Part of me

[jinxed]

With a disapproving look you warn me that I'm thinking too much. By now you should know that it's what I do. And it's what makes me start to fall in love with her. 

So she's a part of me.

She's an innocent minx. In wonder she glances at you childishly, notices every change in your mood even before you feel it coming, is amazed by your mere existence, constantly scrutinizes your responses to her behaviour and learns exactly how she can make you want her more than any other woman in the whole wide world; Just to use the acquired knowledge to entrap you with her green eyes, adapting her own desires to yours, flattering you with her adoration, teasing you in exactly the way that makes you go wild for her - and only her. 

She's a defenseless predator. Filled with anguish she throws herself at your feet, rolls onto her back to show you her most sensitive parts, releases pitiful moans that make your bl@@d curl and contorts herself in desperation; All this to provoke the most vicious you to come out, the one that wants to crush her, maul her, tear her apart, the one that momentarily makes you look at yourself in horror. 

She's a docile lunatic. When calm waters surround her, she purrs in delight as you stroke her, kisses the palm of your hand in gratitude, absorbs every word you say, opens her mouth willingly for you to spit into it, then giggles in delight as she savours the sensation of this offering; Yet, stormy seas turn her into a Scylla-like creature whose eyes are ablaze with hatred as she floods you with accusations, renounces your authority, confuses herself with her bewildering outbursts. 

I cannot blame her, neither for the way she makes advances to you nor for any of her antics. These means of survival kept her alive when all the odds stood against her. How I marvel at her ability to be both gullible and self-contained. How I feel for her being caught between these two opposing extremes. How I want to reach out to her, show her that they can be compatible if only she could learn to love herself more than you. If only I could learn to love her more than you. 

I'll keep thinking about it. 

Edited Wednesday at 04:34 PM by jinxed

[jp****]

That's one of the best things I have ever read. I never thought I could get carried away by a small text this much.
Please tell me these are your words

[pi****]

This was so good! 😭. Very relatable. 🫶🏾

[jinxed]

2 hours ago, jpxiii said:

That's one of the best things I have ever read. I never thought I could get carried away by a small text this much.
Please tell me these are your words

Whose should it be if not mine? 

[jp****]

36 minutes ago, jinxed said:

Whose should it be if not mine? 

Wouldn't be the first time a text touched me which wasn't the intellectual property of the person who uploaded it...

You are incredibly gifted. I don't know why I'm so susceptible right now, but... wow. I'm stunned. This just did something to my brain that I haven't felt in a long time.

Having a talent like yours is pretty rare, are you aware of this? This is spiritual art. Pure poetry.
Thank you very much for this experience

[jp****]

46 minutes ago, piggie86xum said:

This was so good! 😭. Very relatable. 🫶🏾

That's an understatement ❤️

[jinxed]

3 hours ago, jpxiii said:

 

Wouldn't be the first time a text touched me which wasn't the intellectual property of the person who uploaded it...

You are incredibly gifted. I don't know why I'm so susceptible right now, but... wow. I'm stunned. This just did something to my brain that I haven't felt in a long time.

Having a talent like yours is pretty rare, are you aware of this? This is spiritual art. Pure poetry.
Thank you very much for this experience

I see. As it's my current form of therapy, I can assure you that it really is my doing. 

Thank you for your very kind words. 

[jp****]

22 minutes ago, jinxed said:

I see. As it's my current form of therapy, I can assure you that it really is my doing. 

Thank you for your very kind words. 

I have no reason to not believe you.
You're welcome. And I mean it. There is a lot of lazy and poorly written literature out there and then there are gems like this, hidden in an app where people are mostly unpleasantly attempting to fuck each other. It is truly mesmerizing.
I have read the other texts of yours as well. And I'll stop sounding like a freak now who just dumps compliments for the sake of it, but I hope that you're aware that this is truly special.

My father once said something like "if you have a god given talent, you owe it to the ones who are not as gifted as you are to be able to at least witness it"... something like that. I'm not as good with (english) words as you are, obviously.
And I'm not trying to say that you should monetize your most *** and inner parts of your soul for other people's entertainment.
I'm just saying that this is really, really good.

Ok, the end 🤐