*in Corona for 3 days, then I’m heading back home to San Diego. I will not meet up with just anyone. No effort/low effort = no thanks/hard pass & I’m serious when I say: maga, please stay away….
I feel like I’m way too dtf (5-6xday/7days a week), way too into different fun things and maybe not an 8/9/10 but cute enough.. chubby, for sure, but nice enough t & a & p that I should not be single.. I should not be an unclaimed lg/pet/sub…
are guys aware of this phenomenon where an overall good woman who has been mistreated for the majority of her life, by ppl close to her & strangers alike.. can eventually become tired of it; just wants to sub to a good man.. but see- she’s a strong sub- who has her own unique kind of deep intellect, but at the same time: isn’t the smartest/lacks common sense.. so people who don’t respect her boundaries keep being let in on their terms only- she gets upset, lashes out and then she/im the “monster”/brat/fake submissive
thing is, I’m not fake..
but, I’m horny af almost 24/7
and my heart is broken over Drew C, the beautiful redhead…
he’s not coming back, right?
all I have is a memory of how he looked like a flame-haired angel when he walked in my room, how elated he looked when I dropped to my knees immediately, how he took me so hard from behind, my back hurt for the next 24 hours.. how he held me…
months later, how he had me over to his new place, kissed me tenderly, forehead kisses, for the second time.. I got to taste the most savory peaches ever.. multiple rounds, in his bed.. him in every spot.. til he was getting sleepy..
then, just about a month ago when he came to me, and while I was on my knees for him, he firmly but sweetly commanded me to open my mouth- and he spit right into it.. and for anyone but him, that would be the kind of thing that turns me on in theory, but in practice makes me a little queasy..
perhaps these times with him are all I have.. the memories.
but Drew C owns my heart..
even if he doesn’t want to claim me…
and I’ve deleted and remade a profile so many times, now for the first time, I barely get any messages.
all I want is a master to claim me
he just has to be a pleasure or a daddy dom who also cares for me.
doesn’t have to be a permanent ownership.. as my broken heart is hopelessly devoted to someone I was way too verbally disrespectful to, when I felt neglected…