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I’m a 51-year-old Pennsylvania man. After moving back to my hometown area after being in Florida for 25 years, I move home to take care of the most precious thing to me in the world besides my son. My mother. But of course, life doesn’t always go as planned, And we came into custody right after her cancer surgery of my eight-year-old and 12 year-old niece and nephew. Who have been extremely traumatized, by losing their mother, my , four years ago, and then their father recently. The problem is, and the four years since my passed Their father and my mother have, for different reasons, let them do whatever they want. Say whatever they want act however they want treat people however they want and now it’s a normal thing. I’m taking care of all three of them and I cannot believe that this is my family. I’ve never been wishy-washy, I’ve always been a man’s man, I ride a Harley and I hunt and I eat what I kill. I was married for 20 years and raised an awesome son. But I have been treated recently worse than I have ever been treated by someone who says they love me. I try to connect with my nephew because all I want to do is take care of my ’s kids and give them some healing. It is such a volatile situation with my mother, who is not well and my nephew who just doesn’t care anymore. He knows my mom is ill and probably not gonna be around much longer, and though he claims to love her so much and get so manipulating and wishy-washy only to tell her to shut the fuck up and hit her. I don’t even understand the things that I used to understand. I’ve been single for about a year, and I would just like somebody to take me, a female, and just me. Make me feel horrible yet while doing things to make yourself and myself feel great. I just don’t know how to deal with or compute any of this anymore and I just need some kind of human interaction from somebody I don’t know to distract me from the fact that the only person really left in my big family. Besides my son, has turned into a different person who I don’t know anymore and frankly, I want nothing to do with anymore, and of course it’s at the end of her life. If you tell me that everything happens for a reason or some other dumb ass cliché, I may have to skull fuck you. Genuine human being, needing some genuine, genuine human interaction that doesn’t feel like a knife.