I am currently a new master, looking to further my knowledge, so I may get the most pleasure, and give the most pleasure possible. I met my sub on a 1 in a million chance, I owe her so much, as she is my first TRUE sub...and can't imagine anyone other than her as my sub. Just need some input/guidance.
I agree with your comments 110%, yes... I should have been more forthcoming when she returned, yes I did make a verbal commitment that night, but at the same time this was over a four day Whirlwind first meeting, and she was gone for a month after that. She even said herself, that she feels it Read more… would have been different had she been here the month after our first encounter. While she was gone I did have a chance to step back and put it all in perspective and ask myself was I ready to be in a committed relationship after knowing someone for days, and also coming off of a 6 month run of being single and enjoying my life. I understand if you're in this lifestyle, I get where the comments are coming from, as I was unaware of the commitment it takes to be in a relationship like this. Just the other night as an example we had finished a session, and I had completely forgotten about the aftercare. I was easily reminded when I saw the look on her face when I was about to leave, and it all hit me... For which I immediately apologized, and apologized again for last night. This is more than a relationship when it comes to a Dom / submissive. It's like riding a bike almost, I didn't learn to ride a bike in one day, I tried to... In the end though it will take me a lot longer time. Yes, she deserves a better man than me at this moment, but that's not to say that I couldn't be that man if given time. So judge me if you will, My Life Will Go On as will yours, but there was no intention of misleading her whatsoever. You guys take care, be good to one another... And have an awesome Christmas Hanukkah whatever you celebrate!
I am actually the dom or man/child as I have been called. She has failed to mention that we have known each other maybe a month, and I have never ONCE cheated on her. I had been divorced since last year and and had been, shall I say, wild for the last 6 months. This all happened with her and myself Read more… in a whirlwind and I admit I got caught up in it. I have never been in this type of a relationship before and didn't know what it truly meant. I haven't been making plans to see anyone else, although I am still in contact with a few of the women I had seen. I have advised her that I probably am not the right person for her, as she deserves someone with more experience in this. I really wish people were not so quick to judge without knowing all the facts.
Thanks to all of you for you responses, it really means a lot. I would definitely take all of yours advice and see if I can transfer that over into our relationship, we have hit a rough spot here since she has moved back, for both of us... Not so much our relationship per se, but more so situations Read more… that have come around us that we are unable to have those nights like the first four. But hopefully soon we can get back on track, and see where this journey takes us.
I could copy/paste your exact words, Robustlove...The asphyxiation part especially, I will have mine look me in the eyes, as I cover her nose and mouth… She starts the struggle, then I tell her to relax to look at me, it’s just the fear in the eyes I think, when they’re really running out of Read more… oxygen, And you can see it in their eyes when they’re about to pass out… And then the big release, the big exhale!