Kinky women in Massachusetts

Hello, I’m very new to this. I am single, it’s been a year since my divorce, no I’m not sad about it, but am now starting to want to explore. I’m only looking for online right now so please respect that. I will only be speaking on here at the moment as well. Feel free to message me, I’m looking forward to sexting with new people 😉

I'm here looking for genuine down to earth connections. In a space like this I believe the most attractive quality someone can have is absolute honesty. I value open communication transparency and real respect above everything else no games no pretenses.I'm interested in exploring my kinky side but I firmly believe that the foundation of any great dynamic starts with a true connection between two people. Outside of the scene I enjoy exploring new food spots listening to music hiking If you're someone who speaks their truth knows who they are and wants to build something real whether that's a solid friendship a dynamic or more feel free to drop me a message. Let's see if we click.

Kinda shy at first but I definitely like someone who can take the lead. Into teasing, attention, praise, and a little bit of discipline if I’m acting up. Still learning what I like, but I’m sweet, clingy, and love good energy and flirty conversations that keep me smiling all day. Message me first 🥰

I believe in honesty,trust, and open dialogue. My hobbies include hiking, photography, trying out new recipes, andenjoying peaceful moments with a good book or movie.I value both my independence and the importance of strongfamily ties.

Hi, I’m a genuine, caring, and down-to-earth woman who believes the best relationships are built on trust, honesty, respect, and real friendship. I’m at a point in life where I value meaningful connections more than anything, and I’m here hoping to meet someone who is serious about building something lasting. I enjoy good conversations, laughter, quiet moments, and making memories with the right person. I appreciate kindness, loyalty, and someone who knows what they want in life. I’m looking for a partner to share life with someone ready for a real, long-term relationship filled with love, understanding, and mutual support.

Fun, flirty, and a little mischievous. I’m here for real chemistry, great conversations, and some unforgettable nights. Confidence, respect, and a good sense of humor are my biggest turn-ons. Let’s keep it light, kinky, and drama-free.

If you are under 40 please dont message me. Im actually 50 cant change my age n didn't realize i typed it wrong. Not into super young guys sorry. Just looking to meet ppl and find someone serious. Please be within 50 miles of me. If ur halfway across the world im not going to message u back. Im looking for an ongoing connection with one partner. Not into entertaining you online.

Natural redhead. Statuesque, Pre-Raphaelite muse with a good-time spirit and a love of flight. I’m a sci-fi enthusiast who appreciates fine dining, great food, and history. I’m here seeking a submissive to own. I bring nearly a decade of active experience in the lifestyle and am open to teaching new subs as well as guiding those who are experienced. If you’re curious, respectful, and serious, feel free to reach out—I look forward to connecting. Please don’t message if you live in another country; I’m only interested in local connections.

I'm a married 47 year old woman, plus sized. Brunette with blue eyes. 5'11. I like CNC. I like getting fucked hard by big cock.

_emphasized text_ Hi, I'm a content creator. I 'm new to this platform. I want to satisfy someone's fetish that's into chocolate and love porn and feet.

Here for community first. Attending events, meeting people, learning, and finding my footing. Still fairly new and currently in my curious sponge era, so I’m observing, learning, and probably asking more questions than strictly necessary. I am thoughtful , playful, sarcastic, ambitious, and usually juggling twelve projects at once. I enjoy good conversation, interesting perspectives, and people who don’t take themselves too seriously. Long-term, I’d love to find a compatible D/s dynamic and relationship, but right now I’m focused on building genuine connections, making friends, and enjoying the journey.

I’m sapiosexual if you don’t know what that means then…. move along. Rules of engagement: Be polite. Be curious. Don’t ask for my gallery when you haven’t earned the right. Be clear with your requests. Be clear with your boundaries. Be gracious.

This is definitely not the description you were thinking you were gonna read, but if you get through to the end, I promise it’s worth it. Reach out if you want to talk. I just wanted to share a testimony with you all that happened last night. A little backstory first which is also its own testimony. A few months ago, I would’ve told you that BDSM was everything to me. That being a masochistic submissive was who I was. No matter how much I indulge in this lifestyle, it was never enough. I was always looking for more. It wasn’t until I reached my rock bottom of depression and anxiety that I gave up. I cried out to the Lord and asked him to take over my life because my way wasn’t working. I told him that, even if his path leads to my death, that I want that path more than my own. And I meant it! I still do! No matter what we try to do to feel better in this world, nothing is ever gonna feel as good as him being in our lives! So I gave mine to him. The very first thing he did, was take my lust. It’s like a light switch went out! All I did was think about it. I would only get rest for a day or two after I got it. So for him to take that from me was unbelievably life-changing all in itself. I deleted all my dating apps. I deleted my fet life account. I tried to delete this app, but it wouldn’t work. I blocked all the men I had ever talked to and deleted every photo I’ve ever taken to myself that was sexy or pornographic. Best choice I ever made! But my story does not stop there. A little more than three weeks ago God delivered me from marijuana! I have been trying to quit pretty much since I started. I knew it wasn’t good for me and I could hear God telling me to get rid of it forever! I had a Doctor who encouraged it when I found out I had fibromyalgia, I had a therapist who encouraged it telling me it was medicine, I had multiple friends telling me that it was medicine and to keep doing it, and I had a boyfriend that told me I shouldn’t quit, that it helps me and my anxiety. But I knew deep down that it wasn’t good for me. So a few weeks ago, I am walking towards my closet where I started putting it, so it wasn’t in arms reach anymore. Because I was desperately trying to quit. As I was walking to the closet, God quite clearly in my head said “keep on walking and throw it in the garbage”. I thought about it for a moment and then put it right back in the closet. I had just smoked so I was feeling a little silly, and I laughed and said “Lord, I need you to be a lot louder than that because this is so hard!” I wasn’t trying to be defiant or flippant, but I was just recognizing how difficult that was actually gonna be. By the time I made it back to my bed I knew that He meant business! I instantly started crying. I cried out that I was not ready yet. I said I use it for everything Lord, I use it for anxiety, depression, to go to sleep. He very clearly in my head said “you’re gonna come to me now”. So I start crying more and then the bartering started lol I said “Lord in the Bible, you said that we could eat of the trees that you made for us.” He then said “ I also said not to be a drunkard” which is so true because anything in excess or that makes you not yourself is technically being a drunkard. I was so blown away. So then I was saying well I hate to waste, because I had so many unopened packages of Gummies and edibles and jars of the plant that I had grown. So I asked if I could give it to my friend who still partakes. He very clearly said “ if I don’t want you to have it, I don’t want any of my other *** to have it”. So I was just crying and crying because this is so hard. I’ve literally smoked every single day except for my pregnancies for the last 15 years at least! I’m laying in my bed arms wide open asking for help in this matter. I ended up looking over at my dresser where I had wrote a post it Note the week before from the Bible app that I had downloaded. On the Post-it note it said “ God can empower you to do what sometimes feels impossible. Choose joy, stay patient, and keep asking him to move on your behalf. So I instantly started asking Him to move on my behalf! I was too weak. So He told me to get the things that didn’t matter first, the things that I didn’t care about. So I started collecting all the little tools and old pipes and everything that I don’t use anymore and made a pile on my bed. Before I knew it all of that stuff was in the garbage and I was heading to the closet to get the rest. I threw away brand new packages that weren’t opened, I threw away jars and jars of it, I was just dumping everything into that garbage. The more I put in the trash, the better I felt. Once I had taken that garbage out and put it in my dumpster I felt like a whole new person! I never regretted that decision not once since that happened! I have felt nothing but relief and happiness and praise for God who comes to stand you back up when you’ve been so low for so long. So about two weeks ago, I started getting terrible nightmares. The kind where you feel like they’re real and when you wake up, you are very stressed out. I’ve had a lot of *** dreams, I’ve even ***ed in my dreams. So yesterday morning at 3 AM I woke up to another *** dream. I instantly started crying and begging God for relief. I’m just over it at this point! I wasn’t able to go back to sleep and I had to work that day. By the time I got home, I was just beyond exhausted. I prayed to Him again in the evening. I said to Him that I’ve been tempted to go back to weed by the enemy, at least three times because of the nightmares. I have had nightmares my entire life until I started smoking weed. So this is not new to me. They are just back now that the weed is gone. I felt hopeless. I felt like since I have always had them, that they are just something I’m gonna have to live with. I felt so defeated. So in my prayer, I was saying to the Lord that even if I had to keep the dreams, I was never gonna listen to the enemy when he tells me to go back to weed. I knew that God had taken the weed for a reason and I wasn’t gonna give up. I then asked him for the courage to talk about it to my pastor or the Bible study teacher, because I need an answers and help. I was a little afraid to talk to anyone about it because I didn’t want them to think negatively about me. They don’t know me very well yet. I’ve only just started going back to church the Sunday after I quit. I didn’t wanna tell them that I was ***ing people in my dreams for *** of being judged lol So I finished my prayer and was getting ready for bed. I can’t listen to music when I go to sleep because I won’t sleep. But God put it on my heart to listen to it very softly. I thought that maybe if it was very quiet that my mind would hear that as I slept and keep the dreams away. So I went to my Spotify app and clicked shuffle on my favorite Christian music playlist. The very first song that played was “better yet” by Leanna Crawford! My name is Leanne by the way! Coincidence? I think not! Here are the lyrics: You said it’s so hard sleeping through the night And you’ve been trying to hide your tired eyes I remember what that feels like When your thoughts become a prison cell Telling everyone you’re doing well I remember what that feels like You’ve been asking “why God why? “ do you always gotta take your time?” I know that it’s not better yet I know you’re freaking out I know you think that if you were him, you would’ve rescued you by now I know the last thing you wanna hear is keep waiting patiently I know that it’s not better yet But one day it’s gonna be! I was absolutely so blown away by how clearly his answer was for me last night! I went to sleep feeling so joyful. Every time I woke up throughout the night, there was a song in my head playing. I just rolled back over and went back to sleep each time. I woke up feeling so refreshed. God is reaching out to us, we need to start learning how to hear Him. If I had just heard Him in the past, I could’ve avoided so many years of being lost in the pit. I’ve always believed in Him, I’ve always reached out, but never like this. I gave my entire life to Him a little over three months ago. I asked Him to put me on the path that He has for me, not the one that I have. I gave Him every choice. Every single decision that I make goes through Him first. Every single problem goes to Him. Every single worry, every single, every single, every single thing! I cannot stress it enough! The smaller we get the bigger He gets! So I encourage everyone to get out of your own way and to start giving Him control! It only gets better when you do it! The biggest part is having faith and being obedient when He tells you to do something. Even if it seems crazy, even if it shakes up your entire world! Three months ago I was living with a boyfriend in Rhode Island, now I’m back at my ***’s father’s house in Massachusetts. I left everything behind and did what He wanted me to do! I trusted Him with having no job. He provided me with the most amazing Nanny Job I’ve ever had! I’m not promising things are gonna be sunshine and rainbows, but His path is gonna be a heck of a lot better than any path we try to carve out for ourselves! I don’t know what He has in store for me, but it doesn’t matter. I’m here for it! I trust Him! The other day I was in the shower, and He brought forth this idea to write my testimony on my profile since it didn’t work when I tried to delete it. Maybe that’s why it wouldn’t delete. Who knows. Maybe someone else needs to hear my story. So this is me being obedient and sharing my extremely personal story with whoever comes across my page. Thank you for reading, I hope this helps someone. feel free to reach out if you wanna talk about it. God bless! 💜 update/side note, I’m still interested in finding my person. I’m looking for someone who knows how to lead in a healthy way. I want a DD/LG dynamic if possible. I’m not interested in being a slave but I do want structure, rules and boundaries I can push because I am a brat 😂 I love to laugh and joke. I’ll def tease you for reactions. I love playtime. love rough play/cnc

Hihi My name is Lyra Ive been interested in BDSM for a long time and I am a switch!! I have a sub of just under 4 years but do not like to engage in calling and sending things, my dom side is purely message based though I expect many videos, pictures and voicenotes from subs updating me regularly. I believe that my messages should be treated as a gift from the heavens and seen with the most importance even in busy times. My sub side is kinky but I often do not feel horny or want to participate in sexual activities. I find myself just being submissive as It helps me feel supported and regulated. I am hoping to find friends or people who can just guide me when I fall back a little. :) I am also just fine making friends and talking about bdsm as it is something I am passionate about. I’m not looking for anything in person as I am shy. Online is great! it also doesn’t have to be long term at all, whatever is best for you! (I do not send)

29 y/o BBW looking for experienced older Dom or Domme (new to bi experiences but very eager) I’ve dabbled quite a bit in submission, but always in a more informal way. I’m interested in finding someone to teach me more, help me get into the scene, and of course to play with me. I tend towards true submission, obedience, and worship, but can occasionally have a bratty moment if my partner is interested in putting me in my place. I enjoy most every aspect of BDSM I’ve tried, including bondage, impact play, taking orders, edging and denial, over-stimulation, primal play, light ***. I would love to explore other aspects, so please don’t hesitate to tell me what you’re into!

• • ,,, 🇨🇳 (3/4) x 🇬🇧 (1/4) hi ! ♡ into anime, manga/manhua/manhwa, gaming, cosplay, kpop, cpop, traveling, museums, photography, and digital art. i love soft things, pretty things too.

Fun-loving, creative, easy-going, energetic, adventurous... But also kinda quiet, shy, guarded, and reserved... At this stage in my life, I just wanna be around people who make me feel comfortable and relaxed, but also bring me out of my shell & challenge me to step out of my comfort zone. I don't have time for drama, jealousy or mind games. I guess I'm just looking to have some fun and try new things. I don't know much about fetishes and still don't have much experience with BDSM but am open to learning and trying new things. I'm a natural caregiver and would consider myself more of a submissive...but I really don't know much about it all... Maybe you can teach me? ?⛓️?? ☆ yOur New obSeSsion --》 ***.com/alliecat88 ☆

-Some of y’all *really* don’t seem to understand this point. But ONLY interested in local within a reasonable distance. Preferably 45 mins or less. -No one under 27 years of age. -Definitely vetting. If you don’t understand that term, move along. -Not interested in just hookups. A foundation of trust and a level of connection is required to acquire access to me. -Much less inclined to respond to boring/generic messages. Something would have to catch my interest. I’m seeking depth. I receive quite a few messages. Not trying to be arrogant but just straightforward. Trying to move or challenge my boundaries will not work in your favor. -Would love a daddy but building trust is critical. -“Monogamish.” Not looking to add a bunch of new sexual partners to my life. Ideally a main consistent partner and the ability to supplement outside of that is what I’m currently seeking. Subject to change at any given point. If you ask me in messages about this, it’ll be clear you haven’t read my bio. -Not all that interested in being a unicorn for a mff/triad (though not out of the realm of possibilities) but am more open to having more mmf experiences.

I'm looking for a play partner and a friend. Hopefully a friend that can also be a play partner. Still looking for people that have experience and are apart of the community. I like to get to know someone before committing to anything. We can see if we vibe and if we do that's great and if not no hard feelings. sometimes people just don't click and that's ok. I prefer transparent and straight forward communication when it comes to any type of relationship. I prefer talking about what we might want to do before a scene and have a run down afterwards. I can get confused with some social cues so talking in depth and being clear is important. I deal with mental health things so if that would be an issue for you then this won't work. It does affect my daily life as well as other things. I would rather interact with people that can understand that complexity.

I love to travel and I enjoy nature and I am the type of woman who doesn't take no for an answer I am 4'11 and a mouth of a trucker and is very feisty with a huge temper and is really good in bed and loves to be the center of attention and I work from home running my own business baking and cares for my pet guinea pigs both mochi michi and chimi mochi and is very loud in bed and also very ticklish everywhere

My name is Nicole but if you want you can call me Nikki. I have blue eyes and long brown hair. I am a go with the flow type of person meaning letting things happen naturally and not forcing them. I'm more of a submissive. I'm still trying to figure it all out so I am not sure of my likes and dislikes since I haven't explored much. I don't live alone and don't drive. I am all for compromising with this but also understand if it doesn't work. Being blunt, honest, and open is the only wayi know how to be and if I haven't scared you off then I look forward to chatting and possibly meeting you. 😊😉

Just an ordinary girl looking to meet new people and have a little fun. Hoping to find a girl to join my guy and I for some NSA fun, but guys I play alone also.

Just starting here......I am a Domme....But will sometimes Sub for the right Girl. Into restraint....ropes....cuffs....leather....all forms of BDSM.....Enjoy Impact Play.......Boots.....Water Sports.....You Name It and I'm probably In !!

Petite, curvy anal enthusiast. I'm looking for an experienced Dom for bdsm, specifically different types of anal play. Experience is a must!! I prefer a confident top who can be both gentle and sadistic. IRL I'm shy but sassy and sarcastic once I get to know you. Looking for IRL and perhaps long term. Pics on request. Tell me what your into. **Desires and Fantasies** A dirty 'doctor exam'. Spanking, discipline

Hi, I’m a genuine, caring, and down-to-earth woman who believes the best relationships are built on trust, honesty, respect, and real friendship. I’m at a point in life where I value meaningful connections more than anything, and I’m here hoping to meet someone who is serious about building something lasting. I enjoy good conversations, laughter, quiet moments, and making memories with the right person. I appreciate kindness, loyalty, and someone who knows what they want in life. I’m looking for a partner to share life with someone ready for a real, long-term relationship filled with love, understanding, and mutual support.

I'm here looking for genuine down to earth connections. In a space like this I believe the most attractive quality someone can have is absolute honesty. I value open communication transparency and real respect above everything else no games no pretenses.I'm interested in exploring my kinky side but I firmly believe that the foundation of any great dynamic starts with a true connection between two people. Outside of the scene I enjoy exploring new food spots listening to music hiking If you're someone who speaks their truth knows who they are and wants to build something real whether that's a solid friendship a dynamic or more feel free to drop me a message. Let's see if we click.

I'm a married 47 year old woman, plus sized. Brunette with blue eyes. 5'11. I like CNC. I like getting fucked hard by big cock.

I believe in honesty,trust, and open dialogue. My hobbies include hiking, photography, trying out new recipes, andenjoying peaceful moments with a good book or movie.I value both my independence and the importance of strongfamily ties.

Kinda shy at first but I definitely like someone who can take the lead. Into teasing, attention, praise, and a little bit of discipline if I’m acting up. Still learning what I like, but I’m sweet, clingy, and love good energy and flirty conversations that keep me smiling all day. Message me first 🥰

• • ,,, 🇨🇳 (3/4) x 🇬🇧 (1/4) hi ! ♡ into anime, manga/manhua/manhwa, gaming, cosplay, kpop, cpop, traveling, museums, photography, and digital art. i love soft things, pretty things too.

Can't put my photo here for my personal reason. If I view or wink at your profile. that's a sign I'm interested in getting to know you. Kindly say Hi so I respond with a photo of me

I am a married bbw (I have slimmed down a lot but I am no slim jim. I am pleasantly thick). Im exploring my kinky side and also looking for that woman to please.

I wanted you to tie me up and fuck me senseless I want you to leave me shaking begging you to stop and you don’t because you’re the boss. Discretion is must I am married

Hello, I’m very new to this. I am single, it’s been a year since my divorce, no I’m not sad about it, but am now starting to want to explore. I’m only looking for online right now so please respect that. I will only be speaking on here at the moment as well. Feel free to message me, I’m looking forward to sexting with new people 😉

Natural redhead. Statuesque, Pre-Raphaelite muse with a good-time spirit and a love of flight. I’m a sci-fi enthusiast who appreciates fine dining, great food, and history. I’m here seeking a submissive to own. I bring nearly a decade of active experience in the lifestyle and am open to teaching new subs as well as guiding those who are experienced. If you’re curious, respectful, and serious, feel free to reach out—I look forward to connecting. Please don’t message if you live in another country; I’m only interested in local connections.

Just an ordinary girl looking to meet new people and have a little fun. Hoping to find a girl to join my guy and I for some NSA fun, but guys I play alone also.

My fiance and I have been together for almost 6 years (6 years in August of this year) I was recently promoted to a management position with my company and find myself needing an outlet as I'm not a dominant person. I'm not looking for an emotional attachment or for someone to catch feelings.

Here for community first. Attending events, meeting people, learning, and finding my footing. Still fairly new and currently in my curious sponge era, so I’m observing, learning, and probably asking more questions than strictly necessary. I am thoughtful , playful, sarcastic, ambitious, and usually juggling twelve projects at once. I enjoy good conversation, interesting perspectives, and people who don’t take themselves too seriously. Long-term, I’d love to find a compatible D/s dynamic and relationship, but right now I’m focused on building genuine connections, making friends, and enjoying the journey.

I love and care a lot. I'm the type of person who prioritizes others over myself. I'm not too sociable but I am not too introverted as well. My friends say that I am actually talkative and funny at some point after you get to know me. I draw my strength from my family, especially my younger ***. Cooking is my way to relieve stress. As of now, my dream in life, aside from seeing my ***s achieve their goals, is to find the right man who will be my companion in life and start a family with him. I feel the most loved when I am prioritized and the person makes time for me, no matter what

29 y/o BBW looking for experienced older Dom or Domme (new to bi experiences but very eager) I’ve dabbled quite a bit in submission, but always in a more informal way. I’m interested in finding someone to teach me more, help me get into the scene, and of course to play with me. I tend towards true submission, obedience, and worship, but can occasionally have a bratty moment if my partner is interested in putting me in my place. I enjoy most every aspect of BDSM I’ve tried, including bondage, impact play, taking orders, edging and denial, over-stimulation, primal play, light ***. I would love to explore other aspects, so please don’t hesitate to tell me what you’re into!

Fun, flirty, and a little mischievous. I’m here for real chemistry, great conversations, and some unforgettable nights. Confidence, respect, and a good sense of humor are my biggest turn-ons. Let’s keep it light, kinky, and drama-free.

-Some of y’all *really* don’t seem to understand this point. But ONLY interested in local within a reasonable distance. Preferably 45 mins or less. -No one under 27 years of age. -Definitely vetting. If you don’t understand that term, move along. -Not interested in just hookups. A foundation of trust and a level of connection is required to acquire access to me. -Much less inclined to respond to boring/generic messages. Something would have to catch my interest. I’m seeking depth. I receive quite a few messages. Not trying to be arrogant but just straightforward. Trying to move or challenge my boundaries will not work in your favor. -Would love a daddy but building trust is critical. -“Monogamish.” Not looking to add a bunch of new sexual partners to my life. Ideally a main consistent partner and the ability to supplement outside of that is what I’m currently seeking. Subject to change at any given point. If you ask me in messages about this, it’ll be clear you haven’t read my bio. -Not all that interested in being a unicorn for a mff/triad (though not out of the realm of possibilities) but am more open to having more mmf experiences.

If you are under 40 please dont message me. Im actually 50 cant change my age n didn't realize i typed it wrong. Not into super young guys sorry. Just looking to meet ppl and find someone serious. Please be within 50 miles of me. If ur halfway across the world im not going to message u back. Im looking for an ongoing connection with one partner. Not into entertaining you online.

I love to travel and I enjoy nature and I am the type of woman who doesn't take no for an answer I am 4'11 and a mouth of a trucker and is very feisty with a huge temper and is really good in bed and loves to be the center of attention and I work from home running my own business baking and cares for my pet guinea pigs both mochi michi and chimi mochi and is very loud in bed and also very ticklish everywhere

My name is Nicole but if you want you can call me Nikki. I have blue eyes and long brown hair. I am a go with the flow type of person meaning letting things happen naturally and not forcing them. I'm more of a submissive. I'm still trying to figure it all out so I am not sure of my likes and dislikes since I haven't explored much. I don't live alone and don't drive. I am all for compromising with this but also understand if it doesn't work. Being blunt, honest, and open is the only wayi know how to be and if I haven't scared you off then I look forward to chatting and possibly meeting you. 😊😉

_emphasized text_ Hi, I'm a content creator. I 'm new to this platform. I want to satisfy someone's fetish that's into chocolate and love porn and feet.

This is definitely not the description you were thinking you were gonna read, but if you get through to the end, I promise it’s worth it. Reach out if you want to talk. I just wanted to share a testimony with you all that happened last night. A little backstory first which is also its own testimony. A few months ago, I would’ve told you that BDSM was everything to me. That being a masochistic submissive was who I was. No matter how much I indulge in this lifestyle, it was never enough. I was always looking for more. It wasn’t until I reached my rock bottom of depression and anxiety that I gave up. I cried out to the Lord and asked him to take over my life because my way wasn’t working. I told him that, even if his path leads to my death, that I want that path more than my own. And I meant it! I still do! No matter what we try to do to feel better in this world, nothing is ever gonna feel as good as him being in our lives! So I gave mine to him. The very first thing he did, was take my lust. It’s like a light switch went out! All I did was think about it. I would only get rest for a day or two after I got it. So for him to take that from me was unbelievably life-changing all in itself. I deleted all my dating apps. I deleted my fet life account. I tried to delete this app, but it wouldn’t work. I blocked all the men I had ever talked to and deleted every photo I’ve ever taken to myself that was sexy or pornographic. Best choice I ever made! But my story does not stop there. A little more than three weeks ago God delivered me from marijuana! I have been trying to quit pretty much since I started. I knew it wasn’t good for me and I could hear God telling me to get rid of it forever! I had a Doctor who encouraged it when I found out I had fibromyalgia, I had a therapist who encouraged it telling me it was medicine, I had multiple friends telling me that it was medicine and to keep doing it, and I had a boyfriend that told me I shouldn’t quit, that it helps me and my anxiety. But I knew deep down that it wasn’t good for me. So a few weeks ago, I am walking towards my closet where I started putting it, so it wasn’t in arms reach anymore. Because I was desperately trying to quit. As I was walking to the closet, God quite clearly in my head said “keep on walking and throw it in the garbage”. I thought about it for a moment and then put it right back in the closet. I had just smoked so I was feeling a little silly, and I laughed and said “Lord, I need you to be a lot louder than that because this is so hard!” I wasn’t trying to be defiant or flippant, but I was just recognizing how difficult that was actually gonna be. By the time I made it back to my bed I knew that He meant business! I instantly started crying. I cried out that I was not ready yet. I said I use it for everything Lord, I use it for anxiety, depression, to go to sleep. He very clearly in my head said “you’re gonna come to me now”. So I start crying more and then the bartering started lol I said “Lord in the Bible, you said that we could eat of the trees that you made for us.” He then said “ I also said not to be a drunkard” which is so true because anything in excess or that makes you not yourself is technically being a drunkard. I was so blown away. So then I was saying well I hate to waste, because I had so many unopened packages of Gummies and edibles and jars of the plant that I had grown. So I asked if I could give it to my friend who still partakes. He very clearly said “ if I don’t want you to have it, I don’t want any of my other *** to have it”. So I was just crying and crying because this is so hard. I’ve literally smoked every single day except for my pregnancies for the last 15 years at least! I’m laying in my bed arms wide open asking for help in this matter. I ended up looking over at my dresser where I had wrote a post it Note the week before from the Bible app that I had downloaded. On the Post-it note it said “ God can empower you to do what sometimes feels impossible. Choose joy, stay patient, and keep asking him to move on your behalf. So I instantly started asking Him to move on my behalf! I was too weak. So He told me to get the things that didn’t matter first, the things that I didn’t care about. So I started collecting all the little tools and old pipes and everything that I don’t use anymore and made a pile on my bed. Before I knew it all of that stuff was in the garbage and I was heading to the closet to get the rest. I threw away brand new packages that weren’t opened, I threw away jars and jars of it, I was just dumping everything into that garbage. The more I put in the trash, the better I felt. Once I had taken that garbage out and put it in my dumpster I felt like a whole new person! I never regretted that decision not once since that happened! I have felt nothing but relief and happiness and praise for God who comes to stand you back up when you’ve been so low for so long. So about two weeks ago, I started getting terrible nightmares. The kind where you feel like they’re real and when you wake up, you are very stressed out. I’ve had a lot of *** dreams, I’ve even ***ed in my dreams. So yesterday morning at 3 AM I woke up to another *** dream. I instantly started crying and begging God for relief. I’m just over it at this point! I wasn’t able to go back to sleep and I had to work that day. By the time I got home, I was just beyond exhausted. I prayed to Him again in the evening. I said to Him that I’ve been tempted to go back to weed by the enemy, at least three times because of the nightmares. I have had nightmares my entire life until I started smoking weed. So this is not new to me. They are just back now that the weed is gone. I felt hopeless. I felt like since I have always had them, that they are just something I’m gonna have to live with. I felt so defeated. So in my prayer, I was saying to the Lord that even if I had to keep the dreams, I was never gonna listen to the enemy when he tells me to go back to weed. I knew that God had taken the weed for a reason and I wasn’t gonna give up. I then asked him for the courage to talk about it to my pastor or the Bible study teacher, because I need an answers and help. I was a little afraid to talk to anyone about it because I didn’t want them to think negatively about me. They don’t know me very well yet. I’ve only just started going back to church the Sunday after I quit. I didn’t wanna tell them that I was ***ing people in my dreams for *** of being judged lol So I finished my prayer and was getting ready for bed. I can’t listen to music when I go to sleep because I won’t sleep. But God put it on my heart to listen to it very softly. I thought that maybe if it was very quiet that my mind would hear that as I slept and keep the dreams away. So I went to my Spotify app and clicked shuffle on my favorite Christian music playlist. The very first song that played was “better yet” by Leanna Crawford! My name is Leanne by the way! Coincidence? I think not! Here are the lyrics: You said it’s so hard sleeping through the night And you’ve been trying to hide your tired eyes I remember what that feels like When your thoughts become a prison cell Telling everyone you’re doing well I remember what that feels like You’ve been asking “why God why? “ do you always gotta take your time?” I know that it’s not better yet I know you’re freaking out I know you think that if you were him, you would’ve rescued you by now I know the last thing you wanna hear is keep waiting patiently I know that it’s not better yet But one day it’s gonna be! I was absolutely so blown away by how clearly his answer was for me last night! I went to sleep feeling so joyful. Every time I woke up throughout the night, there was a song in my head playing. I just rolled back over and went back to sleep each time. I woke up feeling so refreshed. God is reaching out to us, we need to start learning how to hear Him. If I had just heard Him in the past, I could’ve avoided so many years of being lost in the pit. I’ve always believed in Him, I’ve always reached out, but never like this. I gave my entire life to Him a little over three months ago. I asked Him to put me on the path that He has for me, not the one that I have. I gave Him every choice. Every single decision that I make goes through Him first. Every single problem goes to Him. Every single worry, every single, every single, every single thing! I cannot stress it enough! The smaller we get the bigger He gets! So I encourage everyone to get out of your own way and to start giving Him control! It only gets better when you do it! The biggest part is having faith and being obedient when He tells you to do something. Even if it seems crazy, even if it shakes up your entire world! Three months ago I was living with a boyfriend in Rhode Island, now I’m back at my ***’s father’s house in Massachusetts. I left everything behind and did what He wanted me to do! I trusted Him with having no job. He provided me with the most amazing Nanny Job I’ve ever had! I’m not promising things are gonna be sunshine and rainbows, but His path is gonna be a heck of a lot better than any path we try to carve out for ourselves! I don’t know what He has in store for me, but it doesn’t matter. I’m here for it! I trust Him! The other day I was in the shower, and He brought forth this idea to write my testimony on my profile since it didn’t work when I tried to delete it. Maybe that’s why it wouldn’t delete. Who knows. Maybe someone else needs to hear my story. So this is me being obedient and sharing my extremely personal story with whoever comes across my page. Thank you for reading, I hope this helps someone. feel free to reach out if you wanna talk about it. God bless! 💜 update/side note, I’m still interested in finding my person. I’m looking for someone who knows how to lead in a healthy way. I want a DD/LG dynamic if possible. I’m not interested in being a slave but I do want structure, rules and boundaries I can push because I am a brat 😂 I love to laugh and joke. I’ll def tease you for reactions. I love playtime. love rough play/cnc

I’m 21. Female. Sub, Hardcore CNC, ***kink, Daddy/Daughter, Fingering, Ass licking (received), Oral, Ageplay, light spanking, forcing, DDLG, punishment, light choking, slapping, ***d oral (giving), degrading and praising, role play, toys, fingering, blindfolds/ bondage/collars, being controlled, edge play, gagging, impact play and more…