2020 Resolutions

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1 hour ago, LazyPiratesBounty said:

You already are.

Hear hear. Phoenix, you’re an inspiration. Carry on. 

[Vandalslut]

6 hours ago, phoenyx said:

For me, it's hard to say whether 2019 was a lost year, or a pivotal year.  It was a year dominated by Cancer and cancer treatment...After the cancer battle, I will not be the same person that I was.   My emergence seems timed to coincide with the Spring Equinox.  Until then, I just need to let the metamorphosis run its course. 

It was a pivotal year, good Phoenyx. 2020 will be as well and indeed, let that metamorphosis run its course. You will enjoy yourself as that process unfolds. I  finished all my cancer treatment at Autumn Equinox (Spring where you are) in 2018. So 2019 was, for me, the year unbroken by doctors' appointments, chemo dates, radiation, scans, and all other trekking about for post cancer issues So I used it to get used to the new me. I'm very comfortable with the new me, the 'now' me, the post-cancer me. It took some getting used to; because life after cancer does not return to what it was 'before'.  It does not return to 'normal' - which is only a cycle on your washing machine, anyway . So I'm looking forward to a 2020 with a lot of uproar, changes, different priorities (already started on that one!) doing many new things and surprising/shocking people around me.  Many people like the new me and have cheered me on; there's a few who aren't sure what to make of me at all - their problem, not mine. And I'm REALLY looking forward to...letting the new me run riot! This isn't a dress rehearsal, darlings, it's the main event! Blessings to all the new friends the Vandal and I have 'met' in here and wishing all a wickedly, fetishly, naughty, healthy and wealthy new Year. 

[Deleted Member]

2019: divorce, depression, despair would be overriding but not all bad. 

 

2020: who the hell knows? I aim to get a vintage Violet Wand, to get to a few more events than I was able to during '19.

Non Kink I plan to get promoted and work on an escape plan from the UK. 

[Deleted Member]

10 hours ago, phoenyx said:

For me, it's hard to say whether 2019 was a lost year, or a pivotal year.  It was a year dominated by Cancer and cancer treatment.  The doctors all say, that I have won that battle.  The pathology report from the surgery, showed all of my lymph nodes to be clear.  Still, why do I feel like the one who just got his ass kicked.

Which, brings up the question of 2020, and the new decade.  After the cancer battle, I will not be the same person that I was.  Right now, I'm still fighting my way through the long, dark tunnel of chemotherapy.  At least, I can see the light at the end of that tunnel.  My emergence seems timed to coincide with the Spring Equinox.  Until then, I just need to let the metamorphosis run its course.  No resolutions.  It cannot be ***d.

I would like to thank those who have been following me, for their encouraging words of feedback.  You have helped me to accept the positive changes that are coming.  Like you, I am anxious to see the person who emerges from the other side.  What will I be like, once free of the *** and chemo that currently cloud my mind?  Hopefully, I will be someone who brings joy and empowerment to all that he meets.

Total respect mate,you have faced the darkness and are still here moving forwards,fighting.I hope your 2020 is a better year and your physical strength returns

[Wo****]

To continue learning, about kink, myself, who I am and how that plays out with the people I care about.

To continue to have faith in my friends and myself.

To embrace healing, finally.

[qu****]

The wall is firmly back in place, and the doorway bricked up