Hi...My name is Richard...I have a very gentle nature....easy to talk to....understanding and get on alot better with females than males....I am very young in heart and do not look my age....Thank you Mum....!....One relationship.....I fell in love with a women I used to see every day in Purley...Our eyes always met....when passing by....Purely by chance...having a Lunch time meal.....she walked in....Started chatting...found out she was in a relationship with another woman...Could not get her out of my mind....Forward wind... one evening two close female friends and alot of wine.Suggestion from them.......Change your look...I did...subtle.....but it worked...it brought out a Feminine side of me that I never knew I had.....When I used to go clubbing I had a very Androgynous look and now that desire has come back....fond memories.....but...a more grown up and Stylish version and more subtle....I love it....Lack alot of confidence in going out locally.....Never wore a dress and do not think Iwould...!....Women say that I have developed a style which is stylish.....We were engaged and due to be married...sadly ...she was killed by a drunk driver .a long time ago...I have a lovely home....a beautiful 3 year old King Charles Cavalier.....and am looking for friendship..with kinky benefits and a love of my kinks....I honestly connect really well with females and that is really due to the relationship I had...
I love cooking....looking after my Garden.....Photograhy...Barbercues at home....Movies...at home.....Listening to Music....I was brought up on Pink Floyd...that era...although I have varied tastes....I also enjoy playing Backgammon....but have not played for a very long time..! really miss female company and would love to meet someone locally who would make me feel comfortable with how my relationship changed my life...I do not want to change sex...or anything like that...but I am finding it a real struggle to cope with the feminine side that my previous relationship brought out in me...You will feel very comfortable talking to me about...Clothes...Make up...Hair
Manicures...Etc....I do not know why....But I always seem to make a connection with females...even though on first meeting there is a nervousness as to whether I am genuine...and not hiding anything..Understandable....My childhood friends are spread all over the world....and the only contact i have is through the internet...Yes ...I am lonely....and really miss female company...I have been as honest as I can be....and I do not think i have missed anything out,...If I have...I will try to include it as I fill in all the info..
All I will add iat this moment is that my Fiancee to be had quite a few items from her relationship....that she said would go a long way to introducing me to understanding what she enjoyed...in our developing relationship..that she would love me to Try and Wear at home...never got to that stage...Apart from a pair of 6.5 pink ballet pointe shoes she bought for me ..which I have worn a few times...I still kept a few other items..which I have never tried..!
She wanted to call me Cassie....I do not know how much you know about mac computers and Siri...but whenever I speak to my computer she now calls me Cassie...!..It has a nice ring to it..........I am about 5 foot 8 inches tall...
getting back...very quickly to being slim....not overweight...but not happy with my weight.....Now. just over 13...stone...Green eyes....very pretty feet....more female than male...I am determined to get back to a weight I was always happy with...about 10 to 11 stone...!...I do have a male side to me as well...which I am happy with....but how to combine both Female and Male traits is something I am really struggling with...Do I call myself Richard Or Cassie...Up to you..Once I activate my account please keep on coming back as i will update and explain things better..!.Never done anything like this before...!...I love the feel of soft fabrics ...have a very stylish dress sense...not my opinion but comments from my
hair stylist first visit.......the salon where I had my eyes done...and even from the nail salonn where I have my nails done.....the comments did take me by surprise...but it made me realise that life is too short..!...and now...what lies ahead...?...I feel as if I have alot of catching up to do...!...I do smoke...Not alot and only in the Garden..
but I would love to give up..especially for a female....
I do not really know as I never got the chance to find out...All I can i can say is that she had a desire to have me helpless in her control.She really had a love of Corsets.......but very gentle in her approach.....I have to admit that I am still very curious
.....and want to find out how it feels. to be helpless wearing a very restrictive hobble corset...?....Friendship is really very important to me and an understanding of how difficult it is for me to cope with a feminine side to me that my previous relationship...has brought to the surface...I have a very curious nature...and quite a few fantasies..
which are a result of drinking too much wine with my fiancee...
Kinky...Most definitely....Daring....Worryingly so...!.......
You know the saying....Anticipation can sometimes be better than the event....It is something I would love to find out if it is really true...I would really hope that the pleasure is better than the anticipation..!
I would like to make it very clear that although i have mentioned my fiancee quite a few times ...it is only because of what it brought out in me ...and of what I could of found out about what made me feel sexy and sensual..
The best way I can explain it ...it was to be an introduction to a very Kinky world...!...Something I would now love to explore and enjoy...with the right female...!.... Having my eyelashes ...eyebrows etc... done..French manicure as well....Hair ....is left up to the imagination of a very young talented female stylist....so you will have to wait for a photo....Please see the rest of my profile....before making a decision..!
Thank you for showing an interest.!..I wish I could tell you more , but I had to sign and agree to a confidentially agreement. All I can tell you without breaking the agreement is to use your imagination and think of your deepest wildest fantasies being played out.!.I have never been so nervous and Read more… apprehensive of what is to come...I have now reached the age where escorts of my age are no longer used..!..I was very privileged to be part of this very secretive world and will miss it an awful lot...!..Unless there are very specific requests for me to act as an escort . this event is a sort of thank you and for me to admit and play out my own deepest fantasies...Anything goes ..but the limits are pretty much the same as what is allowed to be discussed on this website.!...Although no cameras or smart phones etc were allowed at any of the events...there were authorised photographers who were allowed to take photos..I have been told that I will get a personalised Album of all my clients...all the events that I was involved in , photos of me locked up in various bondage items..etc...If my mum was to come across this album...I would be better off on another planet..!...My flight departs on 10.45 pm..10 days of heaven or Hell.!...Cassie
Interesting..You have given me another idea for a self getting into and lockable sleep sack...needs alot of thought , but it will keep me awake for ages....I need to sleep so please do NOT give me any more ideas..Cassie
All I can say is to use your instinct...be careful and see how your partner reacts ..a softly ,softly approach ..can work wonders....work on your partners curiosity..Remember what intrigues her when you visit a store...it may not be obvious straight away..but , I am sure you will get a few Read more… hints...It might be I wonder what it would be like etc...Listen to your partner...take it one step at a time..!..Walking into a store can be an over whelming experience..!...Most important...have fun..!..I remember when I walked into a Skin two shop...so nervous...but the staff made it so welcoming...need I say more..!...
Not alot to add....actually nothing....really good advice....I wish I had that advice years ago.!...Cassie
Hi...May I add to this topic as it is very close to my heart..I was subjected to abuse when I was alot younger...No choice....Scared to talk to anyone...I was left alone with my own confused thoughts...Was what I was going through...Normal...part of growing up...I had no idea.! It changed my Read more… life..affects me to this day...Being in a relationship , whether Dom or Sub..vice versa , an understanding and patience with ones partner is so important. If you really care about your blossoming relationship , the most important thing you can do is to discover , what is not easy , a way of encouraging your partner to open up...it is so hard to do...it is even harder for your partner !!..It really comes down one thing only..Trust..When one opens up emotionally , one feels very vulnerable..Use your instinct as to how to proceed , and do NOT go by what your personal desires are . I spent 4 years going through specialist psychotherapy , once weekly..it took nearly 3 years to really open up...To be honest..I think that if she was part of the fetish scene , I do not think it would of taken that long..NO ONE can really understand what it is like to have emotional and mental scars because of ones past unless they have been through the same or something similar...that is so important to remember.! On a personal note..after all this time , even though time is supposed to be a great healer , I panic when any male touches me , even as a friendly or comforting gesture.Making and achieving that breakthrough is something that I have to yet experience..I mean with a partner.!..One day..Cassie
You know what..I did find out that she had to wear a protective suit and that she was also standing...so I would guess that the layers of chocolate were thinner...14 hours was what the organisers thought it would take for enough chocolate to be licked or nibbled away to allow her to "escape"...It Read more… took only 5 hours...she was sponsored and at the end of the party...the amount raised was 215, 000 Euros...I am a little bit wary of mentioning what the event was raising funds for..so I am hoping that a moderator will, if needed rephrase the following....it was to do with providing counselling and helping young vunerable youngsters who were subject to physical and sexual abuse..So close to my heart...I think you can guess why. By the way , she has a love of milk chocolate...was very unhappy that she had to be enclosed in dark chocolate.!...But to raise that amount of money is just wonderful..!..Whether she has been put of chocolate for the rest of her kinky life , only she knows...Cassie