30 y/o BBW looking for experienced older Dom or Domme (new to bi experiences but very eager). I’ve been in the lifestyle on and off for about a year, and am interested in finding someone to teach me more, help me get further into the scene, and of course to play with me. I tend towards true submission, obedience, and worship, but can occasionally have a bratty moment if my partner is interested in putting me in my place. I enjoy most every aspect of BDSM I’ve tried, including bondage, impact play, taking orders, edging and denial, over-stimulation, primal play, light ***. I would love to explore other aspects, so please don’t hesitate to tell me what you’re into!

I’m sapiosexual if you don’t know what that means then…. move along. Rules of engagement: Be polite. Be curious. Don’t ask for my gallery when you haven’t earned the right. Be clear with your requests. Be clear with your boundaries. Be gracious.

I'm here to meet some new adult friends. I don't think I'm actually looking for anything in particular. I'm married to an amazing man that fully backs what I do in the kink world. We are ENM / Poly. I am not opposed to bringing him into what ever I am doing as long as all parties are ok with it. I can be found with the same username on another Social Media site geared towards kinky things.

Just a bipolar broken girl looking to get licked and pounded for hours 😌 No I don’t give head No I won’t put in effort, I’m a pillow princess. Try not to get attached, and don’t hmu if you don’t like to lick and small.

I consider myself a strong woman, not a tender princess. My life was not easy and I needed to achieve a lot of things by myself with no help so I know what is discipline and strong-will. It did not make me masculine and I am still a *** girl inside but I will never show it to people. I used to take what I want. I used to work hard. But sometimes I want to have someone I can be a little weak girl and feel the care and support I have never felt before. I am looking for someone I can trust to. I am not used to showing my emotions but I believe to find someone who is able to touch my soul and make me believe in deep love.

I am 55 year old submissive with only a few years experience but try to educate myself daily. I am 5’ 8” tall and curvy. blue grey eyes I currently have a Dom and am collared and owned. Looking for kinky friends for conversation with people you think like I do.

Natural redhead. Statuesque, Pre-Raphaelite muse with a good-time spirit and a love of flight. I’m a sci-fi enthusiast who appreciates fine dining, great food, and history. I’m here seeking a submissive to own. I bring nearly a decade of active experience in the lifestyle and am open to teaching new subs as well as guiding those who are experienced. If you’re curious, respectful, and serious, feel free to reach out—I look forward to connecting. Please don’t message if you live in another country; I’m only interested in local connections.

Kinda shy at first but I definitely like someone who can take the lead. Into teasing, attention, praise, and a little bit of discipline if I’m acting up. Still learning what I like, but I’m sweet, clingy, and love good energy and flirty conversations that keep me smiling all day. Message me first 🥰

Respect, boundaries, and honesty are non-negotiable. looking for a good time.

-Some of y’all *really* don’t seem to understand this point. But ONLY interested in local within a reasonable distance. Preferably 45 mins or less. -No one under 27 years of age. -Definitely vetting. If you don’t understand that term, move along. -Not interested in just hookups. A foundation of trust and a level of connection is required to acquire access to me. -Much less inclined to respond to boring/generic messages. Something would have to catch my interest. I’m seeking depth. I receive quite a few messages. Not trying to be arrogant but just straightforward. Trying to move or challenge my boundaries will not work in your favor. -Would love a daddy but building trust is critical. -“Monogamish.” Not looking to add a bunch of new sexual partners to my life. Ideally a main consistent partner and the ability to supplement outside of that is what I’m currently seeking. Subject to change at any given point. If you ask me in messages about this, it’ll be clear you haven’t read my bio. -Not all that interested in being a unicorn for a mff/triad (though not out of the realm of possibilities) but am more open to having more mmf experiences.

I love to travel and I enjoy nature and I am the type of woman who doesn't take no for an answer I am 4'11 and a mouth of a trucker and is very feisty with a huge temper and is really good in bed and loves to be the center of attention and I work from home running my own business baking and cares for my pet guinea pigs both mochi michi and chimi mochi and is very loud in bed and also very ticklish everywhere

This is definitely not the description you were thinking you were gonna read, but if you get through to the end, I promise it’s worth it. Reach out if you want to talk. I just wanted to share a testimony with you all that happened last night. A little backstory first which is also its own testimony. A few months ago, I would’ve told you that BDSM was everything to me. That being a masochistic submissive was who I was. No matter how much I indulge in this lifestyle, it was never enough. I was always looking for more. It wasn’t until I reached my rock bottom of depression and anxiety that I gave up. I cried out to the Lord and asked him to take over my life because my way wasn’t working. I told him that, even if his path leads to my death, that I want that path more than my own. And I meant it! I still do! No matter what we try to do to feel better in this world, nothing is ever gonna feel as good as him being in our lives! So I gave mine to him. The very first thing he did, was take my lust. It’s like a light switch went out! All I did was think about it. I would only get rest for a day or two after I got it. So for him to take that from me was unbelievably life-changing all in itself. I deleted all my dating apps. I deleted my fet life account. I tried to delete this app, but it wouldn’t work. I blocked all the men I had ever talked to and deleted every photo I’ve ever taken to myself that was sexy or pornographic. Best choice I ever made! But my story does not stop there. A little more than three weeks ago God delivered me from marijuana! I have been trying to quit pretty much since I started. I knew it wasn’t good for me and I could hear God telling me to get rid of it forever! I had a Doctor who encouraged it when I found out I had fibromyalgia, I had a therapist who encouraged it telling me it was medicine, I had multiple friends telling me that it was medicine and to keep doing it, and I had a boyfriend that told me I shouldn’t quit, that it helps me and my anxiety. But I knew deep down that it wasn’t good for me. So a few weeks ago, I am walking towards my closet where I started putting it, so it wasn’t in arms reach anymore. Because I was desperately trying to quit. As I was walking to the closet, God quite clearly in my head said “keep on walking and throw it in the garbage”. I thought about it for a moment and then put it right back in the closet. I had just smoked so I was feeling a little silly, and I laughed and said “Lord, I need you to be a lot louder than that because this is so hard!” I wasn’t trying to be defiant or flippant, but I was just recognizing how difficult that was actually gonna be. By the time I made it back to my bed I knew that He meant business! I ***ntly started crying. I cried out that I was not ready yet. I said I use it for everything Lord, I use it for anxiety, depression, to go to sleep. He very clearly in my head said “you’re gonna come to me now”. So I start crying more and then the bartering started lol I said “Lord in the Bible, you said that we could eat of the trees that you made for us.” He then said “ I also said not to be a drunkard” which is so true because anything in excess or that makes you not yourself is technically being a drunkard. I was so blown away. So then I was saying well I hate to waste, because I had so many unopened packages of Gummies and edibles and jars of the plant that I had grown. So I asked if I could give it to my friend who still partakes. He very clearly said “ if I don’t want you to have it, I don’t want any of my other *** to have it”. So I was just crying and crying because this is so hard. I’ve literally smoked every single day except for my pregnancies for the last 15 years at least! I’m laying in my bed arms wide open asking for help in this matter. I ended up looking over at my dresser where I had wrote a post it Note the week before from the Bible app that I had downloaded. On the Post-it note it said “ God can empower you to do what sometimes feels impossible. Choose joy, stay patient, and keep asking him to move on your behalf. So I ***ntly started asking Him to move on my behalf! I was too weak. So He told me to get the things that didn’t matter first, the things that I didn’t care about. So I started collecting all the little tools and old pipes and everything that I don’t use anymore and made a pile on my bed. Before I knew it all of that stuff was in the garbage and I was heading to the closet to get the rest. I threw away brand new packages that weren’t opened, I threw away jars and jars of it, I was just dumping everything into that garbage. The more I put in the trash, the better I felt. Once I had taken that garbage out and put it in my dumpster I felt like a whole new person! I never regretted that decision not once since that happened! I have felt nothing but relief and happiness and praise for God who comes to stand you back up when you’ve been so low for so long. So about two weeks ago, I started getting terrible nightmares. The kind where you feel like they’re real and when you wake up, you are very stressed out. I’ve had a lot of *** dreams, I’ve even ***ed in my dreams. So yesterday morning at 3 AM I woke up to another *** dream. I ***ntly started crying and begging God for relief. I’m just over it at this point! I wasn’t able to go back to sleep and I had to work that day. By the time I got home, I was just beyond exhausted. I prayed to Him again in the evening. I said to Him that I’ve been tempted to go back to weed by the enemy, at least three times because of the nightmares. I have had nightmares my entire life until I started smoking weed. So this is not new to me. They are just back now that the weed is gone. I felt hopeless. I felt like since I have always had them, that they are just something I’m gonna have to live with. I felt so defeated. So in my prayer, I was saying to the Lord that even if I had to keep the dreams, I was never gonna listen to the enemy when he tells me to go back to weed. I knew that God had taken the weed for a reason and I wasn’t gonna give up. I then asked him for the courage to talk about it to my pastor or the Bible study teacher, because I need an answers and help. I was a little afraid to talk to anyone about it because I didn’t want them to think negatively about me. They don’t know me very well yet. I’ve only just started going back to church the Sunday after I quit. I didn’t wanna tell them that I was ***ing people in my dreams for *** of being judged lol So I finished my prayer and was getting ready for bed. I can’t listen to music when I go to sleep because I won’t sleep. But God put it on my heart to listen to it very softly. I thought that maybe if it was very quiet that my mind would hear that as I slept and keep the dreams away. So I went to my Spotify app and clicked shuffle on my favorite Christian music playlist. The very first song that played was “better yet” by Leanna Crawford! My name is Leanne by the way! Coincidence? I think not! Here are the lyrics: You said it’s so hard sleeping through the night And you’ve been trying to hide your tired eyes I remember what that feels like When your thoughts become a prison cell Telling everyone you’re doing well I remember what that feels like You’ve been asking “why God why? “ do you always gotta take your time?” I know that it’s not better yet I know you’re freaking out I know you think that if you were him, you would’ve rescued you by now I know the last thing you wanna hear is keep waiting patiently I know that it’s not better yet But one day it’s gonna be! I was absolutely so blown away by how clearly his answer was for me last night! I went to sleep feeling so joyful. Every time I woke up throughout the night, there was a song in my head playing. I just rolled back over and went back to sleep each time. I woke up feeling so refreshed. God is reaching out to us, we need to start learning how to hear Him. If I had just heard Him in the past, I could’ve avoided so many years of being lost in the pit. I’ve always believed in Him, I’ve always reached out, but never like this. I gave my entire life to Him a little over three months ago. I asked Him to put me on the path that He has for me, not the one that I have. I gave Him every choice. Every single decision that I make goes through Him first. Every single problem goes to Him. Every single worry, every single, every single, every single thing! I cannot stress it enough! The smaller we get the bigger He gets! So I encourage everyone to get out of your own way and to start giving Him control! It only gets better when you do it! The biggest part is having faith and being obedient when He tells you to do something. Even if it seems crazy, even if it shakes up your entire world! Three months ago I was living with a boyfriend in Rhode Island, now I’m back at my ***’s father’s house in Massachusetts. I left everything behind and did what He wanted me to do! I trusted Him with having no job. He provided me with the most amazing Nanny Job I’ve ever had! I’m not promising things are gonna be sunshine and rainbows, but His path is gonna be a heck of a lot better than any path we try to carve out for ourselves! I don’t know what He has in store for me, but it doesn’t matter. I’m here for it! I trust Him! The other day I was in the shower, and He brought forth this idea to write my testimony on my profile since it didn’t work when I tried to delete it. Maybe that’s why it wouldn’t delete. Who knows. Maybe someone else needs to hear my story. So this is me being obedient and sharing my extremely personal story with whoever comes across my page. Thank you for reading, I hope this helps someone. feel free to reach out if you wanna talk about it. God bless! 💜 update/side note, I’m still interested in finding my person. I’m looking for someone who knows how to lead in a healthy way. I want a DD/LG dynamic if possible. I’m not interested in being a slave but I do want structure, rules and boundaries I can push because I am a brat 😂 I love to laugh and joke. I’ll def tease you for reactions. I love playtime. love rough play/cnc

Hihi My name is Lyra Ive been interested in BDSM for a long time and I am a switch!! I have a sub of just under 4 years but do not like to engage in calling and sending things, my dom side is purely message based though I expect many videos, pictures and voicenotes from subs updating me regularly. I believe that my messages should be treated as a gift from the heavens and seen with the most importance even in busy times. My sub side is kinky but I often do not feel horny or want to participate in sexual activities. I find myself just being submissive as It helps me feel supported and regulated. I am hoping to find friends or people who can just guide me when I fall back a little. :) I am also just fine making friends and talking about bdsm as it is something I am passionate about. I’m not looking for anything in person as I am shy. Online is great! it also doesn’t have to be long term at all, whatever is best for you! (I do not send)

I'm looking for a friend that can also be a play partner. I'm looking for people that have experience and are apart of the community. I like to get to know someone before committing to anything. We can see if we vibe and if we do that's great and if not no hard feelings. Sometimes people just don't click and that's ok. I prefer transparent and straight forward communication when it comes to any type of relationship. I prefer talking about what we might want to do before a scene and have a run down afterwards. I can get confused with some social cues so talking in depth and being clear is important. I deal with mental health things so if that would be an issue for you then this won't work. It does affect my daily life as well as other things. I would rather interact with people that can understand that complexity. DO NOT FUCK WITH ME AND WASTE MY TIME. I WILL BLOCK YOU AND REPORT YOU. TOO MANY OF YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO THINK YOU SURPASS EXPECTATIONS. NO

Tiny. Tattooed. Pierced. Bright red hair that definitely didn’t happen naturally. Slavic/Italian 5’1”, 115 pounds, and approximately 90% attitude. Yes, I’m a brat. I have a smart mouth, a sarcastic sense of humor, and an unfortunate talent for saying exactly what’s on my mind. If you bruise easily from words, we probably won’t get along. I like people who can keep up mentally, appreciate dark humor, and don’t mistake confidence for arrogance. Make me laugh, challenge me, and don’t waste my time with one-word messages or copy-and-paste introductions. Communication, honesty, and respect aren’t optional. Neither is having an actual personality. Age range: 26 to 55 only. **ABSOLUTELY NON-NEGOTIABLE**:: Must have RECENT tests to show STI/STD free If you made it this far, congratulations. Now do better than “hey.” 😏 ***: swestlake26

• • ,,, 🇨🇳 (3/4) x 🇬🇧 (1/4) hi ! ♡ into anime, manga/manhua/manhwa, gaming, cosplay, kpop, cpop, traveling, museums, photography, and digital art. i love soft things, pretty things too.

Just an ordinary girl looking to meet new people and have a little fun. Hoping to find a girl to join my guy and I for some NSA fun, but guys I play alone also.

Submissive female who's been out of the lifestyle for way too long and I miss it. But being out of it, I don't exactly know what I'm looking for, just feeling very open right now ... I want to feel a connection and see where that goes

My name is Nicole but if you want you can call me Nikki. I have blue eyes and long brown hair. I am a go with the flow type of person meaning letting things happen naturally and not forcing them. I'm more of a submissive. I'm still trying to figure it all out so I am not sure of my likes and dislikes since I haven't explored much. I don't live alone and don't drive. I am all for compromising with this but also understand if it doesn't work. Being blunt, honest, and open is the only wayi know how to be and if I haven't scared you off then I look forward to chatting and possibly meeting you. 😊😉

49 brunette(blonde) hair switches, Cancer with 42 year old Queen, Leo I want a male toy/sub that I can peg and play with... I would cage and tie up alot and he would do as I say.. 😈 and of course call me Mistress Beg to cum and such u know the usual...lol 😉 But also a friendship with Myself and my Queen No you cannot touch her. But you can watch if youre a goodboy 😈 Daily contact with texting or voice Always doing daily commands I'm pretty straight forward too

I don't want to spend a lot of time here. I worked too hard and now I have other priorities in life, I want to build a happy life. I'm ready to learn new cultures and traditions. I hope that this future interests you and you will write to me. I understand perfectly well that there are many single women on this site and each of them is good in its own way and pursues its goal! I also have a certain goal, you wonder what is the goal and how I want to achieve it? My goal is a sincere and lively relationship, and how to achieve them I want to show you in practice.

I'm a married 47 year old woman, plus sized. Brunette with blue eyes. 5'11. I like CNC. I like getting fucked hard by big cock.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for in life just want a good friend good sex and a nice love life open to anything **Desires and Fantasies** Lin love with the idea of being a slave girl

I’m a confident, open-minded woman who values genuine connection, good conversation, and mutual respect. I’m here to meet someone mature, emotionally intelligent, and interesting. I prefer to take things slowly, build trust, and see where a natural connection leads.

Submissive female who's been out of the lifestyle for way too long and I miss it. But being out of it, I don't exactly know what I'm looking for, just feeling very open right now ... I want to feel a connection and see where that goes

Just a bipolar broken girl looking to get licked and pounded for hours 😌 No I don’t give head No I won’t put in effort, I’m a pillow princess. Try not to get attached, and don’t hmu if you don’t like to lick and small.

I consider myself a strong woman, not a tender princess. My life was not easy and I needed to achieve a lot of things by myself with no help so I know what is discipline and strong-will. It did not make me masculine and I am still a *** girl inside but I will never show it to people. I used to take what I want. I used to work hard. But sometimes I want to have someone I can be a little weak girl and feel the care and support I have never felt before. I am looking for someone I can trust to. I am not used to showing my emotions but I believe to find someone who is able to touch my soul and make me believe in deep love.

if I'm being honest, I'm just looking for my person. Someone with whom life feels easy and calm, loves ***s, travel, knows how to laugh, and sees life a bit deeper than just the surface. Someone with whom you don't build an image, but a real story.

i’m new here, sub looking for a dom, anonymous because i’m a bit scared of anyone seeing me right off the bat.. pic is a drawing my friend made of me! just looking to chit chat and explore !! :)

A beautiful soul is beautiful in appearance. I love everything pure, kind, and sincere. I love helping others and love ***s and people with a sense of humor.

I’m a confident, open-minded woman who values genuine connection, good conversation, and mutual respect. I’m here to meet someone mature, emotionally intelligent, and interesting. I prefer to take things slowly, build trust, and see where a natural connection leads.

Tiny. Tattooed. Pierced. Bright red hair that definitely didn’t happen naturally. Slavic/Italian 5’1”, 115 pounds, and approximately 90% attitude. Yes, I’m a brat. I have a smart mouth, a sarcastic sense of humor, and an unfortunate talent for saying exactly what’s on my mind. If you bruise easily from words, we probably won’t get along. I like people who can keep up mentally, appreciate dark humor, and don’t mistake confidence for arrogance. Make me laugh, challenge me, and don’t waste my time with one-word messages or copy-and-paste introductions. Communication, honesty, and respect aren’t optional. Neither is having an actual personality. Age range: 26 to 55 only. **ABSOLUTELY NON-NEGOTIABLE**:: Must have RECENT tests to show STI/STD free If you made it this far, congratulations. Now do better than “hey.” 😏 ***: swestlake26

I love a big cock to fill my cunt with cream. Not very fertile but would love to get knocked up and filled everyday of the pregnancy. When my milk comes in I’ll have enough for you asked the baby. 😉 (Ideally someone who is looking for a long term arrangement)

I don't want to spend a lot of time here. I worked too hard and now I have other priorities in life, I want to build a happy life. I'm ready to learn new cultures and traditions. I hope that this future interests you and you will write to me. I understand perfectly well that there are many single women on this site and each of them is good in its own way and pursues its goal! I also have a certain goal, you wonder what is the goal and how I want to achieve it? My goal is a sincere and lively relationship, and how to achieve them I want to show you in practice.

I'm basically a perpetual smile machine irritability's not really my thing, and honestly, I can't even recall the last time I frowned! Guess you could say I'm a glass-half-full kinda type.

I'm a married 47 year old woman, plus sized. Brunette with blue eyes. 5'11. I like CNC. I like getting fucked hard by big cock.

Kinda shy at first but I definitely like someone who can take the lead. Into teasing, attention, praise, and a little bit of discipline if I’m acting up. Still learning what I like, but I’m sweet, clingy, and love good energy and flirty conversations that keep me smiling all day. Message me first 🥰

• • ,,, 🇨🇳 (3/4) x 🇬🇧 (1/4) hi ! ♡ into anime, manga/manhua/manhwa, gaming, cosplay, kpop, cpop, traveling, museums, photography, and digital art. i love soft things, pretty things too.

Respect, boundaries, and honesty are non-negotiable. looking for a good time.

Natural redhead. Statuesque, Pre-Raphaelite muse with a good-time spirit and a love of flight. I’m a sci-fi enthusiast who appreciates fine dining, great food, and history. I’m here seeking a submissive to own. I bring nearly a decade of active experience in the lifestyle and am open to teaching new subs as well as guiding those who are experienced. If you’re curious, respectful, and serious, feel free to reach out—I look forward to connecting. Please don’t message if you live in another country; I’m only interested in local connections.

Just an ordinary girl looking to meet new people and have a little fun. Hoping to find a girl to join my guy and I for some NSA fun, but guys I play alone also.

30 y/o BBW looking for experienced older Dom or Domme (new to bi experiences but very eager). I’ve been in the lifestyle on and off for about a year, and am interested in finding someone to teach me more, help me get further into the scene, and of course to play with me. I tend towards true submission, obedience, and worship, but can occasionally have a bratty moment if my partner is interested in putting me in my place. I enjoy most every aspect of BDSM I’ve tried, including bondage, impact play, taking orders, edging and denial, over-stimulation, primal play, light ***. I would love to explore other aspects, so please don’t hesitate to tell me what you’re into!

-Some of y’all *really* don’t seem to understand this point. But ONLY interested in local within a reasonable distance. Preferably 45 mins or less. -No one under 27 years of age. -Definitely vetting. If you don’t understand that term, move along. -Not interested in just hookups. A foundation of trust and a level of connection is required to acquire access to me. -Much less inclined to respond to boring/generic messages. Something would have to catch my interest. I’m seeking depth. I receive quite a few messages. Not trying to be arrogant but just straightforward. Trying to move or challenge my boundaries will not work in your favor. -Would love a daddy but building trust is critical. -“Monogamish.” Not looking to add a bunch of new sexual partners to my life. Ideally a main consistent partner and the ability to supplement outside of that is what I’m currently seeking. Subject to change at any given point. If you ask me in messages about this, it’ll be clear you haven’t read my bio. -Not all that interested in being a unicorn for a mff/triad (though not out of the realm of possibilities) but am more open to having more mmf experiences.

I love to travel and I enjoy nature and I am the type of woman who doesn't take no for an answer I am 4'11 and a mouth of a trucker and is very feisty with a huge temper and is really good in bed and loves to be the center of attention and I work from home running my own business baking and cares for my pet guinea pigs both mochi michi and chimi mochi and is very loud in bed and also very ticklish everywhere

My name is Nicole but if you want you can call me Nikki. I have blue eyes and long brown hair. I am a go with the flow type of person meaning letting things happen naturally and not forcing them. I'm more of a submissive. I'm still trying to figure it all out so I am not sure of my likes and dislikes since I haven't explored much. I don't live alone and don't drive. I am all for compromising with this but also understand if it doesn't work. Being blunt, honest, and open is the only wayi know how to be and if I haven't scared you off then I look forward to chatting and possibly meeting you. 😊😉

This is definitely not the description you were thinking you were gonna read, but if you get through to the end, I promise it’s worth it. Reach out if you want to talk. I just wanted to share a testimony with you all that happened last night. A little backstory first which is also its own testimony. A few months ago, I would’ve told you that BDSM was everything to me. That being a masochistic submissive was who I was. No matter how much I indulge in this lifestyle, it was never enough. I was always looking for more. It wasn’t until I reached my rock bottom of depression and anxiety that I gave up. I cried out to the Lord and asked him to take over my life because my way wasn’t working. I told him that, even if his path leads to my death, that I want that path more than my own. And I meant it! I still do! No matter what we try to do to feel better in this world, nothing is ever gonna feel as good as him being in our lives! So I gave mine to him. The very first thing he did, was take my lust. It’s like a light switch went out! All I did was think about it. I would only get rest for a day or two after I got it. So for him to take that from me was unbelievably life-changing all in itself. I deleted all my dating apps. I deleted my fet life account. I tried to delete this app, but it wouldn’t work. I blocked all the men I had ever talked to and deleted every photo I’ve ever taken to myself that was sexy or pornographic. Best choice I ever made! But my story does not stop there. A little more than three weeks ago God delivered me from marijuana! I have been trying to quit pretty much since I started. I knew it wasn’t good for me and I could hear God telling me to get rid of it forever! I had a Doctor who encouraged it when I found out I had fibromyalgia, I had a therapist who encouraged it telling me it was medicine, I had multiple friends telling me that it was medicine and to keep doing it, and I had a boyfriend that told me I shouldn’t quit, that it helps me and my anxiety. But I knew deep down that it wasn’t good for me. So a few weeks ago, I am walking towards my closet where I started putting it, so it wasn’t in arms reach anymore. Because I was desperately trying to quit. As I was walking to the closet, God quite clearly in my head said “keep on walking and throw it in the garbage”. I thought about it for a moment and then put it right back in the closet. I had just smoked so I was feeling a little silly, and I laughed and said “Lord, I need you to be a lot louder than that because this is so hard!” I wasn’t trying to be defiant or flippant, but I was just recognizing how difficult that was actually gonna be. By the time I made it back to my bed I knew that He meant business! I ***ntly started crying. I cried out that I was not ready yet. I said I use it for everything Lord, I use it for anxiety, depression, to go to sleep. He very clearly in my head said “you’re gonna come to me now”. So I start crying more and then the bartering started lol I said “Lord in the Bible, you said that we could eat of the trees that you made for us.” He then said “ I also said not to be a drunkard” which is so true because anything in excess or that makes you not yourself is technically being a drunkard. I was so blown away. So then I was saying well I hate to waste, because I had so many unopened packages of Gummies and edibles and jars of the plant that I had grown. So I asked if I could give it to my friend who still partakes. He very clearly said “ if I don’t want you to have it, I don’t want any of my other *** to have it”. So I was just crying and crying because this is so hard. I’ve literally smoked every single day except for my pregnancies for the last 15 years at least! I’m laying in my bed arms wide open asking for help in this matter. I ended up looking over at my dresser where I had wrote a post it Note the week before from the Bible app that I had downloaded. On the Post-it note it said “ God can empower you to do what sometimes feels impossible. Choose joy, stay patient, and keep asking him to move on your behalf. So I ***ntly started asking Him to move on my behalf! I was too weak. So He told me to get the things that didn’t matter first, the things that I didn’t care about. So I started collecting all the little tools and old pipes and everything that I don’t use anymore and made a pile on my bed. Before I knew it all of that stuff was in the garbage and I was heading to the closet to get the rest. I threw away brand new packages that weren’t opened, I threw away jars and jars of it, I was just dumping everything into that garbage. The more I put in the trash, the better I felt. Once I had taken that garbage out and put it in my dumpster I felt like a whole new person! I never regretted that decision not once since that happened! I have felt nothing but relief and happiness and praise for God who comes to stand you back up when you’ve been so low for so long. So about two weeks ago, I started getting terrible nightmares. The kind where you feel like they’re real and when you wake up, you are very stressed out. I’ve had a lot of *** dreams, I’ve even ***ed in my dreams. So yesterday morning at 3 AM I woke up to another *** dream. I ***ntly started crying and begging God for relief. I’m just over it at this point! I wasn’t able to go back to sleep and I had to work that day. By the time I got home, I was just beyond exhausted. I prayed to Him again in the evening. I said to Him that I’ve been tempted to go back to weed by the enemy, at least three times because of the nightmares. I have had nightmares my entire life until I started smoking weed. So this is not new to me. They are just back now that the weed is gone. I felt hopeless. I felt like since I have always had them, that they are just something I’m gonna have to live with. I felt so defeated. So in my prayer, I was saying to the Lord that even if I had to keep the dreams, I was never gonna listen to the enemy when he tells me to go back to weed. I knew that God had taken the weed for a reason and I wasn’t gonna give up. I then asked him for the courage to talk about it to my pastor or the Bible study teacher, because I need an answers and help. I was a little afraid to talk to anyone about it because I didn’t want them to think negatively about me. They don’t know me very well yet. I’ve only just started going back to church the Sunday after I quit. I didn’t wanna tell them that I was ***ing people in my dreams for *** of being judged lol So I finished my prayer and was getting ready for bed. I can’t listen to music when I go to sleep because I won’t sleep. But God put it on my heart to listen to it very softly. I thought that maybe if it was very quiet that my mind would hear that as I slept and keep the dreams away. So I went to my Spotify app and clicked shuffle on my favorite Christian music playlist. The very first song that played was “better yet” by Leanna Crawford! My name is Leanne by the way! Coincidence? I think not! Here are the lyrics: You said it’s so hard sleeping through the night And you’ve been trying to hide your tired eyes I remember what that feels like When your thoughts become a prison cell Telling everyone you’re doing well I remember what that feels like You’ve been asking “why God why? “ do you always gotta take your time?” I know that it’s not better yet I know you’re freaking out I know you think that if you were him, you would’ve rescued you by now I know the last thing you wanna hear is keep waiting patiently I know that it’s not better yet But one day it’s gonna be! I was absolutely so blown away by how clearly his answer was for me last night! I went to sleep feeling so joyful. Every time I woke up throughout the night, there was a song in my head playing. I just rolled back over and went back to sleep each time. I woke up feeling so refreshed. God is reaching out to us, we need to start learning how to hear Him. If I had just heard Him in the past, I could’ve avoided so many years of being lost in the pit. I’ve always believed in Him, I’ve always reached out, but never like this. I gave my entire life to Him a little over three months ago. I asked Him to put me on the path that He has for me, not the one that I have. I gave Him every choice. Every single decision that I make goes through Him first. Every single problem goes to Him. Every single worry, every single, every single, every single thing! I cannot stress it enough! The smaller we get the bigger He gets! So I encourage everyone to get out of your own way and to start giving Him control! It only gets better when you do it! The biggest part is having faith and being obedient when He tells you to do something. Even if it seems crazy, even if it shakes up your entire world! Three months ago I was living with a boyfriend in Rhode Island, now I’m back at my ***’s father’s house in Massachusetts. I left everything behind and did what He wanted me to do! I trusted Him with having no job. He provided me with the most amazing Nanny Job I’ve ever had! I’m not promising things are gonna be sunshine and rainbows, but His path is gonna be a heck of a lot better than any path we try to carve out for ourselves! I don’t know what He has in store for me, but it doesn’t matter. I’m here for it! I trust Him! The other day I was in the shower, and He brought forth this idea to write my testimony on my profile since it didn’t work when I tried to delete it. Maybe that’s why it wouldn’t delete. Who knows. Maybe someone else needs to hear my story. So this is me being obedient and sharing my extremely personal story with whoever comes across my page. Thank you for reading, I hope this helps someone. feel free to reach out if you wanna talk about it. God bless! 💜 update/side note, I’m still interested in finding my person. I’m looking for someone who knows how to lead in a healthy way. I want a DD/LG dynamic if possible. I’m not interested in being a slave but I do want structure, rules and boundaries I can push because I am a brat 😂 I love to laugh and joke. I’ll def tease you for reactions. I love playtime. love rough play/cnc

Hihi My name is Lyra Ive been interested in BDSM for a long time and I am a switch!! I have a sub of just under 4 years but do not like to engage in calling and sending things, my dom side is purely message based though I expect many videos, pictures and voicenotes from subs updating me regularly. I believe that my messages should be treated as a gift from the heavens and seen with the most importance even in busy times. My sub side is kinky but I often do not feel horny or want to participate in sexual activities. I find myself just being submissive as It helps me feel supported and regulated. I am hoping to find friends or people who can just guide me when I fall back a little. :) I am also just fine making friends and talking about bdsm as it is something I am passionate about. I’m not looking for anything in person as I am shy. Online is great! it also doesn’t have to be long term at all, whatever is best for you! (I do not send)