When does this emotional ride end.............

[Ta****]

Some days I want to tell people whats going on in my head, why I feel tired all the time, why I want to be alone, why I need silence but I dont know how to explain it.

There's so much *** stuck inside me that no words can describe it, Im still breathing, my heart is still beating but sometimes Im so empty, I feel just lost & the worst part? No one really sees it.

If you ask me about him I'll say I moved on, but if you ask me on a deeper level.........I'd tell you out of everyone he was the one who truly had me, all of me, my heart, my soul, my complete submission & thats the struggle I face every day, learning to put myself back together after his betrayal.

He wasnt perfect & even when I had to walk away I couldnt & still cant bring myself to hate him. I will always hope the world is kind to him, that he finds his true happiness & inner peace. Even from a distance I will always be silently wishing him the best because some connections never really fade they just learn to exist differently, from a distance.

But right now, honestly.............I feel wrote off.

[Ca****]

Sugar, that particular ride ends when they put us in the ground.😏 Often people wouldn't understand if you told them. It's not that they lack the capacity, just that they're so wrapped up in their own world that they can't acknowledge anyone else lives there. People will ONLY EVER see what you show them. You've made some good first steps, but it's a lifelong struggle. Talking about it, letting it out and not holding it in and letting the wound fester is the best thing you can do for your own sanity. Moving on is more than not crying anymore. My first love ended twenty years ago, and if I'm being honest, I'm still not "over her." We can't go back, forward is our ONLY option. The trick comes when your perspective shifts, when you stop seeing yourself as a character in HIS story. When you take the time to define YOUR story, when you decide what kind of story it will be. When you decide that your story is worth telling even if you're the only character, and start to let people back in ONLY IF they improve YOUR story. It's easy to feel written off in this society of minimal human interaction. It's contrary to what our DNA tells us the world is supposed to be. We're social creatures, isolation has devastating effects on our psyche. When you feel written off, it's time to pick up the pen and do some writing of your own. You have a good heart to wish him the best despite it all. If you loose faith in everything else, trust your heart.😉

[Li****]

As cliché as it sounds, time is a great healer. And you can get to a place where you can still appreciate what you had together but also recognise that anyone who betrays your trust isn't truly who you see them as and in some sense, even if you shared something amazing you can always be grateful for - the real person and the person you felt for are not the same person.

And in time, someone will come along who shares something else special with you and perhaps more so, and can do it while appreciating your connection.

All the best.

[Tu****]

Yesterday at 01:06 PM, CasualPlay said:

Sugar, that particular ride ends when they put us in the ground.😏 Often people wouldn't understand if you told them. It's not that they lack the capacity, just that they're so wrapped up in their own world that they can't acknowledge anyone else lives there. People will ONLY EVER see what you show them. You've made some good first steps, but it's a lifelong struggle. Talking about it, letting it out and not holding it in and letting the wound fester is the best thing you can do for your own sanity. Moving on is more than not crying anymore. My first love ended twenty years ago, and if I'm being honest, I'm still not "over her." We can't go back, forward is our ONLY option. The trick comes when your perspective shifts, when you stop seeing yourself as a character in HIS story. When you take the time to define YOUR story, when you decide what kind of story it will be. When you decide that your story is worth telling even if you're the only character, and start to let people back in ONLY IF they improve YOUR story. It's easy to feel written off in this society of minimal human interaction. It's contrary to what our DNA tells us the world is supposed to be. We're social creatures, isolation has devastating effects on our psyche. When you feel written off, it's time to pick up the pen and do some writing of your own. You have a good heart to wish him the best despite it all. If you loose faith in everything else, trust your heart.😉

This made me cry to read. Resonates hard.