Green mist

[Fa****]

Stealthily, deliberately it creeps upon me, 

So slowly I fail to notice it in the periphery.

Too late, it’s crept in.

I wonder if this time I will win,

I wonder if this time will be different.

Or will I be forever bound

in the green ropes of its stranglehold.

I notice the nuanced changes,

I feel the difference and the indifference.

The tone, the words, the time, the energy.

I notice the attention to others

and the lack thereof for me.

The green mist is a known entity,

the green mist means I care.

But, it controls me when it shouldn’t.

It isn’t the control I seek,

It isn’t the control I crave.

Open, honest communication.

I yearn for it, I want to ask, I want to talk.

But how do I do that without being too much?

How do I ask for what I don’t deserve?

How do I let him know it hurts,

when he cares for others over me.

The green mist knows me,

It knows I’m too much,

It knows I’m not enough.

Can I save myself,

Or will he be the one to set me free?

He doesn’t believe in jealousy,

but I know the green mist in me. 
 

Love,

X

[GreyWolf71]

That is quite..... heartfelt. What I wrote to you, still stands 😘

[Deleted Member]

Very good!

[gr****]

That's sad. I've felt the same but you should really tell the person what you feel, it won't get better on its own

[Fa****]

41 minutes ago, grenoble988 said:

That's sad. I've felt the same but you should really tell the person what you feel, it won't get better on its own

There’s really no point. I get what you’re saying and I agree but in this instance discussing it will be of no use - it’s better to walk away. 

[gr****]

That's a hard one to do, I wish you the strength for walking away. I think the worse part is the grieving afterwards but you're right it's worth it