BDSM Moffett Field

General:
At a transition point in life, and of course my sex drive comes back with a vengeance.

My kink:
Pleasing / service / obedience is at the core of everything (for me). While I know that life happens and not everything can be 24/7 all the time, I feel as if my need to serve & obey as a background *** driving every interaction. Fundamentally I feel that in order for any relationship to be fulfilling for me I need to serve, and serve in any way they see fit.

I believe that:
my owner (if I get there) has authority over everything which they may or may not choose to exercise at any one time

be obedient always. What I want is irrelevant - I exist to please and be controlled

I deserve nothing - anything and everything can be seen as a privilege. Food, clothes, bedding, sight, speech. My owner allows me the privilege of these things as long as I maintain obedience

I am responsible for keeping my owner satisfied and their life running smoothly

my owner is responsible for my health, well-being, and providing guidance, training, protocols, and boundaries that allow me to feel secure, cared for, and free to serve

What am I looking for?
Nothing in particular right now, but I could use some help as I feel without guidance I am like a fish out of water. I would say “protection” at first but I am open to it blossoming into something more

looking to become property. Seeking high control, and to be broken & molded to be the subservient obedient compliant piece of pussy that gives herself to please and serve as my Dom/me wishes.

note, just coming back to this side of things, so taking it slow. Seeking others to chat, friends, or protectors.

Been in and out of kink for a while, but kind of finding myself craving it again. As I start to explore this part of myself again. Things that really get me going:

• high control, speech, food, etc
• I have a HUGE service kink

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  Things that make me curious but I haven't explored as much as I would hope

• someone driving me to be the best piece of property ever
• submitting to women
• chastity

• extreme 1950s household
  
  not too sure exactly what I am looking for. Maybe an owner, maybe just some fun.
  
  Note - yes, fanatics are hot, but I am a real human on the other side, exploring a part I have suppressed for a while but it takes time to get there. Please do not message me demanding anything until we have chatted for a bit. I won't call you Sir/Ma'am in my first message. Don't message me right away with "what you would do to me"