Women seeking Couples in Cincinnati

I haven't had sex in over 3 years, almost 4 now... I would say I miss sex but most sex I had was disappointing and I rarely got to finish, along with it always being pretty vanilla. I want to end my years of sexual celibacy...but insecurities about my weight (despite that I've been losing) and my anxiety have made it so hard to do so... plus my life situation is pretty complicated too... but I miss physical affection, and I love my couple toys but obviously it's not the same... especially cause I feel silly when I'm choking myself when getting off...
I really wanna start having sex again but I just hate hookup culture and I'm just worried I'll end up with people who are like my previous experiences: vanilla, no foreplay or aftercare, won't eat me out, and won't bother making sure I get off too...I dunno how to end this but I hope/ think my point is clear lol.

I'd like to meet ..An attractive couple, in their 30s or early 40s . I want a trustworthy, dominant man to lead me as i give my body to him.. I would also like the woman, to be somewhat experienced, as I'm not, and who enjoys giving. If not a couple, then a woman who would like to give me an experience to remember😜

I want to meet someone respectful that I feel comfortable talking to and can trust. I want to find someone who can get me out of my comfort zone and explore what pleases me. I want someone who will dominate me bc I don't know what I'm doing, but I wanna do it.