I haven't had sex in over 3 years, almost 4 now... I would say I miss sex but most sex I had was disappointing and I rarely got to finish, along with it always being pretty vanilla. I want to end my years of sexual celibacy...but insecurities about my weight (despite that I've been losing) and my anxiety have made it so hard to do so... plus my life situation is pretty complicated too... but I miss physical affection, and I love my couple toys but obviously it's not the same... especially cause I feel silly when I'm choking myself when getting off...
I really wanna start having sex again but I just hate hookup culture and I'm just worried I'll end up with people who are like my previous experiences: vanilla, no foreplay or aftercare, won't eat me out, and won't bother making sure I get off too...I dunno how to end this but I hope/ think my point is clear lol.


