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Neurodivergence for the win……. Er sometimes hehe :)
Love the write up.

Yeeeeeessssssssss!!!!!!!!!! 👏 🙏 ❤️

I am so happy you wrote this. Ive never seen us described for who we truly are. I appreciate you!!! Much love!

This makes me feel so seen and validated, thank you. I needed this.

I wish someone thought that about me tbh😂Bpd for me just hurts now. Feels I’ve lost the good

Thanks for the write up. We'll thought out and organized. Thanks for taking the time

As someone who has and always will love a borderline who ultimately discarded me 2 years ago because I unintentionally made her feel unwanted when she came to visit me, there is a marked difference between a borderline’s experience and their partner’s experience. I never stopped loving her and wanting her and always will but I’m an AuDHD human and am subject to sensory overwhelm and at times need some space. However she’s still an avoidant. When things were good they were amazing but when they weren’t so good she would disappear which is ironic for someone with a *** of abandonment because they end up abusing you, to protect themselves. An untreated borderline, is looking for the unconditional love that they never received from a parent, however unconditional love in romantic relationships is not healthy. I had to learn this the hard way. I did and still do love her unconditionally. However, I cannot “make” her feel loved despite all
my efforts and my actions will not always feel loving because sometimes the things she says and does are hurtful and I am myself deeply sensitive, impulsive and reactive. In my experience borderlines can have a completely skewed perspective that is not based in reality but motivated by their ***s and insecurities and it is exhausting dealing with the constant discard, and if you ever get ***ted black, you’ll be very fortunate to ever come back from that.

They say same things about *** bombers, too. Regardless of how toxic AF someone is, if they lower their standards enough they will find someone

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They say same things about soo-iss-eyed bombers, too. Regardless of how toxic AF someone is, if they lower their standards enough, they will find someone. And isn't that what love really is, being guilted, shamed or legally bound from leaving someone, regardless of their toxic, narcissistic verbal, emotional, psychological, and physical ***.

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On 3/12/2026 at 2:44 PM, Teddy_Dom said:

As someone who has and always will love a borderline who ultimately discarded me 2 years ago because I unintentionally made her feel unwanted when she came to visit me, there is a marked difference between a borderline’s experience and their partner’s experience. I never stopped loving her and wanting her and always will but I’m an AuDHD human and am subject to sensory overwhelm and at times need some space. However she’s still an avoidant. When things were good they were amazing but when they weren’t so good she would disappear which is ironic for someone with a *** of abandonment because they end up abusing you, to protect themselves. An untreated borderline, is looking for the unconditional love that they never received from a parent, however unconditional love in romantic relationships is not healthy. I had to learn this the hard way. I did and still do love her unconditionally. However, I cannot “make” her feel loved despite all
my efforts and my actions will not always feel loving because sometimes the things she says and does are hurtful and I am myself deeply sensitive, impulsive and reactive. In my experience borderlines can have a completely skewed perspective that is not based in reality but motivated by their ***s and insecurities and it is exhausting dealing with the constant discard, and if you ever get ***ted black, you’ll be very fortunate to ever come back from that.

Thank you for bringing up this perspective. I read the OP and I agree that living with BPD is a sort of superpower. But since I opened my eyes some years ago to what effects my behaviour can have on others, I'm very aware that this superpower - if completely uncontrolled - comes with some serious drawbacks for ourselves and the people around you.                                                                                                                If one wrong word can make you take out the machete and go ape-shit then the hyper-sensitivity that in other circumstances was such a wonderful gift, suddenly turns into a weapon of mass destruction. No one gets out unharmed, neither the person in front of us, nor we. And once we stop being caught up in our own p@in and realise what our moment of madness might have caused in the other one, it becomes obvious that it's not all that pretty.                                                                                          Thank you for specifying that you refer to "untreated borderline". I for one believe that it must be possible to learn to engage with the chosen one in a healthy and less rollercoastery way. But you are right, the willingness to make that happen through a seriously honest look at yourself needs to develop in the BPD-person. Only that will make us stop to aim straight at the toxic predators that have put up their traps for us and can perhaps even help us learn to embrace it when goodwill is offered instead of dependency. 

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