You love to serve, you love all the sensations when you have no control, but you don't really like pain. Stimulation and arousal are good, but pain and brutality are just not for you.
Consider spending time with one who has ideas, loves to please and be pleased, is willing and able to obtain your compliance without force, but quite happy to stimulate you as needed.
Ideal date would begin vanilla, probably in public. Eye candy is its own reward. Being stylish and enjoying each other's company helps establish a more trusting bond for ... well, bonds.
Write if interested. We can get acquainted and set up some rules that work, and are safe, sane, and consensual.
I don't know really what all to put here, but I want to explore things I am interested in and making who ever takes me as there pet/sub happy, and I hope they will take care of me just as much as they will.