum idea but find the right one so just read a few before diving in with questions and comments.
Impatience is my biggest problem and like any new toy you can’t wait to get Read more… stuck in but how long have you wanted to enjoy this life? A few years I’ll bet, so if it takes a year to settle into this life so be it, you’ll get there.
Also online might not be best for you. I’m beginning to think that about myself, as I prefer face to face, so I’m working up the courage to do some of these ‘munches’ the thought of *** Garden scares me stiff right now 🤣Meet some people, not just the women, it’s about the search for knowledge and that way searching for your true alternative persona as well. Finally, it might sound naff, but look out for some courses, attend and make some connections. It sucks being new at anything but I hope that helps a bit.
Bon chance mon ami!

Great piece. Some really solid info to build on whilst continuing to explore this new world. Many thanks