Thumper , The Devil needs a Heartbeat.

May 21

My sadism has grown from a puddle to the sea.
And guess what, my darling, the captain is me.
Hurricanes of emotional ***,
Tsunamis of punishment,
Cyclones of psychological conditioning,
and you will drown in it willingly and repeatedly.

There will be whips.
There will be tears.
There will be ***.
And there will be my hand at your throat,
not to stop the air,
but to command your stillness.
To remind you whose moment you’re in.

When I choose to give you release,
It will not be for your pleasure
Rather for my amusement.
To give you your fix, to keep you hooked.
Because I like the way you shake when you’ve held back too long.
Because your surrender tastes sweeter when it’s earned through ache.

There will be a constant push and pull,
Like a saw cutting down the tree of your sanity.
You will kneel, not because I make you.
But because you need to.
Because something in you aches to fall into rhythm under my hands.
To be used, and spent, and told, "Good girl."
You will crave my affirmations like air. You will follow me into the darkness
Off cliffs
Into flames

We will try to fill my void with your screams, your pleading, your agony.
Every storm, tornado, hurricane in your life will carry my name.
Every moment together, is a game of Russian Roulette.
And I’m the chamber, the bullet, the hand pulling the trigger.

However,
In this twisted ritual, I am not careless with what’s mine.
If you fall into this with me, truly fall,
Then the world begins and ends with you.
You become my gravity.
I will trust you with every secret,
I will protect you like instinct,
I will need you like a drug,
I will support you through every difficult moment you face.

A dark kind of love.
It's me and you against the world.
Let it all burn.
We’ll be dancing in the ash,
I’d kill with my bare hands for the one who kneels with their whole heart.

This is why it always falls apart, you see.
I’m not perfect, I carry my flaws heavily.
No one out there feels meant for me. You think you want this?
Me?
This world I build with words, joy, *** and silence.
But I crave service.
You crave reward.
And I don’t offer it lightly.

You imagine pleasure. Skin on skin.
You think your obedience will earn you grace.
You misunderstand the currency.
I don’t trade in kindness.
I deal in anticipation. In trembling. In ***.
In the sound your breath makes when you’re not sure if you’re afraid or aroused.

I need service.
Not with titles. Not with collars.
With your hands. Your time. Your devotion.
You will show up early.
Stay late.
Clean what I don’t see. Fix what I don’t care to notice.
You must be exactly what I need, before I realize it.

I will mark you with bruises you’ll attempt to hide from the world.
but you’ll wish I had given you more
Because the sting reminds you: you were seen.
Touched.
Chosen.
Mine.

There will be whips.
There will be tears.
There will be ***.

Because your surrender tastes sweeter when it’s earned through ache. The devil couldn’t reach me,
so he cursed me instead.

call it
Love,
Grace,
Freedom.

“An angel with a heart like this is always a devil in the end.”

Beast..