I'm mid 50s, w/30+ yrs in BDSM/fetish, 5'10", 185 lbs, 7" cut, small nuts, dad body. I have chronic pain ailments, but subspace & orgasms push that away. Fully vaxxed, HIV-, D/D free, not conservative, religious, or unstable. My spouse wants me to have a caring Master. They're an asexual work colleague; we have no sexual or kink relationship. They understand that there's a needful hole in me, & it needs to be filled.
**Desires and Fantasies**
I do need some loving care, fetish-training as physical therapy, & i love things like receiving massages when bound & anal-penetrated. Even casual dominance-fucks like pushing in a couple of fingers on Your whim make me shudder. I want a Master who would view frequent working of me to be a joy--hell, i encourage a Master to partly automate the Training if it helps the Master's pleasures. Use scripts. Use randomizers to create Training sessions. Use cams & sensors & hypnotic audio, remote control devices & rituals that can realistically fit into our lives.
In return You not only get to feed the monster inside You, You'll get someone who's helpful & considerate, & will make Your life better.
About You:
You are strangely benevolent.
You love that thrum of satisfaction & power that comes from being a successful Master. I have weird desires, but not to You, who see them less as weird & more as... exploitable. You've tried others before me, but You felt Your lusts might be too esoteric for them. You know Your dark, perverse, taboo urges. You want the rush that comes with feeling my tongue as Your toilet paper & seeing me conditioned to be horny from it; a devil's mindfuck. Train my hole to open up & do tricks. Clench, gape, twitch, kiss, & more with those asslips. Slow, wickedly deepening identity-remaking? Yes. Take away my face, put me under.
You have deep thought & a repertoire of techniques that You've found You genuinely love, & here i am. How can we make this work?
This is how i feel.
Thank you for reading the tale of my heart, laid bare.
Ritual, conditioning, dildos, praise, psychological control, pleasure association, sexualized exotic animal training, catsuits, costume, bodysuits, masks, creative bondage, sensory control, sex magic, toilet slave, toy making, body paint, dehumanized, posture, grace, chocolate, scat bidet, behavioral mod, head box, hoods, objectification, coprophilia, kink furniture, trust, respect, honesty, courage, disabled, pony, pet, beast, anthro, furry, brainwashing, hypno, monster, devil, demon, affectionate cruelty, understanding, dirty talk, aftercare, control, secrets, triggers, fuck machines, lube, pig, intelligence, music, audio, sapiosexuality, mouth to ass, dirty messaging, rimming, rim seat, role play, ordered to masturbate, scent, cock worship, toys, anal hooks, cosplay, cyber sex, fursuits, humiliation, mental bondage, guided trance, food, eating, worship owner trainer master Lord as a God, sacred sexuality.
Dislikes/limits: No identifiable public stuff. No blood, or underage. Oral penetration is discouraged b/c of braces behind teeth being like cheese graters. Spanking/whipping/heavy pain snaps me out of headspace. Weirder: no nipples; I'd have mine removed if i could. Taping over them could be a symbolic way of dehumanizing. Also not into piss, despite flagging brown. Not into douching. I pay my own way, but I never do findom.
