PhantomFlogger Posted June 29 Posted June 29 I'm a narcissist, that is to say i have a Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) it governs everything i do and all that i think. I'm confident, straight forward, driven and self assured. Im also broken, easy to hurt and require adoration to function. I love BDSM, the rules and deep trusts really hit that spot in me that says "mmm...YES!" but should someone with NPD have all that power, is it a slippery slope where confidence and inflated self worth are ultimately the reason we feel we can do no wrong and yet hurt so many in our wake. Don't get me wrong, and without going too much into it, NPD does not equal bad, in fact id like to think that the constant need to be perfect and admired is my biggest motivation to, well, be perfect and admirable. My crippling fear of making mistakes means i never do anything half-assed, i study and learn everything i apply myself to. What I want to know is, does complete power corrupt completely? Does having a sub force a narcissist to become unwell? Even the best intended narcissist will lose there way if their delusions of grandeur are reinforced by a submissive holding them far too high. There are many types of NPD, many share attributes, many contradict eachother, there are people who are treated and others who go their whole life never knowing. Is BDSM a feeding ground for narcissists to pick off inexperienced subs and get that fix of power and control, or is it the best place for us? Rules, protocol, community and dynamics in a safe, "sane" and consentual manner... clinical and a way to vent. I honestly dont know, but what i do know is it scares me how well BDSM feeds into all personality disorders and speaking from experience being a narcissist makes me attractive in this community, if only at first. I see myself sometimes, rope in one hand and a flogger in the other and wonder if i should have all this power.