Demiromantic/sexual ADHD Aspie who loves her music ๐ถ
Undergrad student
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I'm a very curious person, and I'd love to learn more about and try so many things.
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In life, I'm generally an absolute control freak, but I want someone who I can surrender that control to. I crave structure and rules. I would love to find a caregiver dom.
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I like dancing, going to the gym/working out, singing, walking, and studying.
I would love to be someone's dress-up doll or put on a dance show for them.
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I'm simultaneously mature for my age, but I'll never grow up.
I need someone who I can intellectually connect with and who can reciprocate my emotional depth and passion.
When I care, I become obsessed; devoted.
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I say this upfront because I'm terrified of being left after some time goes on and someone figures out I'm far more difficult to deal with than they expect.
I've got quite a bit of chronic physical and mental illnesses, but we keep rolling. (Hypermobility, POTS, c-PTSD, OCD, OCPD, it keeps going...)
I have BorderlinePD; my mood/motivation changes very quickly, I split on myself and can become incredibly impulsive and self-destructive, and I will end up splitting on you and having at least a mini internal crashout if idk why you aren't getting back to me.
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I'm a lot to handle, but if you can deal with my storm, I can be your anything and everything; you'll never get bored of me.
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What I want for my life is to be efficient and make the most of the unique life I've been given, and to be and do as much good as I can.
I'd love to pursue an investigative or problem-solving career. I'm interested in psychology, biology, chemistry, and engineering. My dream is to get a PhD/MD and become a physician-scientist, but I think I'd also really love to get to express my artistic side in something such as modeling, acting, or some form of performing arts.
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Sometimes I'll go non-verbal and only communicate through sounds and facial expressions/body language.
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I'M REALLY SORRY IF I DON'T REPLY; I'M EXTREMELY SOCIALLY ANXIOUS (and my autistic ass doesn't know how to respond)
Also, I don't have any reaction to photos unless it's cute ***s.
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