The Cultural Castration of Dominance

[Ky****]

Why submissives struggle to find good Dominants isn’t just a dating problem—it’s a cultural conditioning problem.
Modern society is designed to train compliance, not authority. From childhood onward, most people are taught to follow rules, seek approval, minimize risk, defer to systems, and avoid standing out. These traits are useful for maintaining order and predictability, but they do not cultivate leadership, decisiveness, or personal authority.
Submission fits comfortably inside this framework. Dominance does not.
Ethical BDSM dominance is not about aggression, entitlement, or aesthetics—it’s about internal authority. A good Dominant must be able to make decisions, hold responsibility for another person’s well-being, regulate their emotions under pressure, set and en*** boundaries, and lead without constant reassurance or permission. These skills are psychologically demanding and are rarely developed in modern social environments.
Society increasingly treats unsanctioned authority as suspicious. Outside of narrow, approved roles (corporate hierarchy, military, law en***ment), dominance is often framed as “controlling,” “toxic,” or abusive by default. As a result, many people suppress dominant traits in daily life just to function socially. When they enter kink spaces, they often try to perform dominance without having integrated it.
This is why submissives encounter so many “Doms” who can talk the talk but cannot lead consistently. They copy the language, rituals, and visual markers of dominance, but lack the psychological structure to sustain it. Real dominance requires emotional containment, accountability, predictability, and restraint—qualities that are built through experience, responsibility, and self-integration, not porn or social media scripts.
Meanwhile, society actively rein***s traits associated with submissive psychology: adaptability, emotional attunement, deference to authority, trust in external structures, and comfort with rules. Submissives often find social validation and community more easily, while Dominants face higher social risk for expressing their nature openly.
The issue is not that society intentionally creates submissives and suppresses Dominants. It’s that large systems optimize for safety, predictability, and risk management. True dominance is relational, situational, and non-standardized. It cannot be easily regulated or bureaucratized—and that makes it uncomfortable for modern institutions.
This imbalance is worsening as traditional mentorship, rites of passage, and lived leadership experiences decline. Many people want dominance, but what they actually want is permission, validation, or a role—not responsibility.
Submission can be learned through adaptation.
Dominance must be earned through integration.
That’s why real Dominants are rarer. Not because dominance is harmful—but because society does very little to teach people how to hold power well.

[ty****]

I doubt you saw the post I made almost exactly at the same time as yours but it correlated very well. As a 29 year old man do you think it's possible for me to integrate dominance into my character and break free from those doctrines and restraints that were ingrained in my development. What you said hits home for me cause I know you're right. I know that I conformed to the acceptable non abrasive path and I think ive got a pretty good grasp on what mental boundaries I've developed are holding me back the most in this regard. I just haven't been able to cross some of those imaginary lines. Probably mostly do to my own inability to loosen the boundaries of what I was made to believe was right or wrong. Even though I know that in this sense right and wrong aren't universal but individually developed. Also hindering me although it probably stems from that main issue is my inexperience and difficulty finding a partner i can comfortably learn with. Any thoughts?

[Bi****]

As a submissive, I appreciate this a lot. It gives a good insight into an explanation to why real dominants are rare. I have been searching for a Dominant for a month, and although that is not that long. It's the types of interactions I have that make me think it's not going to happen. With the amount of guys who class themselves as Dominants, you assume it would be easy.

I find it interesting what you say about modern society. Even though I'm a 90's child, meaning not that old, I have noticed a massive change in society. I think that's another reason why I like older guys. They have had a tougher or robust education, learning responsibility. Although finding a Dominant like this with emotional intelligence is hard.

[Gh****]

Totally agree with this.

[Do****]

Completely agree with a lot of this. As a female I wouldn’t say any dominant traits I show are perceived as toxic, controlling or abusive though. They’re not how I come across. But as a female any confidence, assertiveness, direction, organisation, leadership is not seen as positive. It’s seen as outspoken, pushy, problematic. Girls are not supposed to do those things. And when we do we often p1ss men off. I can easily express quiet authority, calm direction and confidence in my family environment and in a relationship. In my friendships people value my ability to organise, make things happen, make the decisions others don’t want to. But in general life that is not something that others want to see. They need to know me to know they’re good traits and not a problematic woman. Women who lead can be judged very harshly for it. We should be soft and acquiesce in life. Except if women do that then nothing gets done! We have to be quietly and discretely dominant so only those who value and appreciate it will see it.

[Do****]

1 hour ago, tyguy261 said:

I doubt you saw the post I made almost exactly at the same time as yours but it correlated very well. As a 29 year old man do you think it's possible for me to integrate dominance into my character and break free from those doctrines and restraints that were ingrained in my development. What you said hits home for me cause I know you're right. I know that I conformed to the acceptable non abrasive path and I think ive got a pretty good grasp on what mental boundaries I've developed are holding me back the most in this regard. I just haven't been able to cross some of those imaginary lines. Probably mostly do to my own inability to loosen the boundaries of what I was made to believe was right or wrong. Even though I know that in this sense right and wrong aren't universal but individually developed. Also hindering me although it probably stems from that main issue is my inexperience and difficulty finding a partner i can comfortably learn with. Any thoughts?

I think young age has a leap to take. Dominance needs confidence, and confidence grows naturally with age. That’s not to say that younger people cannot be confident, but it is easy for confidence to be misplaced or slide into cockiness. That needs to not happen. Confidence is quiet, calm and comes from within. It naturally develops with experience. So in a younger age it is not as easy to refine it quicker than others.
That doesn’t in any way mean you can’t do it. But that’s what I’d focus on. Having it come from within. The self assured, internalised confidence and assertion. One that doesn’t need to be loud or thrown about the place. Just expressed acutely and precisely when needed.

[Ky****]

2 hours ago, tyguy261 said:

I doubt you saw the post I made almost exactly at the same time as yours but it correlated very well. As a 29 year old man do you think it's possible for me to integrate dominance into my character and break free from those doctrines and restraints that were ingrained in my development. What you said hits home for me cause I know you're right. I know that I conformed to the acceptable non abrasive path and I think ive got a pretty good grasp on what mental boundaries I've developed are holding me back the most in this regard. I just haven't been able to cross some of those imaginary lines. Probably mostly do to my own inability to loosen the boundaries of what I was made to believe was right or wrong. Even though I know that in this sense right and wrong aren't universal but individually developed. Also hindering me although it probably stems from that main issue is my inexperience and difficulty finding a partner i can comfortably learn with. Any thoughts?

You’re asking the right question, which already puts you ahead of a lot of people.
Yes—at 29 it’s absolutely possible to integrate dominance into your character, but not by “learning how to Dom” the way people often imagine it. That framing is part of what’s holding you back. Dominance isn’t something you bolt on; it’s something you uncover, strengthen, and then take responsibility for.
The “imaginary lines” you’re describing are very real psychologically. They’re not moral so much as conditioning: *** of being perceived as wrong, unsafe, or unacceptable if you assert yourself without external permission. Modern society trains that deeply. Knowing intellectually that right and wrong are contextual doesn’t automatically dissolve those boundaries—you have to act through them.
Here’s the part people don’t like to hear:
You do not need a submissive partner to start integrating dominance.
In fact, trying to learn dominance through a partner too early often leads to performance, insecurity, or outsourcing authority to the sub.
The work starts elsewhere:
Making decisions without over-explaining
Holding boundaries when it’s uncomfortable
Tolerating disapproval without retreating
Owning mistakes without collapsing or deflecting
Taking responsibility instead of seeking reassurance
Those are dominance muscles. Until they’re built, kink just becomes roleplay.
Your inexperience isn’t the main barrier—hesitation is. A submissive doesn’t want a Dom who knows everything; they want one who can hold space, stay grounded, and not flinch when responsibility shows up.
As for learning with a partner: the safest and most ethical place to do that is with radical honesty. “I am developing my dominance, not performing mastery.” The right people will respect that. The wrong ones filtering themselves out is a feature, not a bug.
One last thing: wanting to “meet and surpass subs’ expectations” is understandable—but dominance isn’t about meeting expectations. It’s about setting the frame. When you stop chasing an external standard and start trusting your internal authority, the rest follows.
You’re not broken. You’re early.
And the fact that this hit home tells me you already know that dominance isn’t about permission—it’s about responsibility.

[Ky****]

2 hours ago, Bigirl02 said:

As a submissive, I appreciate this a lot. It gives a good insight into an explanation to why real dominants are rare. I have been searching for a Dominant for a month, and although that is not that long. It's the types of interactions I have that make me think it's not going to happen. With the amount of guys who class themselves as Dominants, you assume it would be easy.

I find it interesting what you say about modern society. Even though I'm a 90's child, meaning not that old, I have noticed a massive change in society. I think that's another reason why I like older guys. They have had a tougher or robust education, learning responsibility. Although finding a Dominant like this with emotional intelligence is hard.

I’m glad it resonated with you—and what you’re describing is something I hear from submissives constantly.
You’re right: on paper, with the number of men who label themselves Dominant, it should be easy. The fact that it isn’t says more about the quality gap than the quantity. Many people adopt the title because it’s desirable, not because they’ve done the internal work required to hold it responsibly.
Your observation about age is also important, and it’s not just nostalgia. Older men aren’t inherently better Dominants—but many of them were shaped in environments that demanded accountability, consequence, and responsibility earlier in life. Those experiences tend to build internal authority. What’s missing in many cases, as you noted, is emotional intelligence—because earlier generations were often taught responsibility without emotional literacy.
So submissives end up stuck between two extremes:
Younger would-be Doms with emotional language but no authority
Older authority figures with structure but limited emotional attunement
The rare ones are those who’ve integrated both.
One thing I’ll gently offer: a month of searching isn’t long, but the patterns you’re seeing are real. That intuition is worth trusting. Real Dominants move differently. They’re slower, clearer, less performative, and far less eager to impress. They don’t rush access to you, and they don’t center themselves in the dynamic.
The frustration you’re feeling isn’t impatience—it’s discernment forming.
You’re not wrong to want both strength and emotional intelligence. That combination is exactly why good Dominants feel rare. They’re not just harder to find—they’re harder to become.
And for what it’s worth: the fact that you can articulate this so clearly already tells me you’re not looking for fantasy—you’re looking for leadership. That alone will save you a lot of wasted time.

[Ky****]

1 hour ago, DommeDelight said:

Completely agree with a lot of this. As a female I wouldn’t say any dominant traits I show are perceived as toxic, controlling or abusive though. They’re not how I come across. But as a female any confidence, assertiveness, direction, organisation, leadership is not seen as positive. It’s seen as outspoken, pushy, problematic. Girls are not supposed to do those things. And when we do we often p1ss men off. I can easily express quiet authority, calm direction and confidence in my family environment and in a relationship. In my friendships people value my ability to organise, make things happen, make the decisions others don’t want to. But in general life that is not something that others want to see. They need to know me to know they’re good traits and not a problematic woman. Women who lead can be judged very harshly for it. We should be soft and acquiesce in life. Except if women do that then nothing gets done! We have to be quietly and discretely dominant so only those who value and appreciate it will see it.

You’re absolutely right—and this is an important layer that often gets missed in these conversations.
Women experience a different but equally strong form of dominance suppression. The traits you’re describing—confidence, direction, decisiveness, calm authority—are the same traits praised in men when properly framed, but in women they’re frequently rebranded as “pushy,” “difficult,” or “problematic.” Not because they’re harmful, but because they disrupt expectations.
What you’re describing is exactly why so many dominant women learn to contextualize or camouflage their authority. It’s not that the dominance isn’t there—it’s that it has to be delivered quietly, relationally, and selectively to avoid social punishment. Men are often discouraged from dominance by *** of being labeled toxic; women are discouraged by *** of being labeled unacceptable.
And you’re right: leadership works when you use it. Families function, relationships stabilize, groups move forward. But society rarely rewards women for holding authority unless it’s carefully softened or hidden. That ***s many dominant women to develop a high level of emotional intelligence early—because overt dominance carries a cost.
What’s interesting in kink spaces is that these same women are often deeply desired once their dominance is seen by the right people. The issue isn’t lack of dominance—it’s lack of environments where it’s allowed to be visible without penalty.
Your last line really nails it: being quietly and discreetly dominant becomes a filtering mechanism. Only those who value leadership, competence, and authority will recognize it—and that’s probably not a bad thing.
In many ways, dominant women aren’t rare at all. They’re just highly selective about where their dominance is allowed to exist.
And honestly? That restraint is often what makes it so effective.

[Ky****]

1 hour ago, DommeDelight said:

I think young age has a leap to take. Dominance needs confidence, and confidence grows naturally with age. That’s not to say that younger people cannot be confident, but it is easy for confidence to be misplaced or slide into cockiness. That needs to not happen. Confidence is quiet, calm and comes from within. It naturally develops with experience. So in a younger age it is not as easy to refine it quicker than others.
That doesn’t in any way mean you can’t do it. But that’s what I’d focus on. Having it come from within. The self assured, internalised confidence and assertion. One that doesn’t need to be loud or thrown about the place. Just expressed acutely and precisely when needed.

Very well said 🙏

[To****]

This resonates deeply and I suspect many submissive women feel this long before they can put it into words

True dominance isn’t loud. It doesn’t posture or demand attention. It’s felt in the calm certainty of someone who knows where they stand and where they’re taking you. That kind of presence is rare, not because it’s extreme, but because it requires self integration most people never learn

Real dominance isn’t a performance or a role someone slips into when it suits them. It’s a psychological skill set: the ability to make decisions that affect another person’s emotional and physical safety, to regulate one’s own impulses, to provide structure, and to lead without constant reassurance. These qualities aren’t learned from porn, social media, or borrowed scripts … they’re developed slowly through responsibility, reflection, and lived experience

Submission flourishes when it’s met by that kind of quiet authority. When someone doesn’t rush, doesn’t need to prove anything, and can hold space without wavering. Many subs instinctively sense the difference between a man performing dominance and one who simply embodies it. One feels exciting for a moment. The other makes your body soften and your mind go still

Culture doesn’t teach people how to hold power with care. So what shows up instead are costumes, scripts, and borrowed language … all surface, no containment. And that’s why so many submissive women end up feeling disappointed, restless, or unseen

Real dominance isn’t about ***. It’s about responsibility. About choosing restraint when you could push. About consistency over intensity. About being someone another person can safely surrender to … not because they’re told to, but because their nervous system recognises it

When dominance is integrated, submission stops feeling like effort and starts feeling like relief. And that’s when the dynamic becomes quietly intoxicating

Not everyone can do that. And that’s exactly why, when you encounter it, you know…

[Ky****]

7 minutes ago, TomWhttt said:

This resonates deeply and I suspect many submissive women feel this long before they can put it into words

True dominance isn’t loud. It doesn’t posture or demand attention. It’s felt in the calm certainty of someone who knows where they stand and where they’re taking you. That kind of presence is rare, not because it’s extreme, but because it requires self integration most people never learn

Real dominance isn’t a performance or a role someone slips into when it suits them. It’s a psychological skill set: the ability to make decisions that affect another person’s emotional and physical safety, to regulate one’s own impulses, to provide structure, and to lead without constant reassurance. These qualities aren’t learned from porn, social media, or borrowed scripts … they’re developed slowly through responsibility, reflection, and lived experience

Submission flourishes when it’s met by that kind of quiet authority. When someone doesn’t rush, doesn’t need to prove anything, and can hold space without wavering. Many subs instinctively sense the difference between a man performing dominance and one who simply embodies it. One feels exciting for a moment. The other makes your body soften and your mind go still

Culture doesn’t teach people how to hold power with care. So what shows up instead are costumes, scripts, and borrowed language … all surface, no containment. And that’s why so many submissive women end up feeling disappointed, restless, or unseen

Real dominance isn’t about ***. It’s about responsibility. About choosing restraint when you could push. About consistency over intensity. About being someone another person can safely surrender to … not because they’re told to, but because their nervous system recognises it

When dominance is integrated, submission stops feeling like effort and starts feeling like relief. And that’s when the dynamic becomes quietly intoxicating

Not everyone can do that. And that’s exactly why, when you encounter it, you know…

You articulated this beautifully—and you’re naming the felt difference that submissives recognize long before they can logically explain it.
That distinction you draw between performance and embodiment is exactly the fault line. Loudness, urgency, posturing, and intensity are often mistaken for dominance because they’re visible. Integrated dominance is quieter because it doesn’t need to announce itself. It shows up as consistency, restraint, and presence—and that takes far more internal work than most people realize.
I especially appreciate how you framed dominance as a psychological skill set rather than an identity or role. That’s the piece culture doesn’t teach: how to hold responsibility for another person’s safety—emotional and physical—without outsourcing regulation, without needing constant feedback, and without collapsing when things get complex. That kind of containment can’t be scripted.
What you said about the nervous system recognition is important too. Submissives don’t relax because they’re told to submit; they relax because something in them senses steadiness, clarity, and predictability. One form of “dominance” excites briefly. The other creates trust—and trust is what allows surrender to deepen rather than burn out.
You’re also right that when culture fails to teach people how to hold power with care, what fills the gap is aesthetic: costumes, language, archetypes. All signal, no structure. And that’s where disappointment comes from—not from unrealistic expectations, but from sensing that something essential is missing.
That last line you wrote is the quiet truth: not everyone can do this work. And the rarity isn’t elitism—it’s a reflection of how demanding integration actually is. When you encounter someone who has done it, you don’t need convincing. You feel it.
Well said.

[Bi****]

As for the Dominants who slightly lack either emotional intellect or the Dominant characteristics. I am aware enough to be able to allow time for growth. As long as they are aware also. It's up to both the submissive and the Dominant to talk about these things.
The way a Dominant starts the conversation and first interaction sets the tone for me. I don't want a rushed mistake, for either of us. It's worth the effort from both sides.

[Bi****]

56 minutes ago, Kyriarcho said:

I’m glad it resonated with you—and what you’re describing is something I hear from submissives constantly.
You’re right: on paper, with the number of men who label themselves Dominant, it should be easy. The fact that it isn’t says more about the quality gap than the quantity. Many people adopt the title because it’s desirable, not because they’ve done the internal work required to hold it responsibly.
Your observation about age is also important, and it’s not just nostalgia. Older men aren’t inherently better Dominants—but many of them were shaped in environments that demanded accountability, consequence, and responsibility earlier in life. Those experiences tend to build internal authority. What’s missing in many cases, as you noted, is emotional intelligence—because earlier generations were often taught responsibility without emotional literacy.
So submissives end up stuck between two extremes:
Younger would-be Doms with emotional language but no authority
Older authority figures with structure but limited emotional attunement
The rare ones are those who’ve integrated both.
One thing I’ll gently offer: a month of searching isn’t long, but the patterns you’re seeing are real. That intuition is worth trusting. Real Dominants move differently. They’re slower, clearer, less performative, and far less eager to impress. They don’t rush access to you, and they don’t center themselves in the dynamic.
The frustration you’re feeling isn’t impatience—it’s discernment forming.
You’re not wrong to want both strength and emotional intelligence. That combination is exactly why good Dominants feel rare. They’re not just harder to find—they’re harder to become.
And for what it’s worth: the fact that you can articulate this so clearly already tells me you’re not looking for fantasy—you’re looking for leadership. That alone will save you a lot of wasted time.

As for the Dominants who slightly lack either emotional intellect or the Dominant characteristics. I am aware enough to be able to allow time for growth. As long as they are aware also. It's up to both the submissive and the Dominant to talk about these things.
The way a Dominant starts the conversation and first interaction sets the tone for me. I don't want a rushed mistake, for either of us. It's worth the effort from both sides.

[Ky****]

10 minutes ago, Bigirl02 said:

As for the Dominants who slightly lack either emotional intellect or the Dominant characteristics. I am aware enough to be able to allow time for growth. As long as they are aware also. It's up to both the submissive and the Dominant to talk about these things.
The way a Dominant starts the conversation and first interaction sets the tone for me. I don't want a rushed mistake, for either of us. It's worth the effort from both sides.

That level of awareness on your part is honestly refreshing, and it speaks to a submissive who understands the difference between patience and self-abandonment.
You’re right that growth is possible on both sides—when it’s conscious. A Dominant who knows where they’re still developing and doesn’t try to hide it behind confidence or urgency is already demonstrating one of the core traits of dominance: accountability. The problem isn’t imperfection; it’s pretense.
I also really appreciate what you said about first interaction setting the tone. That moment tells you a lot. A Dominant who rushes, pushes, or tries to escalate before establishing clarity is usually managing their own anxiety, not holding space for you. Slowness, intention, and clear communication aren’t hesitation—they’re regulation.
You’re absolutely right that it’s worth the effort from both sides, but I’d add one important distinction: the structure of those early conversations is still a leadership responsibility. A submissive can meet that with openness and discernment, but it’s the Dominant who shows whether they can guide the process rather than react to it.
What you’re describing isn’t “high standards”—it’s mutual respect paired with nervous-system safety. When both people are aware, honest about where they are, and willing to move deliberately, growth becomes something shared rather than something one person carries for the other.
That kind of dynamic may take longer to find, but it’s also the kind that lasts.

[Sk****]

I was just speaking about this earlier

[Ma****]

I wish there was a way to share this outside this platform. It is a discussion that many people would benefit from. I have been on the hunt for this exact type of dynamic and will not settle for anything less! I do not submit to many because my mind doesn't respond to the bravado of a "Dominant" who thinks pushing one around is what Dominance is....

[Ky****]

9 minutes ago, Masochistic_Brat said:

I wish there was a way to share this outside this platform. It is a discussion that many people would benefit from. I have been on the hunt for this exact type of dynamic and will not settle for anything less! I do not submit to many because my mind doesn't respond to the bravado of a "Dominant" who thinks pushing one around is what Dominance is....

I hear you—and that discernment you’re describing isn’t resistance, it’s intelligence.
What you’re reacting to isn’t dominance at all, it’s bravado masquerading as authority. Pushing, posturing, or trying to overpower someone is easy. It requires no self-regulation, no attunement, no responsibility. That’s why it’s so common—and why it leaves so many submissives feeling unmoved or even turned off.
You’re absolutely right that the mind doesn’t respond to that. Real submission starts in the nervous system and the psyche, not from someone trying to *** a reaction. When dominance is integrated, it doesn’t need to prove itself. It invites response rather than demanding compliance.
Not submitting “often” isn’t a flaw—it’s a filter. You’re responding to presence, not pressure. To containment, not intensity for its own sake. And that’s exactly why you won’t settle: because you know the difference between being acted upon and being led.
The fact that you wish this conversation could exist beyond this platform says a lot. These dynamics aren’t niche problems—they’re cultural ones. And the more people articulate what real dominance actually feels like, the harder it becomes for shallow performances to pass as the real thing.
Holding out for less noise and more substance isn’t being picky. It’s knowing what your body and mind respond to—and refusing to betray that for convenience.

[pu****]

I've been ruminating about your post and responses all morning. On one hand, it felt good to have a Dom with decades of experience articulate and confirm what I've stated myself more times than I can count: without the proper psychological foundation, a D/s dynamic is merely roleplaying. On the other hand, the reality of finding the kind of partner I crave is likely a pipe dream is incredibly depressing.

Anyone can order someone to get on their knees and have them obey the command. But if you haven't put the work in to cultivate that dynamic and trust in the mind first, it's nothing more than playacting.

For a lot of people, that works just fine; they don't need or want more than the facade. But those are the tourists in the kink world. People who enjoy the excitement of the roles in the bedroom but have no desire to truly embody the roles. And just like tourists, they can be careless and leave their messes behind for others to clean up once their appetite has been satiated.

There is a marked difference in having certain dominant or submissive character traits and being dominant or submissive at your very core, whether fully, in part, or a mix of both. And there is still a further difference from that to actively becoming "a Dominant" or "a submissive."

I've been a successful erotic romance author for almost 15 years, and I often refer to the "internet Dom" epidemic as the "50 Shades frauds." I have a strong hate-love-hate (bc there's way more hate than love) for that series. I have to appreciate that it brought in a flood of new readers by the hundreds of millions, making the romance genre the biggest selling genre in all of publishing. But I hate, hate, hate, that it totally misrepresented a healthy D/s dynamic and seemingly gave every asshole permission to start ordering women around while also giving curious women the idea that being ordered around by careless assholes is sexy. I think it changed the kink scene from "a few bad apples..." to "a silo of bad apples with a few good ones left down at the bottom, good fucking luck."

Sorry. I'm usually not so pessimistic. I'm actually better described as perpetually optimistic. No matter how many times men/connections/potential partners end up disappointing or hurting me, I only stay jaded for a few days before I shake it off and regain my positive outlook. But I'm a little raw today. I had an encounter over the weekend with someone I really connected with and thought it could be something. He said all the right things--about understanding the psychology of a dynamic, etc. I know what I'm looking for, so it takes a lot for me to feel like someone has enough potential for me to meet them in person, and I really thought he did. The problem is that once we were in person, his behavior was different than how he acted when we were video chatting. The compliments weren't there, no real flirting or effort...and without realizing I was doing it, I reverted back to my tendency to fawn. Like if I just showed him how much I liked him, he would return it. I ignored all the signs in person that he was just in it for the hookup. It wasn't until he brushed me off with a hug and didn't even walk me to his door as I left that it all hit me, and I haven't been able to think of anything since. I'm so disappointed in myself for not seeing the signs that I know to look for. No, that's not right, either. I did see them. I could sense things were different. I'm disappointed that I kept explaining them away and letting his lackluster reassurances keep my rose-colored glasses in place when the little voice inside me was yelling at me to take them off.

I think that's why reading about how true Dominants exist only slightly more than the mythological unicorn has me in my feels this morning. It's beginning to feel like the only way I'll experience the kind of relationship and dynamic I need is through the characters and stories I create. 

*Apologies for using this thread as a stream-of-consciousness dump. It's a bit all over the place, and I'm not even sure I completed any of the thoughts I started. (O_o) Thank you for giving me the space to vent, though. <3

[Ky****]

24 minutes ago, purplegemini said:

I've been ruminating about your post and responses all morning. On one hand, it felt good to have a Dom with decades of experience articulate and confirm what I've stated myself more times than I can count: without the proper psychological foundation, a D/s dynamic is merely roleplaying. On the other hand, the reality of finding the kind of partner I crave is likely a pipe dream is incredibly depressing.

Anyone can order someone to get on their knees and have them obey the command. But if you haven't put the work in to cultivate that dynamic and trust in the mind first, it's nothing more than playacting.

For a lot of people, that works just fine; they don't need or want more than the facade. But those are the tourists in the kink world. People who enjoy the excitement of the roles in the bedroom but have no desire to truly embody the roles. And just like tourists, they can be careless and leave their messes behind for others to clean up once their appetite has been satiated.

There is a marked difference in having certain dominant or submissive character traits and being dominant or submissive at your very core, whether fully, in part, or a mix of both. And there is still a further difference from that to actively becoming "a Dominant" or "a submissive."

I've been a successful erotic romance author for almost 15 years, and I often refer to the "internet Dom" epidemic as the "50 Shades frauds." I have a strong hate-love-hate (bc there's way more hate than love) for that series. I have to appreciate that it brought in a flood of new readers by the hundreds of millions, making the romance genre the biggest selling genre in all of publishing. But I hate, hate, hate, that it totally misrepresented a healthy D/s dynamic and seemingly gave every asshole permission to start ordering women around while also giving curious women the idea that being ordered around by careless assholes is sexy. I think it changed the kink scene from "a few bad apples..." to "a silo of bad apples with a few good ones left down at the bottom, good fucking luck."

Sorry. I'm usually not so pessimistic. I'm actually better described as perpetually optimistic. No matter how many times men/connections/potential partners end up disappointing or hurting me, I only stay jaded for a few days before I shake it off and regain my positive outlook. But I'm a little raw today. I had an encounter over the weekend with someone I really connected with and thought it could be something. He said all the right things--about understanding the psychology of a dynamic, etc. I know what I'm looking for, so it takes a lot for me to feel like someone has enough potential for me to meet them in person, and I really thought he did. The problem is that once we were in person, his behavior was different than how he acted when we were video chatting. The compliments weren't there, no real flirting or effort...and without realizing I was doing it, I reverted back to my tendency to fawn. Like if I just showed him how much I liked him, he would return it. I ignored all the signs in person that he was just in it for the hookup. It wasn't until he brushed me off with a hug and didn't even walk me to his door as I left that it all hit me, and I haven't been able to think of anything since. I'm so disappointed in myself for not seeing the signs that I know to look for. No, that's not right, either. I did see them. I could sense things were different. I'm disappointed that I kept explaining them away and letting his lackluster reassurances keep my rose-colored glasses in place when the little voice inside me was yelling at me to take them off.

I think that's why reading about how true Dominants exist only slightly more than the mythological unicorn has me in my feels this morning. It's beginning to feel like the only way I'll experience the kind of relationship and dynamic I need is through the characters and stories I create. 

*Apologies for using this thread as a stream-of-consciousness dump. It's a bit all over the place, and I'm not even sure I completed any of the thoughts I started. (O_o) Thank you for giving me the space to vent, though. <3

First—thank you for trusting this space with something so raw. What you shared isn’t messy or unfocused; it’s honest, and it makes complete sense given what you experienced.
You’re absolutely right about the distinction you draw: without psychological foundation and trust built in the mind first, a D/s dynamic is just roleplay. And for some people, that’s enough. There’s nothing wrong with that—but it becomes damaging when those people present themselves as something deeper than they are. Your “tourist” analogy is ***fully accurate. Tourists enjoy the thrill without responsibility, and they rarely clean up after themselves.
I want to gently challenge one piece of the conclusion your hurt is pulling you toward, though—not to invalidate it, but to keep it from hardening into something unfair to you.
What happened this weekend wasn’t a failure of discernment. You did sense the shift. You noticed the absence of effort, the mismatch in presence, the lack of containment. The disappointment isn’t that you missed the signs—it’s that you overrode yourself out of hope. That’s not naivety; that’s a trauma-adapted response many intelligent, perceptive submissives develop. Fawning isn’t stupidity. It’s a survival strategy that once kept you safe, even if it no longer serves you here.
And here’s the important part: nothing about that interaction means the dynamic you crave is a pipe dream.
What it does mean is that people who can speak the language of psychology are not the same as people who can embody it under real-world conditions. Presence is revealed when there’s no script, no screen, no anticipation of payoff. The moment you describe—the lack of follow-through, the emotional drop, the casual dismissal—that’s exactly where embodiment fails. And you noticed it.
You didn’t lose your compass. You doubted it briefly because you wanted the story to be true.
As for the “unicorn” ***: real Dominants aren’t mythical—but they are rare, slow-moving, and often invisible because they don’t advertise. Many of them also don’t present as endlessly charming or immediately intoxicating. They show up as consistent, grounded, and sometimes frustratingly unflashy at first. That makes them harder to spot in a culture optimized for performance and immediacy.
One more thing that matters: the fact that you can articulate all of this—and write characters who embody it—doesn’t mean fiction is your only refuge. It means you have a finely tuned internal model of what real dominance feels like. That’s not a curse. It’s a compass. The *** comes from honoring it in a world where so many people are pretending.
You’re allowed to be raw today. You’re allowed to grieve the gap between what you know is possible and what you keep encountering. Just don’t mistake disappointment for proof that you’re asking for too much.
You’re not.
You’re asking for something real.
And the fact that you can feel the difference so clearly is exactly why you shouldn’t settle for the facade—even on days when it feels unbearably lonely to hold that line.
Thank you for speaking up. You didn’t derail the thread—you deepened it.

[pu****]

8 minutes ago, Kyriarcho said:

First—thank you for trusting this space with something so raw. What you shared isn’t messy or unfocused; it’s honest, and it makes complete sense given what you experienced.
You’re absolutely right about the distinction you draw: without psychological foundation and trust built in the mind first, a D/s dynamic is just roleplay. And for some people, that’s enough. There’s nothing wrong with that—but it becomes damaging when those people present themselves as something deeper than they are. Your “tourist” analogy is ***fully accurate. Tourists enjoy the thrill without responsibility, and they rarely clean up after themselves.
I want to gently challenge one piece of the conclusion your hurt is pulling you toward, though—not to invalidate it, but to keep it from hardening into something unfair to you.
What happened this weekend wasn’t a failure of discernment. You did sense the shift. You noticed the absence of effort, the mismatch in presence, the lack of containment. The disappointment isn’t that you missed the signs—it’s that you overrode yourself out of hope. That’s not naivety; that’s a trauma-adapted response many intelligent, perceptive submissives develop. Fawning isn’t stupidity. It’s a survival strategy that once kept you safe, even if it no longer serves you here.
And here’s the important part: nothing about that interaction means the dynamic you crave is a pipe dream.
What it does mean is that people who can speak the language of psychology are not the same as people who can embody it under real-world conditions. Presence is revealed when there’s no script, no screen, no anticipation of payoff. The moment you describe—the lack of follow-through, the emotional drop, the casual dismissal—that’s exactly where embodiment fails. And you noticed it.
You didn’t lose your compass. You doubted it briefly because you wanted the story to be true.
As for the “unicorn” ***: real Dominants aren’t mythical—but they are rare, slow-moving, and often invisible because they don’t advertise. Many of them also don’t present as endlessly charming or immediately intoxicating. They show up as consistent, grounded, and sometimes frustratingly unflashy at first. That makes them harder to spot in a culture optimized for performance and immediacy.
One more thing that matters: the fact that you can articulate all of this—and write characters who embody it—doesn’t mean fiction is your only refuge. It means you have a finely tuned internal model of what real dominance feels like. That’s not a curse. It’s a compass. The *** comes from honoring it in a world where so many people are pretending.
You’re allowed to be raw today. You’re allowed to grieve the gap between what you know is possible and what you keep encountering. Just don’t mistake disappointment for proof that you’re asking for too much.
You’re not.
You’re asking for something real.
And the fact that you can feel the difference so clearly is exactly why you shouldn’t settle for the facade—even on days when it feels unbearably lonely to hold that line.
Thank you for speaking up. You didn’t derail the thread—you deepened it.

And now I’m crying. Lol Thank you so much for taking the time to respond and validate, while also gently nudging my thoughts and reflections on a more positive path—or at least one that’s less self-recriminating for today. I’ll get back to positive tomorrow. Thank you, again. I look forward to reading more of your writings if you decide to put more out there. 💜

[wo****]

I agree and like that you tied in the overall cultural influence. Dominance is connected to masculinity. masculinity isn’t talked about in positive or neutral terms, but negatively in society. Masculine traits are toxic, feminine traits and general good manners are pushed as the important traits men should have, not as supplements, but as replacements.
Having that on top of the obey and don’t question authority theme doesn’t benefit society. It benefits people who wish to control others and plan to use government to do it.
Mavericks, lone wolves, independent thinkers, they are threats. Confidence, self reliance, people with those qualities may get out of line.

[Ky****]

8 minutes ago, woburn169344 said:

I agree and like that you tied in the overall cultural influence. Dominance is connected to masculinity. masculinity isn’t talked about in positive or neutral terms, but negatively in society. Masculine traits are toxic, feminine traits and general good manners are pushed as the important traits men should have, not as supplements, but as replacements.
Having that on top of the obey and don’t question authority theme doesn’t benefit society. It benefits people who wish to control others and plan to use government to do it.
Mavericks, lone wolves, independent thinkers, they are threats. Confidence, self reliance, people with those qualities may get out of line.

You’re touching on something real, and I think it’s important to be precise about it.
Dominance does overlap with traditionally masculine traits—decisiveness, confidence, containment, responsibility—but the problem isn’t that masculinity is being discussed at all. It’s that it’s often discussed without nuance. When masculinity is framed only in terms of its worst expressions, people learn to suppress the whole category rather than integrate it.
What gets lost is the distinction between unregulated power and integrated authority. Traits like confidence, self-reliance, and independence aren’t toxic on their own; they become dangerous when they’re disconnected from accountability and empathy. Instead of teaching integration, culture swings toward replacement—asking men to abandon authority rather than learn how to hold it well.
That creates exactly the dynamic you’re describing: people who are hesitant to lead unless given explicit permission, and who are uncomfortable taking responsibility without institutional backing. In kink, that shows up as dominance that needs scripts, validation, or escalation to feel real.
I’d be careful with the idea that this is only about control by external systems, though. It’s also about risk management. Large societies *** unpredictability, and independent thinkers are unpredictable. The unintended consequence is that people who could develop grounded authority never get the chance to practice it.
What BDSM exposes—very clearly—is that when authority is suppressed rather than integrated, it doesn’t disappear. It either becomes performative, brittle, or it leaks out in unhealthy ways. Ethical dominance requires masculinity and emotional intelligence, structure and restraint.
The absence of that integration doesn’t produce better men—it produces confused ones. And submissives feel that confusion immediately.
That’s where your point really lands: cultures that don’t teach people how to hold power responsibly end up surrounded by people who want power but don’t know what to do with it.

[kr****]

Interesting thoughts. My best friend is my sub and I've never thought of the link between domination and aggression. I don't think I've ever felt aggressive like that. I think dominance is a slow build up where aggression is just "in your face" and unattractive.

[Ky****]

4 minutes ago, kriptonyte said:

Interesting thoughts. My best friend is my sub and I've never thought of the link between domination and aggression. I don't think I've ever felt aggressive like that. I think dominance is a slow build up where aggression is just "in your face" and unattractive.

That distinction you’re making is actually an important one, and it’s telling that you arrived at it through lived experience rather than theory.
Dominance and aggression often get conflated, but they’re fundamentally different energies. Aggression is reactive, outward, and usually about discharge—in your face, as you put it. Dominance, when it’s integrated, is slower, steadier, and relational. It’s built over time through consistency, trust, and presence, not ***.
The fact that your sub is also your best friend speaks volumes. That kind of dynamic doesn’t survive on aggression—it requires attunement, restraint, and a deep understanding of one another. Aggression might create a momentary reaction, but it doesn’t sustain a bond. Dominance does.
What many people miss is that true dominance often feels calm rather than intense. It’s not about overpowering someone; it’s about being grounded enough that another person chooses to lean into your lead. That’s why it reads as attractive rather than abrasive.
Your instinct that aggression is unattractive isn’t accidental—it’s your nervous system recognizing the difference between being acted at and being in a dynamic that’s intentionally built. And that slow buildup you mentioned? That’s exactly where real authority takes shape.
In a culture that rewards volume and immediacy, quiet dominance often goes unnoticed—but in a D/s dynamic, it’s the only kind that lasts.