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I am not sure were to start. I know it is hard to believe looking at me now, but. when I was born doctors couldn't be sure if I had a large clitoris or a notably small penis, and my scrotum was divided so it had formed more like a labia, doctors were convinced I could never live a satisfactory life as a man. My parents took the doctors advice and raised me as a girl upto the age of 10, pushing on 11, this is when things started to change.I had started puberty and a huge surge of testosterone was released, causing male reproductive organs to finally appear.
I had no idea what was going on, what I thought was my vagina, turned out to be my scrotum, and it was getting bigger, thinner and started to redden, this was my testes starting to form. I was turning from a girl into a boy. This was all very confusing for me. I didn;t understand what was happening to me at the time. By the age of 14 I had become very masculine looking. I still had girly thoughts and interests in my mind though. My way to deal with this was to dress up in my mums sexy underwear, stockings and suspenders, thongs etc. I did this for a year or so,and then grew out of it, or so I thought. I have always had a curiousity in the back of my mind what it would of been like if I had of grown up to be a woman, what it would of been like to make love as a woman. The only way to experience all of this is to serve as a sissy for a strap on wearing mistress.