The First Night with My Master - Sub's Memoir

[SirMasterDaddy-Dom]

I have been talking to my master for sometime now, we haven't met but I feel like he knows me so well, he can SEE me, read me like no one else. It scares me but I feel so drawn to him. I love doing things for him, when i put sexy lingerie or dresses and wish him good morning and good night or dance, strip for him, play with myself for him, it excites me. Makes me want to have him with me. This waiting, longing, burning has been like *** which is hard to describe.

 

Anyway, I will start at the point this conversation about first meeting kind of began, as this for me was the start when it was  suggested that I should “come and give my master a massage”. This inside turned me on, the thought of the adventure and the unknown seemed very naughty (something I would never have dared do before but for some reason I didn’t get that feeling). Then the conversation escalated quickly and before I knew it I was in my car driving down the road.

As I started to drive out of the town that’s when the sensible me started to kick in and driving up the motorway I realised I needed to make sure if something should happen the police would be able to track me down, I also thought that someone at home would eventually realise I hadn’t returned back and start to worry.

After the worry of that then I started to imagine my master and what he would be like in the flesh and also wondered what if he didn’t like me, would he turn me away? Maybe punish me more for not being as he pleased.

As I pulled up with mixed feelings, worried, turned on, scared, excited and nervous as I saw my master walk out, everything seemed to stop for a second as I watched him. He wasn't very tall or massive, but just right and fit and his movements were calm, relaxed, oozing of confidence and then he looked at me. Omg, his eyes are so intense like they were piercing through my soul. I felt a little shy almost and felt weak in the knees.  Then reality kicked in and thoughts of what we might get up too started running through my head and i felt both nervous and excited.

 

As we go upstairs the hall way looked nice and clean and the flat was clean which made me feel slightly more at ease for unknown reasons (although still nervous and aroused). We go to the sofa talking although the conversation is pretty blurry for me at this point as I was almost in a trance. After talking and realising you have very strong views on certain subjects which if I was not feeling nervous probably would have put more input it to.

Then.. you ask me to go over to the door and face it, at that point...omg, I felt shy but so turned on like you can not imagine. As you start to touch me I can’t help wondering what is going to happen, then after moving from the wall and back to the door the blindfold comes out, as you gently put it on my face and tidy my hair, I was dripping below, my pussy so wet it was crazy. I felt very warm and caring feeling and I  so special for the few seconds when i felt your breath on my neck, your fingers touching me, your lips brushing against my cheeks. Then the cuffs come on and the ankle brace . This was something I have never done before and OMG I loved it, the moment I was tied to the door and you were in complete control I was in my element, being touched, kissed, stroked, fingered every part was amazing! It was something I knew I wanted but was never brave enough or knew who, how, where this could be achieved. My past bfs tried being dominant but could never do it and often i had to take charge. This was so amazing.

Then after one of possibly the most embarrassing moments of my life passed as i was spotting and you felt it on your fingers, and we moved over to the bed, we had another little chat and started again. This time tied to the bed. Initially I was a little hesitant but thought I would go with it and see. You were in complete control of me which i loved. The vibrating toy was interesting, for me

I think I have a heightened sense of touch on my clit and it was waves of pleasure delicious pleasure from the toy and your touch combined into one, that I could feel myself dripping through my legs, So extremely wet it was unreal! And then i exploded like i never have. I felt embarassed for spraying it all over your bed, but it was difficult to hold back. Thank you Sir x

Then you climbed up close and I could feel your cock close to my mouth and I wanted to suck it and please my master but I love how I was put in my place, something I knew I should have done but at the time didn’t cross my mind. You told me I had to ask to suck your Cock. I knew this from the training manual but stupidly forgot but to be put in my place threw me back a little but also made me want more! Next time I will ask!

I can’t say there was any part sexually I didn’t enjoy and would loved to go further but completely respect and understand why we didn’t along with my little surprise embarassment of the night.

 I know you were testing my limits and wanted to start slow. Would love to have tried more spanking, although unsure with which tool I would have liked but that’s why I have a master to choose these decisions for me. Also more toys, Butt plugs and of course a good hard fucking, after the way that you used your fingers inside me I can only imagine what will happen when you have full power. Running through the video in my head of what I would like to try but I can’t narrow it down to particulars, I just want to get stuck in, it’s like an addiction.

 

Some of the Little things that you did during the night, not sure if it was tests but to clean your fingers with my mouth and the ass spanking were all enjoyed, just the sheer directions given and the orders of what you want and what you like. Makes me want to learn and please.

The moments also that we stopped and laid together and talked were precious too as

It made me feel warm and also connecting with you not just on a sexual level. I know I kept staring a little and was trying to work you out. I couldn’t work out your thoughts and if you was happy with me.

Then I gave you a massage which with oils would have been better however I coped, giving massages is something I have not done for ages but really do enjoy taking

The stress out of your back and also the talking through it, it didn’t make

It didn't feel awkward at all.

I wanted to know how you felt about me, if I would please you as a sub. One of the things that I kept remembering from the training Manuel was to please your Master so that he was proud to own you, and I wondered if you would be proud to own me, but would never have said this too you.

Then it was time to say good night, not knowing how to leave this. Like an awkward

Hug or a kiss on the cheek. I waited to see what you would do, A hug seemed fair and then off I went home.

The car journey home i felt excited with my taster but also confused not knowing how you felt about me. Really hoping I would see you again...really hoping we Would as I am super excited to try more, to try almost everything complete my training and hopefully at some stage get my collar. The thought of wearing a symbol to show I am owned really is kinky, if people comment on it not knowing what it means.

Edited June 13, 2021 by SirMasterDaddy-Dom
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