You have to find that one person that makes you just absolutely want to give your entire persona over to. To share every thought, dream, desire, past, present and future with. The good, the bad, the ugly. You crave to stay with that person, not because of what they can give you monetarily, but for the feelings they give you.
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The first thing i need to emphasize is that yes, it is my decision to give up all control. i make that decision every time i follow a rule, guideline, perform a task, or ask Him to make a decision about something that may concern me. But, for me, the more rules i have, the more restrictive He can be and the more decisions He makes for me, gives me a feeling of freedom, safety, protection, absolute trust and unconditional love. i know that He would never put a rule in place to aggravate or harm me, or because He had a fit of jealousy. The rules are put in place because of many factors, the way i tend to run myself into the ground, is a fine example, and the affects it has on my life.
I am 5ft 7in, 250. Red hair, green eyes.
I am a bit of a hybrid, the deeper the control, the deeper my submission