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General:
At a transition point in life, and of course my sex drive comes back with a vengeance.

My kink:
Pleasing / service / obedience is at the core of everything (for me). While I know that life happens and not everything can be 24/7 all the time, I feel as if my need to serve & obey as a background *** driving every interaction. Fundamentally I feel that in order for any relationship to be fulfilling for me I need to serve, and serve in any way they see fit.

I believe that:
my owner (if I get there) has authority over everything which they may or may not choose to exercise at any one time

be obedient always. What I want is irrelevant - I exist to please and be controlled

I deserve nothing - anything and everything can be seen as a privilege. Food, clothes, bedding, sight, speech. My owner allows me the privilege of these things as long as I maintain obedience

I am responsible for keeping my owner satisfied and their life running smoothly

my owner is responsible for my health, well-being, and providing guidance, training, protocols, and boundaries that allow me to feel secure, cared for, and free to serve

What am I looking for?
Nothing in particular right now, but I could use some help as I feel without guidance I am like a fish out of water. I would say “protection” at first but I am open to it blossoming into something more