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Idiot caused own wetting issue. Bullying that girl, rushing to hog the toilet whenever I saw her running to it. Making myself *** a few, just so she’d hear it and wet herself. Now I’ll be dribbling permanently. Leaking 24.7 at present.
I’ve een told this is lifelong and the most significant improvement I might expect is for the leaking and desperation to be hourly.
I am ashamed. Seeking daily caning for lasting damage.