Sometimes I feel suffocated, or like Im sitting and waiting for my life to resume as I feel its on pause. I live with someone I utterly hate, someone who doesn't even sc*** my fetishes nor do we even have sex after all these years.
Hes trans, and cant please me in certain ways and he doesn't understand or doesn't care. I tell him to leave, find someone who loves him better; who aligns with him better but he doesn't; so we just continue to fight and degrade whatever mental happiness we have.
Some days I dont ever think Ill find what I want.
I just want to be treated like a good chunky girl π₯Ή find someone who utterly adores me and my fat self. Ideally my partner would help me better myself, take walks with me, help me eat healthier but also adores me just the way I am. I want someone who has a breeding fetish.
I want to be treated like a sexual object but also like a queen and thats apparently hard to find.
At least my cat is cool.