Need help with an apparently rare kink

[Megara-1336]

I've grown up in a christian home. I don't have anyone to guide me on this. Ever since I was a child I've been seriously turned on by feeling powerless in a safe situation. (Doesn't work with real danger) some examples were as a ***ager my friends would fight over who "owned" me and I freaking loved it even though none of us understood it. As an adult I like watching stuff like James deen having a woman hung up in a net trap and poking at her vagina when she has no way to move away or a specific video where he ties a woman to a restraining device where she has no movement at all and then ***s her with electric shocks(mostly vaginal.) I also love some smut (dirty fan fiction) I've read where darth vader uses sexual *** as an interrogation method. 

I'm not satisfied with vanilla bdsm(if that's even a thing) it has to be scenarios with some *** and powerlessness. It doesn't have to be restraints either. It still works if the sub just obeys out of consetual *** like if a Dom whispers in your ear and demands you call them master or else be punished, ECT. 

I'm not currently interested in a real sexual relationship but I'm having a really freaking hard time finding satisfying content online. I guess it's a rare kink because it's so borderline . 

Is there a specific name for this kink that will help me to find content? 

[Megara-1336]

Just a general note, I've never been ***d. I guess I was just born messed up. 😂

[Beaner]

Ain't messed up I think the best I have heard

[ey****]

So. First off.

You know James Deen is a sex offender?  And, kinda, his behaviour probably didn't help the availability of other edge/risk based stuff

you can try looking for things like *** Play 

or, also, sites like ShadowSlaves were often a bit more extreme, but consensual 

[Deviant_Ric]

Sounds like you’re describing what might be termed ‘predicament bondage’ although labelling can be misleading. I could well be wrong, but the latter dynamic you describe where obedience is driven by *** could be Master/slave.
Enjoy your research

[Deleted Member]

8 hours ago, Megara said:

Just a general note, I've never been ***d. I guess I was just born messed up. 😂

Labels really are not that important. I also was born and raised in a religious home and i also had very strange and dark cravings since the day I hit puberty and discovered the delights of girls. You are not messed up at all, some are just born slightly different but Defo not messed up. We are just not vanilla, we are just not what society would label "normal" but who are they to judge? 

[to****]

6 hours ago, eyemblacksheep said:

So. First off.

You know James Deen is a sex offender?  And, kinda, his behaviour probably didn't help the availability of other edge/risk based stuff

you can try looking for things like *** Play 

or, also, sites like ShadowSlaves were often a bit more extreme, but consensual 

I thought it was innocent until proven guilty?

[ey****]

20 minutes ago, topspur30 said:

I thought it was innocent until proven guilty?

yep - this is why all the studios cut ties.  He was guilty as fuck.

[to****]

32 minutes ago, eyemblacksheep said:

yep - this is why all the studios cut ties.  He was guilty as fuck.

Still. You’re accusing somebody of something that has never been proved. Risky ground and something I’m sure you wouldn’t want to happen if you were in his shoes.
Not saying for one minute the claims are false by the way, but there has been no evidence to back them up.

[ey****]

48 minutes ago, topspur30 said:

Still. You’re accusing somebody of something that has never been proved. Risky ground and something I’m sure you wouldn’t want to happen if you were in his shoes.
Not saying for one minute the claims are false by the way, but there has been no evidence to back them up.

Whilst it didn't end up in court, performers and producer had enough evidence to no longer wish to work with him.

And some of this gets into complexities between what is acceptable behaviour and long drawn out expensive court cases which will simply shame the women for being porn stars.

Take all the complexities with Ron Jeremy who they're only finally getting somewhere in the case with

[Matttster]

I don’t think it is rare or borderline Megra. I think there are 2 general themes you are discussing, both of which are core parts of bdsm.

First is submittance: where you talk about friends pretending they own you.

Second is bondage: I think the attraction about bondage to many is being at the others mercy.

Add some role play into it (being ***d by darts Vader or a security guard or ?). We all have variances of what intrigues us, how one likes to be “***d” for example. But I think that your “kinks are fairly common.

You may also consider researching consensual non-consent (CNC). You did not describe it, but from what you were saying it may interest you.

[Megara-1336]

Thanks all. I was not aware of any issues with JD so I guess I'll have to look into that. I think consetual non consent might be the term I'm looking for. I'll try searching that to see what I can find. 

[Deleted Member]

You are not alone. I find Professor Severus e fan fiction rather arousing.

[Deleted Member]

Oh my... I'd love to have you completely restrained and literally opened to be used as my toy 😍😍😍😍