“ I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness.
I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot.
I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh G’d, as a woman I want to be dominated.
I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.” Ainis Nin
I have a very dominant personality, in the “real world”, with my family, friends and anyone else I come across. I am known to be the person who is completely in control and can handle anything that's put before me. I am an evolving, fluctuating and growing person that will not be held to one label, if that is a problem, then I am most certainly not the girl for you. I am wild at heart and very much a free spirit. My wants and desires can change on a whim, but if I give my loyalty to you, you will have it till the day I die. I speak English and Sarcasm fluently. I am Intelligent. Curvy. Empathic. Kinky. Bossy. Creative. Kind. Passionate. I have a big ass, a big mouth and an even bigger heart. I laugh hysterically. I cry easily. I love hard. I tease. I obsess. I am a *** of nature. I am a sarcastic bitch in the nicest way possible...a sassy, bratty princess who doesn’t expect anything from anyone except loyalty...however, behind closed doors, mmmm, behind closed doors, well, that’s a whole other story...In private, I am extremely submissive...a dirty, slutty submissive who enjoys nothing more then giving up control to a strong dominant. I relish being at the beck and call of a someone worthy of my submission. I long to feel strong hands on my body, fingers pulling my hair and a voice speaking softly in my ear, completely in control of me. I am still in the midst of learning what aspects of a man or women would make them worthy of my submission.
Yes, I said worthy...I will not submit to someone who is mentally weak or intimidated or even worse, someone whom I deem untrustworthy. I need someone who isn't afraid of possessing me and knows that my submission cannot be beaten out of me, it is given when earned, show me I need to give you all of me. Why is it so hard to find someone that is honest, intelligent, witty verging on sarcastic, maybe even dorky in a charming way, a fantastic kisser who is able to make me laugh, cum and is worthy of everything I have to give. Someone who is generally one of the smartest in the room, someone who uses big words on a daily basis and knows exactly what they mean.
You are most likely a Type A, you demand respect in your daily life and clearly command it without being a narcissistic wannabe. So many fakes, WHY?!?! Please understand, as smart as you think you are, if you are pretending to be, whatever it is you feel the need to portray to the world, you will be found out eventually...look, there are death row inmates that find love, I truly believe, with all of my heart, there is someone for everyone...but, you can only put on a show for so long and really, how exhausting for you! I know, I know...there are plenty of people who would say that they have all of the aforementioned attributes, but we all know how hard it is to find a true partner who isn’t putting on a show. We are to old for reindeer games...please don’t tell me you are the best__fill in the blank, I’ve ever had...if you truly are, you will know, as I am very vocal!
I want to feel the need to be around you in my bones, is it really too much to hope for, that you might have the same need? As I am a people pleaser, I am in no way looking for an equal in that department and truthfully I don’t know if someone like that actually exists, however, my pussy drips at the thought of having that kind of connection.
Losing track of time, guessing we’ve been at it for an hour or 2 only to look at the clock and realize it’s been 4 hours of us focusing only on each other...I need skin to touch. Lips to bite. A neck to kiss while I run my nails down your back. Strong hands for my throat and tushy...I don’t think I’m asking for to much, why can’t I have it...I WANT!!!
