PLEASE NOTE: I'm a free member here so somethings maybe restricted.
To the essay...
2025 is where my kinky journey officially started! Wasn't as kinky as I hoped but very much enjoyed what I got a chance to do even though it was very little. I would consider myself still quiet new but I'm certainly hungry for more and hoping 2026 is going to be a much kinkier year.
I have a desire to Please, Pleasure and to be Dominated! To be tied up,restraint, completely *** at a Masters mercy having to take whatever he decides for me and having no choice, to experience that power exchange and his control...What a thrill! Even more so if I've gotten in trouble from being cheeky. Then on the other hand giving him all my attention pleasuring him in almost any way he wants me too. Satisfying him, giving him affection,deep primal raw passion,intimacy, physical touch, sexual pleasures,enjoyment and wanting to make him feel SO good is just such a turn on for me. The thought of being collared and owned, being reminded of whom I belong to and whose in control (That excites me), be wanted,with a sense of purpose. I love to give and it is important to me to give my undivided attention to my Master/Dom to REALLY know what and how to please him. Push, Guide, Challenge Discipline, Encouragement from him pushes my want, my need to be the best I can for him.
In short I'm a pleasure sub/slave with an inner beast that's hungry to break from it's cage to let go and be free!
I'm also learning that I'm a little bit of masochist which I never saw that coming and starting to enjoy a bit of ***.Love the aftermath of a good beating, the bruising and marks makes you feel like his canvas. The tenderness and soreness the next day is such a wonderful feeling.
Overall I'd like to think I'm quite open to trying and discovering many things. I would say that I've started to explore very little and some of those things that never crossed my mind and so far so good, again I'm loving it!! I've even noticed that it brings out a more feminine side, I like wearing dresses, skirts, boots (even if they are high and I can't walk in them lol) I like how it makes me feel. Makes me feel sexier and confident in this kinky world.
Predicament Bondage is something I would love to explore more looks so much fun!! Heavy Bondage, Chain insertion, caged, vaginal fisting, love the idea of a collar / Leash,metal collar/chains, and the idea of discreet and in public has peaked my interest such as having to wear a toy/ remote control toy, chastity (imagine combing the two... Being in his control.. Oh fuck, thats hot! And even when apart that too would be hot! ), a discreet looking collar something that only I and my Dom/Master would know and knowing he remains in control of me when near and far. Oh does that excite me as does the though of Primal which is another new curiosity. The deep rawness of letting go sounds exhilarating as well as putting up a bit of a fight a fun wrestle as he pins me down to the bed holding my hands above my head as I squirm beneath him as he over powers and gets my submission...What a thought that is. Would love to know more about it and explore that too as are all the above are things i'd like to find out more about and try and no doubt more things will be added as well as my curious fetishes listed below 😉
Learning a lot about myself as I go as well as the Kink community/ lifestyle and always something to learn about.
As fun as it all is the most important thing for me is going at my own pace,getting to know someone forming a good/strong friendship and a connection. It's very important to me to have genuine Respect, Trust, Honesty, to be comfortable and feel safe are things that I highly value as well as your time. Means the world to me when people can find time for me when its genuine, alot or a little. Finding time because you genuinely want to as you like me as a person and value me in some way and not doing so to lift me up and drop me suddenly when it suits.
My values...
Respect, Trust, Honesty, Communication, Consistency, Consent, Safety, Authenticity, Loyalty, Humor, You & Your Time.
What I'm truly seeking
I am looking for a D/s dynamic but feel a slight lean more towards a M/s dynamic and hoping to find a /Master to belong to and to be owned. As time goes on I'm understanding what I'm really wanting. The hardest part is shifting through the noise and finding that one to call my Dom/Master (Curious if you're a Hunter too) and he the one to call me his slave. But know my submission isn't just for anyone and it is something to be earned as is a Dom's honorifics.
I'm looking for a Dom/Master/Hunter who is:
- Experienced, Understanding holding important values just as I and the gift of submission highly
- 38 - 50yrs old
- Straight
- White,Caucasian
- UK - Near or not a million miles away from Bucks would be a bonus, don't mind bd a bit if travel.
- Wants and values real connection who wants to get to know each other not only on a kink level but also vanilla. Happy for things to flow naturally.
- Who is serious and genuinely wants a long term dynamic with the possibility of it becoming a monogamous relationship down the line.
- Who will bring and be his genuine self always.
- Someone who brings peace & safety.
- Someone that respects and does not *** the power they have in control to manipulate or use it negatively.
- Rules to follow but also someone I can laugh with.
IMPORTANT, PLEASE READ!
I'm not here for a quickie, or a one off as it is meaningless and I've no interest in playing games or someone who can't be honest and ghosts leaving me in the dark wondering what happened. I'd take a hard truth any day than being ghosted. If you can't give me alittle respect and communicate with me honestly then please don't bother as I'm sick off it! I fully understand that life happens or looks wise I'm not it and thats totally OK and I accept that.
With being honest and giving courtesy I would appreciate understanding, the closure and wish you well. I know it's a hard ask in the online world but I'm still going to ask for it.
I'm here for something long term, something that's built with value,meaning and something serious and feel I have made it very clear what I'm searching for. I'm hoping there's someone out there that is wanting the same and mean what they say and just as serious as I.
If you feel this could be you and I peak you're interest then please feel free to chat and drop me a message.
Honestly I'm not expecting much but I'm hopeful.
Vanilla me
I've a kind caring heart, love good banter, like to have a laugh, easy going, can chat your ear off but yet also not the best in the social side of things. A little geeky,likes sports and used to play but not as active as I used to be but do enjoy activities and adventure (need more of it in both kink & vanilla)
I like nature, walks through forests especially beautiful when you hear the whistles of the kites above,sport, drawing, gaming, theme parks, cycling (mostly virtual), swimming, hope to add tennis to the list at some point would like to do more activites with company. I always think of making games and activities fun if a Master would add a "if I win you will do this or that but if you win then this or that." Would make winning and loosing interesting and adds that extra fun and off course it's for the Master to decide... Always.
But ultimately what you see with me is what you get.
Some things to note:
- I ONLY add people as friends for those I have met in RL.
- Don't & Can't have kids. Tubes tied
- I am NOT interested in one nighters, hook ups or getting with as many people as possible, absolutely NOT ! So please DON'T message me if you're trying it on and looking to get you're dick wet. The answer is NO & I'M NOT INTERESTED!
- As much as I love dick if I didn't ask to see it,I'm NOT INTERESTED so please DON'T send me a dick pic no matter how nice it might be
- You do NOT have permission to use any photos on my profile.
Thank you.