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i’m really looking for a caregiver/little dynamic. i am looking for someone who allows me to feel safe enough to be submissive. the goal is to turn my brain off. i need someone else to take the wheel. i am really only dominant when i feel scared or unsafe. i am a child sex trafficking survivor, zero tolerance for “doms” who aren’t really dominant they just need an excuse to *** someone smaller. i love being gently dominated, instead of punishments i enjoy playful funishments & body worship to rewire my brain. i do not respond well when i feel threatened. punishments of any kind will not bode well for any party involved. i do best with gentle redirection, and positive rein***ment! i am a little, i have chronic post traumatic stress disorder and autism: my age regression can be involuntary & i have a list for meltdowns and shutdowns at the bottom in the bedroom, i’m a pillow princess due to trauma right now. i am not the best at reciprocating yet but i crave touch. i crave that feeling, and the best way to get me there is through gentle and slow teasing, while rubbing me down, i love rubbing through panties, and teasing is my favorite- i have a corrupted massage fantasy, and i want to be rubbed down “unknowingly” to sneakily tease me until im begging. i like gentle and playful somno, intox play, pussy worship, body worship, praise, “baby voice”, gentle touch etc. when it comes to what the little space is like for me- my age varies from about 4-5 to 7-9, i need strict routines and rules. i love being cared for. i like days and dates planned for me, hair played with and brushed, massages, being set up for the day, being given direction & tasks, gentle but stern, protective not controlling. i love being hushed, stuffies, soft blankets & cuddles. little me likes to be physically held and comforted, care tasks and being set up with coloring, crafts i enjoy or tasks for the day, rigid routine and structure with lots of rules is how i operate best and i enjoy having it written down to refer to. she likes her hair brushed, and being helped with washing my hair, she likes being pampered and spoiled with throw blankets, candles and beauty items - mani pedis, pink and glitter, throw blankets and candles are the way to my heart. i have lost most of my things due to a lot of trauma, but i do have a couple stuffies left. im scared to name them and lose them. i haven’t had a onesie in a really long time but i really want one. i have lost 20% of my body weight in less than a year because of what was happening and most of my clothes don’t fit. but i feel like it would be sensory friendly. i want a bottle, ive never had a paci but i kinda want something to chew on. but that is something i am still exploring actively. SHUTDOWN/MELDOWN MELTDOWN & SHUTDOWNS - HOW TO HELP THE MELTDOWNS & SHUTDOWNS - lowering or dimming the lights, getting me changed into different clothing (making sure it’s sensory friendly for that moment sensory input need) - a “good” smell, or perfume or lotion i like - soft touch at the back of the neck, base of the skull. usually overstimulated by my hair without knowing, if you lift my hair and tickle my neck it calms me down a lot, just takes a while - deep pressure, on my chest the most (medusa’s crown jewel) - do not address old or new conflicts, this will overload my system - not responding to “digs” or comments i do not mean, but addressing them later when we are not in the “heat of the moment” - address “conflict” non-verbally or open ended questions through writing or text message - meaningful validation will help me, if i think you’re talking out of your ass that will make the situation much worse - another person humming while i can feel it somewhere on my body- doesn’t matter where. - avoiding triggering the situation further and diverting attention to something that can easily excite me “tricking me” into talking about something i love - staying calm with a soothing tone in your voice, but not patronizing - avoiding toxic positivity, admitting that the situation sucks, even if it’s just saying “what the fuck???? broooo” over and over - music i know well (play from my own phone - positive playlists or positive connotation) MELTDOWN - HOW TO SPOT THE MELTDOWN - perseveration - pressured s***ch - speaking in absolutes - quick to respond emotionally - noise makes me anxious - lights are overstimulating - new information is overwhelming - sharp tongue - i say things i do not mean - short temper - angrier/passive aggressive toned music - starts to play louder music - starts frantically organizing/sanitizing SHUTDOWN - HOW TO SPOT THE SHUTDOWN - forgets how to complete simple tasks - whispers or starts speaking quieter - chewing on clothing or nails - low energy - prefers silence - stares without blinking - often semi verbal to non-verbal - seems “sad” towards most things - silent tears - doesn’t show as much facial expression - starts to trail off in sentences - over apologetic - starts to become spacey because of my disabilities i can regress without knowing, its important my partner can read my body language and be aware of it & my symptoms.

i’m really looking for a caregiver/little dynamic. i am looking for someone who allows me to feel safe enough to be submissive. the goal is to turn my brain off. i need someone else to take the wheel. i am really only dominant when i feel scared or unsafe. i am a child sex trafficking survivor, zero tolerance for “doms” who aren’t really dominant they just need an excuse to *** someone smaller. i love being gently dominated, instead of punishments i enjoy playful funishments & body worship to rewire my brain. i do not respond well when i feel threatened. punishments of any kind will not bode well for any party involved. i do best with gentle redirection, and positive rein***ment! i am a little, i have chronic post traumatic stress disorder and autism: my age regression can be involuntary & i have a list for meltdowns and shutdowns at the bottom in the bedroom, i’m a pillow princess due to trauma right now. i am not the best at reciprocating yet but i crave touch. i crave that feeling, and the best way to get me there is through gentle and slow teasing, while rubbing me down, i love rubbing through panties, and teasing is my favorite- i have a corrupted massage fantasy, and i want to be rubbed down “unknowingly” to sneakily tease me until im begging. i like gentle and playful somno, intox play, pussy worship, body worship, praise, “baby voice”, gentle touch etc. when it comes to what the little space is like for me- my age varies from about 4-5 to 7-9, i need strict routines and rules. i love being cared for. i like days and dates planned for me, hair played with and brushed, massages, being set up for the day, being given direction & tasks, gentle but stern, protective not controlling. i love being hushed, stuffies, soft blankets & cuddles. little me likes to be physically held and comforted, care tasks and being set up with coloring, crafts i enjoy or tasks for the day, rigid routine and structure with lots of rules is how i operate best and i enjoy having it written down to refer to. she likes her hair brushed, and being helped with washing my hair, she likes being pampered and spoiled with throw blankets, candles and beauty items - mani pedis, pink and glitter, throw blankets and candles are the way to my heart. i have lost most of my things due to a lot of trauma, but i do have a couple stuffies left. im scared to name them and lose them. i haven’t had a onesie in a really long time but i really want one. i have lost 20% of my body weight in less than a year because of what was happening and most of my clothes don’t fit. but i feel like it would be sensory friendly. i want a bottle, ive never had a paci but i kinda want something to chew on. but that is something i am still exploring actively. SHUTDOWN/MELDOWN MELTDOWN & SHUTDOWNS - HOW TO HELP THE MELTDOWNS & SHUTDOWNS - lowering or dimming the lights, getting me changed into different clothing (making sure it’s sensory friendly for that moment sensory input need) - a “good” smell, or perfume or lotion i like - soft touch at the back of the neck, base of the skull. usually overstimulated by my hair without knowing, if you lift my hair and tickle my neck it calms me down a lot, just takes a while - deep pressure, on my chest the most (medusa’s crown jewel) - do not address old or new conflicts, this will overload my system - not responding to “digs” or comments i do not mean, but addressing them later when we are not in the “heat of the moment” - address “conflict” non-verbally or open ended questions through writing or text message - meaningful validation will help me, if i think you’re talking out of your ass that will make the situation much worse - another person humming while i can feel it somewhere on my body- doesn’t matter where. - avoiding triggering the situation further and diverting attention to something that can easily excite me “tricking me” into talking about something i love - staying calm with a soothing tone in your voice, but not patronizing - avoiding toxic positivity, admitting that the situation sucks, even if it’s just saying “what the fuck???? broooo” over and over - music i know well (play from my own phone - positive playlists or positive connotation) MELTDOWN - HOW TO SPOT THE MELTDOWN - perseveration - pressured s***ch - speaking in absolutes - quick to respond emotionally - noise makes me anxious - lights are overstimulating - new information is overwhelming - sharp tongue - i say things i do not mean - short temper - angrier/passive aggressive toned music - starts to play louder music - starts frantically organizing/sanitizing SHUTDOWN - HOW TO SPOT THE SHUTDOWN - forgets how to complete simple tasks - whispers or starts speaking quieter - chewing on clothing or nails - low energy - prefers silence - stares without blinking - often semi verbal to non-verbal - seems “sad” towards most things - silent tears - doesn’t show as much facial expression - starts to trail off in sentences - over apologetic - starts to become spacey because of my disabilities i can regress without knowing, its important my partner can read my body language and be aware of it & my symptoms.